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idk if it's just me but i'm glad that the majority of people outside of here believe tumblr is a dead site because like i've been here for 13 years and like this is my house??? i don't need thousands upon thousands of people flocking here it'd be like inviting chimps to a house party total fucking carnage

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Honestly I think one of the most empowering things you can do for yourself is to separate your negative qualities from your identity.

Instead of saying “I’m lazy,” saying “I’ve made a habit of not doing work unless it’s absolutely necessary.” Instead of saying “I’m a bad friend,” saying “I haven’t communicated as much as I should with the people I care about.”

By being specific about your problems, and by framing it as an action that you are consciously either working on or ignoring rather than an unchangeable part of who you are, you allow yourself to accept your mistakes and work constructively on them instead of pretending they didn’t happen or wallowing in blaming yourself.

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this quote reminds me of saturnians and twelfth housers

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So I read another fantasy romance...

... but it's gay! "Faebound" is the first in Saara El-Arifi's romance trilogy and I already can't wait for the next installment. I'm emotionally attached to Lettle and I must see how everything works out.

Oddly enough when I write that I don't mean with the romances(although there is a very interesting enemies to lovers/love triangle thing going on with the main character). "Faebound" has a unique magic system and worldbuilding. Most importantly it has large magical, telepathic cats written by someone who has clearly loved cats(she also says as much in her bio) and had them love her back.

My only criticism is that the ending felt hasty especially the deaths that happened but that's probably on me for basically devouring the final chapters.

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Propaganda is wild...

... cuz thanking Trump for Tiktok still being up is insane??? He proposed the ban and Biden followed through on it. The two party system is a mess.

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Reblog daily for health and prosperity

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“You should be at the club.” No, I should be at the scholastic book fair.

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The best revenge is none. Move on and heal yourself so you don’t become like the people who traumatized you.

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Y'all ever heard of the mirror, window, door theory

That most of the people you meet are windows mirrors or doors(with overlap of course). People who are mirrors show you things about yourself, people who are windows show you things that may not necessarily be about you, and people who are doors usher you or walk with you as you move to new eras in your life.

I just realized most of the cats I've met were doors which sucks because I had to leave them behind or they left. I really wish Jack wasn't a door. I miss her so much. The only living thing that ever loved me back.

I bottle fed her and kept her warm at night and my ex hated her. When I had to leave her with him and came over to visit she suddenly didn't like being held or even inside. Then he ran her over on "accident" knowing that she'd often run under his car. I begged him to keep her inside.

I miss Bhaggie(short for Bhagera) too. He's with my ex and I know he's not being treated nicely. Sometimes I wish I could go get him but it doesn't seem like a good idea to go back to that house.

I know one day I'll have a cat that stays. That I'll keep safe. And maybe I will go get Bhaggie back when I have somewhere safe for us both to go.

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Okay so this blog as turned into an all around critique/taste blog and I have reviewed albums and films and talked about what I'm reading but I really would like to add fashion to that. I love to yap about it especially since it helps me learn more.

I think the a good place to start is other people/tumblr blogs that talk about fashion if anyone has any recs or blogs about it themselves I'd love to give you a follow.

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Akira Kurosawa’s Ikiru

...reminds me of how similar American and Japanese culture are. The shunning of earnestness, the pressure to fall in line, and the acceptance of assumption and rumor as truth are things that from this film I can tell both cultures share.

This is the kind of film that reminds you you're never alone no matter how unpopular your ideas may feel. Nearly 70 years ago someone felt the need to write and direct this movie about a dying man and how he managed to die happy despite a thirty year delay, despite looking in the wrong places for that happiness and despite the obstacles of the status quo... all with only six months left.

(Spoilers beyond this point)

He thought hedonism, the child he raised alone for twenty years or the lively underling would be his final happiness or at least guide him there. But each was a dead end. It was in creating and working for the good of others that he found solace and acceptance of his fate and his time left.

It makes me wonder whether I will sit back down in response to all the disapproving looks but I realize, even now at 24, I don't have time.

"But any of us could die at any moment"

Oh also if you're a letterbox person give me a follow! I'll follow back. I've watched and reviewed a few films and plan on leaving most of my long reviews there.

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happy "everyone forgets that icarus also flew" monday. i want to throw up !

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Y'all I have only seen Creature Commandos via clips on Tiktok but if they bring Nina back(which they should... but they won't )... I really need the Bride to kiss her.

Anywho the Bride is gonna be a great leader for them and she cooked when she clocked(and glocked LMFAO) the Princess.

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A gratitude post

I'm grateful for snow days(especially living in the south). I'm grateful I get to see and take pictures of new things. I'm grateful to be in the moment. To be able to write both here and in my journal.

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So if you're not using your library's online resources you should definitely start.

I recently activated my Kanopy account with my library card and woah are there some gems on here. Today I watched Ikiru a pretty good(lol) Japanese film from 1952 and it was a joy to watch snowed in with my daily green tea.