moonlitmeadowsys

[moonlitmeadowsys]

i dont think i will ever forgive what the internet did to DID because please explain to me how "your sense of self is so torn apart you think youre multiple people" turned into "youre actually multiple people"

do you understand what i mean? please understand what i mean

[moonlitmeadowsys]

seeing an endogenic call themselves a system gives me the same feeling as when a straight girl calls herself a twink -kaz

[moonlitmeadowsys]

A helpful flow chart for the entire endo and pro endo community

[moonlitmeadowsys]

Friendly reminder that declaring your blog a "safe space for systems of all origins" makes your blog explicitly not safe for trauma survivors. Allow sheep and wolves, and you'll only end up with wolves.

[moonlitmeadowsys]

yeah no so basically fuck the grapegenic community. as someone in the lemonadegenic community (i actually run a lemonade stand irl so i'm not faking.), people in the grapegenic community pose a real threat to us. i used to be open to grapegenics, but one time i got harassed literally every day by this duck from the grapegenic community who kept asking for grapes even though i am CLEARLY a lemonadegenic blogger. grapegenics DNI, since you love to be ignorant

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[moonlitmeadowsys]

sys culture is my identity is somewhat based off memory

"This happened when I was fronting I know it did, they're supposed to be my memories" but I don't remember it happening so am I really still the same me *stares down at my hands in horror* (happens to many of us)

We deal with it by just deciding "I am who I say I am when I say I am because who knows who I am better than me" if it turns out we're wrong we can adjust later, c'est la vie. Who's gonna know

[moonlitmeadowsys]

system with adhd culture is... "is this adhd related forgetfulness or is this dissociation due to being a system?"

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[moonlitmeadowsys]

NOT supportive to your system friends:

- "can you make [alter] front?"

- always asking who's fronting

- getting upset when they can't remember something

VERY supportive to your system friends:

- giving them money

- "here's $50 for you"

- relinquishing your money to them

- offering them money

[moonlitmeadowsys]

sys culture is “I wanna go home” even as you are actively laying in bed

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[moonlitmeadowsys]

“People who claim to be endogenic are misinformed about the nature of systemhood, have most likely buried their traumatic childhood memories, and are usually not just faking” AND “I don’t want endos or their supporters anywhere fucking near me,” are statements that CAN and DO coexist, btw

[moonlitmeadowsys]

you contradict yourself because you contain multitudes. i contradict myself because i am wrong.

[moonlitmeadowsys]

We have no concept of time

Also we have a discord and would love to make more system friends. If you're interested, feel free to DM and we can make a server. The only requirements are that you're respectful and accepting of introjects. If you use pluralkit, we can add that to the server as well. We'd love to hear from you!

–John

[moonlitmeadowsys]

syscultureis:

"I wish my alters would front more."

Maybe they have. You just don't remember.

"I am so sick of fronting omfg"

"dog you haven't fronted all day until now"

[moonlitmeadowsys]

the fact that some people still believe in there being an "evil alter" is so funny. there's not one evil alter here we're all in a ranked competition to see who's the evilest. it gets super competitive blood gets shed people die.

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"inner worlds" and "headspaces" are literally just your imagination btw. they're therapeutic techniques that visualize the inner workings of your system. they're used to improve system function and communication. they're not real, they're metaphorical. EVERYTHING that happens in headspace is metaphorical.

[moonlitmeadowsys]

we don't experience much everyday blackout amnesia, but we do experience a lot of emotional amnesia - that feeling of "that wasn't me, i don't feel connected to that."

the best way that i've found to describe that feeling is "that feels like a dream." so many memories feel like dreams, like i didn't actually experience them. it's like how sometimes you'll only remember a dream in bits and pieces, and it gives you a weird "off" feeling whenever you think about it. the memory of the dream feels distant and strange. that is what emotional amnesia feels like for us.

[moonlitmeadowsys]

who knows whos fronting. most days we just wake up with an almost vibe for someone maybe??? and then maybe i figure it out in an hour and maybe i dont. infinite loading screen