moonlitmeadowsys

[moonlitmeadowsys]

sys culture is my identity is somewhat based off memory

"This happened when I was fronting I know it did, they're supposed to be my memories" but I don't remember it happening so am I really still the same me *stares down at my hands in horror* (happens to many of us)

We deal with it by just deciding "I am who I say I am when I say I am because who knows who I am better than me" if it turns out we're wrong we can adjust later, c'est la vie. Who's gonna know

[moonlitmeadowsys]

system with adhd culture is... "is this adhd related forgetfulness or is this dissociation due to being a system?"

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[moonlitmeadowsys]

NOT supportive to your system friends:

- "can you make [alter] front?"

- always asking who's fronting

- getting upset when they can't remember something

VERY supportive to your system friends:

- giving them money

- "here's $50 for you"

- relinquishing your money to them

- offering them money

[moonlitmeadowsys]

sys culture is “I wanna go home” even as you are actively laying in bed

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[moonlitmeadowsys]

“People who claim to be endogenic are misinformed about the nature of systemhood, have most likely buried their traumatic childhood memories, and are usually not just faking” AND “I don’t want endos or their supporters anywhere fucking near me,” are statements that CAN and DO coexist, btw

[moonlitmeadowsys]

you contradict yourself because you contain multitudes. i contradict myself because i am wrong.

[moonlitmeadowsys]

We have no concept of time

Also we have a discord and would love to make more system friends. If you're interested, feel free to DM and we can make a server. The only requirements are that you're respectful and accepting of introjects. If you use pluralkit, we can add that to the server as well. We'd love to hear from you!

–John

[moonlitmeadowsys]

syscultureis:

"I wish my alters would front more."

Maybe they have. You just don't remember.

"I am so sick of fronting omfg"

"dog you haven't fronted all day until now"

[moonlitmeadowsys]

the fact that some people still believe in there being an "evil alter" is so funny. there's not one evil alter here we're all in a ranked competition to see who's the evilest. it gets super competitive blood gets shed people die.

[moonlitmeadowsys]

"inner worlds" and "headspaces" are literally just your imagination btw. they're therapeutic techniques that visualize the inner workings of your system. they're used to improve system function and communication. they're not real, they're metaphorical. EVERYTHING that happens in headspace is metaphorical.

[moonlitmeadowsys]

we don't experience much everyday blackout amnesia, but we do experience a lot of emotional amnesia - that feeling of "that wasn't me, i don't feel connected to that."

the best way that i've found to describe that feeling is "that feels like a dream." so many memories feel like dreams, like i didn't actually experience them. it's like how sometimes you'll only remember a dream in bits and pieces, and it gives you a weird "off" feeling whenever you think about it. the memory of the dream feels distant and strange. that is what emotional amnesia feels like for us.

[moonlitmeadowsys]

who knows whos fronting. most days we just wake up with an almost vibe for someone maybe??? and then maybe i figure it out in an hour and maybe i dont. infinite loading screen

[moonlitmeadowsys]

saw a post that was complaining about how someone else put the "endos dni" tag on a post reminding ppl to drink water. like, "why is endos dni on this post? youre gatekeeping potentially life saving information!!!"

number one: ppl have the right to curate their online experience lol. if i dont want you on my blog i can do that. simple.

number two: "gatekeeping potentially life saving information"??? a tumblr post saying to drink water??? i am begging you to go outside and interact with the world around you for once in your life

[moonlitmeadowsys]

A system is a collection of alters. Alters are chronically dissociated self states, with different neurological pathways that often are accompanied by a varying degree of amnesia. Dissociation is caused by stress/trauma. Alters are a byproduct of dissociating from trauma. You can’t dissociate from trauma you do not have. You cannot dissociate without trauma. You cannot have alters without trauma. You cannot have a system without alters.

You cannot be a system without trauma.

Do you have to know about the trauma ? No. Does it have to be a certain type of trauma ? No. Does it need to be a certain severity ? No. It just needs to have occurred during critical developmental period of the brain. Before the ego states have stitched together, it must be chronic, and beyond the child’s stress threshold, otherwise it will not disrupt the developmental growth. This is different for everyone. The reason trauma cannot be listed as a diagnostic criteria, is because there is no “xyz trauma that causes dissociative disorders”. It’s completely unique to each person suffering from the disorder. And in often cases, the person suffering from the disorder isn’t aware of their trauma. That’s the point of the disorder. This does not mean you don’t need trauma to suffer from a dissociative disorder. Systems are byproducts of dissociative disorders, you cannot be a byproduct of a disorder you do not have.

Endos are not systems. What do I mean by this? I mean that, by definition, that term is not suited for them, and is not meant to describe them. Just like kinning doesn’t mean you’re a system, just like roleplaying doesn’t mean you’re a system, just like religious practises such as tulpamancy isn’t a system. You are perfectly free to do whatever you please, truly. But do not compare it to being a system. You do not share our experiences. You are a different community entirely, and that’s ok.

But please, for the love of god, stop invading our community, and stop spreading misinformation about an already stigmatised and misunderstood disorder.

I understand if you didn’t know better. But please, educate yourself, and stop spreading this misinformation. Being a system isn’t an identity. It’s not a label. And please, stop comparing it to being queer. This is a mental illness. Being queer is not a mental illness.

[moonlitmeadowsys]

this ____ wishes you a merry christmas! 🎅

merry christmas to all who celebrate 🎄❤️

[moonlitmeadowsys]

FRONT-TIED

Front-tied is the term for an alter who feels intrinsically tied to fronting at all times, even if they are not actually fronting all the time. This may include being the host / co-host of the system, always being near front, always influencing who’s in front, etc etc.

The green represents a connection, specifically a connection to fronting. It descends in darkness to symbolize the layers of intensity a certain alter may feel connected to front.

no credit needed to use this flag/term!

endos do not use this flag. make ur own flag/term.

[moonlitmeadowsys]

„sysmed” No, dumbfuck, it’s called actually having the medical disorder you glorify and using factual psychiatric research, instead of deciding people without trauma can suddenly choose to be a system.