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Clearly I suck at updating regularly but good things have been happening

Meanwhile im mentally not all here or motivated… so im not seizing opportunities the way I should :(

my fault though

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Missp4st3lmonster’s camera roll is…

Pink

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🎀💄Got a new phone! 🩰🩷It is pink!! 💕🌸

This and more updates to come

Manifestation and my vision board are coming true! Everything works out for me. I’m literally so lucky.

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January 28, 2024

Good morning!

Starting today by trying something new… creative in my OJ.

Doctor said I needed more which is weird because I thought it was only for exercise? Anyways

Really hope this is good, about to drink now.

Oh.

That is all I have.

Oh.

It’s not bad just…different…

Anywho, l am gonna use the roller and then I will eat my yogurt and finish this OJ.

The yogurt I am eating today is Boston cream pie, and I am so so so happy i found it! I used to have it as a child and then one day I couldn’t find it anymore! Now I found it again, better yet, it is light!

Thanks to my OJ, that means breakfast is 190 cals

I now have an hour to get ready, which wouldn’t be so bad if not for having a bad hair day :[

FINALLY finished that drink.

I don’t know what I will wear today. Probably something comfy and warm to be honest. Which means yoga pants layered with nice black pants on top. The top is the hardest part. My SHEIN order can not arrive fast enough.

Back on food, eating something bc it is good for me and not cause I love it is so difficult, but I have the discipline to get my calcium, Vitamin C, and Vitamin D.

I am SO cold

I’ll have to come back to this later, I am about to try and tame my hair. Wish me luck <3

Ciao for now

Missp4st3lmonster

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‧₊˚✧[Little life update]✧˚₊‧

malu has finally fully moved !! <3

wishing all of you a lovely Sunday; I also promise to start posting regularly again now that I've settled in a bit ༉‧₊˚.

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School Week Back is finished editing, just finding the courage to post!

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January 23, 2024

I have finished editing my week back to school, but I can’t find the courage to post for some reason. It’s no big deal. But it is hard.

That being said today…was messy.

I have a class with someone who I should have listened to sooner. Who warned me of a guy I dated. One who threatened to hurt him. I owe him an apology, and I don’t have the courage. It hurts. I don’t know where or how to find the courage. Maybe I need to do more healing. Maybe I should speak to my sorority sisters.

Ciao for now

Missp4st3lmonster

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January 19, 2024

Today is first day of in person classes. My first class is at 12 and it is 10:17. I woke at 8 AM so I spent the morning getting ready and preparing textbooks. Seems this is the first semester since my first semester It is impossible for me to cheap out on textbooks, unfortunate. As I get ready and wait for replies to emails I started Abbott Elementary, and it is good. It takes A LOT to get me into a TV series or movie, and this is enough for me.

Yesterday I finished Haunting Adeline in 7 hours. It was so good. I now have to start the second ASAP. I made a playlist and everything. I still need to go to class today and then to a service event tonight. After which I will need to shower and then edit the video. Not too much substance since I can’t disclose every little detail of my life. Not to mention censoring my face.

Due to not being able to start certain class assignments I LITERALLY have nothing to do right now other than blog…hm…may as well start editing I guess as I continue to film. I have this odd fear people I know will find this blog and/or YouTube. Suppose it comes with the territory of vulnerability online?

Ciao for now,

Missp4st3lmonster

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More girlhood things that I love

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Wearing cute satin robes while doing my skincare

Soft curls and bows

Getting ready with my friends before going out

Holding hands with my friends when walking through crowded spaces or streets

Putting bows on everything

That phase where everyone dotted their i's with hearts

The comfort necklace

Communicating through side glances

How every girl has her very own lip combo

Scanning the menu thirty times before choosing what to eat

Being gifted chocolates and ranking the flavours with my best friend

owning way too many cute pj sets

The feeling when you get a fresh manicure

Needing a 4pm coffee + sweet treat

Sending hauls to my friends after every shopping spree

Blushy make-up during winter

Finally finding your signature nail colour

"what's in my bag" videos

Staying in and watching Barbie movies

As always, Please feel free to share your own little things and moments in the comments and let me know how many of these you relate to!!

✩‧₊*:・love ya ･:*₊‧✩

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January 17, 2024

You will all be glad to know I have gotten into a really sustainable routine. I will be posting more, posting videos too.

I am going to finish up my video for preparing for school and then my first day of classes. My recording schedule has been rough as it snowed and the first day went from being Tuesday to being Thursday (tomorrow).

I think I will start doing my journaling on here as to give you guys an example of the new habits I am forming.

I intended for today to be a productive day but my friend kept me up till 5 AM. I did I not wake up until 11 AM. I will get back to routine tonight though. I just have to get better at saying no. Last night I took a nice relaxing bath, that will be in the video.

I can’t focus on writing since i am watching Girl, Interrupted. I just finished watching Gentleman Prefer Blondes.

My throat hurts, I think as much as I love sleeping in the cold, it is doing me no good…

I have kept my room and bathroom obsessively clean, so that is an achievement..

I unlearned my bad habit of wanting a quick snack and made myself a salad when I wanted something, of course it was the most bizarre salad since the snow has kept me from grocery shopping…we love car centric infrastructure . It was spinach, some other greens I don’t know, dressing, cheese, ham,, and “croutons”. I had no shredded cheese and settled for tearing a couple of small pieces off of a slice of cheese. As or the “croutons” I had to get goldfish.

I need to refill my medication, but the doctors office who does it for me is closed because of snow back home. So I have been saving the medication for school days.

Trying to decide if I want to do makeup since I’ll just have to wash it off later with no plans today. It is 4:32, I need it to be later already.

Anyways, I will end this here for now.

Ciao for now,

Missp4stelmonster

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Salad and Girl, Interrupted

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December 27, 2023

I’m considering making a tiktok for vlogs

Having video or photo evidence of me being productive really helps me and so I thought I should try it.

I will be updating this blog if it happens.

In the mean time:

I’ve gotten lots done today.

I feel beautiful.

I am beautiful.

I’ve taken care of myself and my home.

I feel well rested.

I wrote up “SMART” goals for 2024.

I think as long as I regulate myself I will be okay.

I really do enjoy journaling on this blog. I need to sign in from my iPad so it is easier to type these up though.

I hope you all are doing well and that the rest of this month and your 2024 fills you all with blessings.

I will be praying for you all as it has been a rough year…or rough years…

With love

Ciao for now

Missp4st3lmonster

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December 20th 2023

11:12 pm

Working on myself and gratitude is so worth it. I know it will get bad again. But I’ll learn to pull myself back up better.

Ciao, love you all. I pray things go well and stay good. I wish lucky girl syndrome on you all.

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December 5, 2023

I am trying to pretend my human A&P class isn’t about to drag down my GPA. I need to sleep. Then I can finish this assignment, my project, my consumer psych assignments, and study for my abnormal psych exams

I wish I could fix it but it is too late.

It’s unfair because I tried so hard in human A&P, but the other girls have an ongoing cheating system they do in class and they pass. It is so unfair. I want to speak up but don’t want to be a snitch.

Ciao

Missp4st3lmonster

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November 28, 2023

It’s 11:32. I took a nice relaxing bath. I’m stressed and getting acne. I

I’m at a loss for words it’s just

My childhood best friend

I’ve been ignoring her the last few days. Stopped messaging on discord. Didn’t even open our snaps.

I’m tired of trying. Tired of reaching out. Tired of talking about my life or venting and it being covered up by what they’re up to.

I feel like the only reason they’re worried for me and checking in on me is because im no longer there as an option. I’m tired.

I don’t want to be just an option.

It’s edgy I know.

I’m just exhausted. I’ve been basically crying for help this last week and it was met with nothing.

I don’t know what to tell her.

I miss how things were.

I hate how serious my group takes everything now.

I come to them so we can be silly to cope with life.

We don’t.

Not anymore.

I hate it.

I’m frustrated and tired.

I pray for things to go back to what they were.

For undeserved mercy.

My stomach is closing in itself. My eyes sting like im going to cry but there is no tears. It is weird.

I’m tired of it all.

I hate to carry everything and to not be cared for.

Everything is too much.

I hate this. I hate myself for being non confrontational and weak.

I need to get better.

Do better.

Look better.

Be better.

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November 27, 2023

Today has been so chaotic and it’s only 3 PM!

I was finishing up a project and learned that my last project got a 0 all because I made a mistake in formatting. I hope I don’t fail classes. I probably will…

Anyways im currently waiting for my drivers license at the DMV, here’s to hoping it looks better than last time smfh.

Anyways ciao for now

-missp4s3lmonster