me-by-myself

[me-by-myself]

at least i can say i tried,

but won’t admit that i cried.

my heart shattered into so many pieces, that I forgot who i was.

the paper i wrote my poems on had so many creases,

i can’t remember the cause.

was it you, was it me?

was it your broken promises

or would you say my imagination?

my lack of confidence?

or only the lack of information?

huge was my desire,

was it like fire?

did i burn you or did i drown you in the ocean of my feelings?

you had to cut the strings

and yet I thought you were my prince.

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Being invalidated by your own parents is a whole new level of pain

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mentally i’m a slut physically i’m scared of intimacy 

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sometimes i regret cutting, looking at them, still on my legs and arms years after the damage was done, yet i get sad when they fade, like a friend growing up and moving on to bigger and better people

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THIS.

i swear it’s so invalidating when you genuinely cant cut deep, then your left with hundreds of baby cuts and run out of space on your wrist or thigh.

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Simping over a boy in my class rn, who ain’t even my type. I‘m going to cry like, I reeeeeaaaallyyyy simp for him

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And suddenly we were strangers again

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Well, so I found out that my best friend/a really good friend of mine was in love with me. I was in love with her too btw. And she told it me today, but she has a boyfriend. She also said that we could‘ve been together if we both knew about it or we could come together any day. I- YOU DON‘T FUCKING KNOW HOW FUCKING SPEECHLESS I WAS DJSBSJSKANSKS

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I came across some of your posts while looking up stuff about alcoholic moms. I hope you're doing okay. I hate my mom too but i still love her. She choose the bottle over everything and I'll never forget that even if she does.

First of all, I‘m doing well right know and what about you? Thank you for your care <3 and like you said, we will never forget the actions our mother did when she is drunk, even if she does do. And about that, we don’t need to forget it or forgive her and it‘s okay. You don’t need to. (That goes to all people out there)

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Well, I kinda got rid of my toxic alcoholic mother. I am at my dads now. I still hate my mother, but I kinda want to go back home, even tho like I said, that I hate her. But I need to move on and be egoistic one time.

(Btw, I still kinda love her like, I don’t really hate her, I hate what she did)

:)

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And here are we…again (TW maybe?)

A sleepless night

A drunk mother with her friends, that keep the girl awake

A girl, that just wanted to sleep

A girl, that loves but also hates her mother

A girl, with trust issues to her mother

A day after, where the mother denies everything

A day after, where the girl doesn’t know how to communicate with her mother

The girl doesn’t even know if she wants to go in her mums bed at 12am or if she wants to push her mother down the stairs

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ISTG, YES GURL

Dont ever. Ever. Ever. Tell me something is because of my period.

I dont care if you know me since forever, if you are afab or if you're anyone. You dont get to tell me that.

If i get pissed at you on my period i am pissed at you i am not just moody

The only person who get to say "oh its because of your period" is me to myself. And it still doesnt give you a reason to invalidate my emotions.

Dont tell me its my period. Dont ask me if it is because of my period. Dont ask me if i am on my period.

Fuck this.

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✨🍞🖕🏼👀😺 yikes

apparently ur last 5 non face emojis are ur aestuetic. ❤💞🏳️‍🌈🏃‍♂️💔 AWWW

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I love how I always say that I don’t want to have children because I don’t like them, while the truth is that I’m terrified of ending up like my abusive parents.

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do you ever start to overthink and analyze how some people close to you treated you so wrong, and now you wanna fight everyone that was involved