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My grandfather and my godfather (a beloved neighbor and dear family friend) had a long standing bet- for one dollar- about who would die first. Both of them being slightly pessimistic (in the funny way), they both insisted that they themselves would be the first to die. Any time my grandfather had a health scare, he’d gleefully call up my godfather to boast that he’d be passing “any day now” and he was sure to win the bet. It was a big family joke and they were always amiably sparring and comparing notes about who was in worse shape, medically speaking.

When my grandfather was in hospice care dying of liver cancer, my godfather was quite ill also. It took him great effort to make the journey to see his dying friend. As he came into the room, supported by a family member, he shuffled to my grandpa’s bedside and silently handed him a dollar bill. He was ceding his loss of the bet, as they both knew who was going first. My grandpa had been in quite bad shape for a while and was no longer able to speak but let me tell you he snatched that dollar with unexpected strength and literally laughed aloud. He knew exactly what the gesture meant and he couldn’t help but find the humor within the grief. It was the last time any of us heard my grandpa laugh, as he passed shortly after.

When I talk about my appreciation for “dark humor” I’m not so much thinking about edgy jokes, but rather the human instinct to somehow, impossibly, both find and appreciate the absurdity that is so often folded into the profound grief of life and death. When I tell this story I think it kind of perturbs people sometimes, but it’s honestly one of my favorite memories about two men I really deeply admired. I could never hope for anything more than for my loved ones to remember me laughing until the very end, and taking joy in a little joke as one of my final acts.

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"as long as our journey continues, we can always meet again"

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recent frierens

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In another life - Arcane Made some timebomb fanart based on Klimt's The Kiss and an unused opening card from the show i saw on twitter!

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💜🤍

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pookieful

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Such weightiness is the privilege of having loved and been loved, but by God does it hurt to carry all that love onwards by yourself.

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Drunkji my beloved

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I just wanted to draw another standee XD This time one side is a modern AU ^^ Loved being able to dress them up :3

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I guess I just like to draw sleeping cuties…

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Why is grief like that one hidden mole on your body that you dont remember until you remember “oh, i have a mole there”, except at that point it’s not a mole but a fucking empty hole cauterized by time at work time away time spent staring at the sun rising and setting time asking what time it is and how long has it been and how long will it be until the hole becomes a scar

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"dead doesn't mean absent...", tathev simonyan

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i love slowburn and drama🥰🤗🤩

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Here my little Part 2 of the Toy Repair AU!

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Another one… just endless inspiration It’s so heartbreaking

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like father like daughter