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MAKE FANDOM CRINGE AGAIN!!!!!! REBLOG IF YOU THING FANDOM SHOULD BE CRINGE AGAIN!!!!!!

I mean selfship, bad art, bad writing, bad cosplay, weird theories and harmless headcanons, crossover ships, oc x canon, mary sue ocs, all of it. If it’s for your own personal entertainment it hurts NOBODY!!!

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i feel like i‘ve lost my spark and trying to get it back is fucking exhausting

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genuinely fucked up that if i want to interact with someone online i have to say words and have a conversation instead of just mashing my face against them like a cat

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Pearl

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boneless wings

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You’re feeling shitty and Keigo is more than willing to help you out. 

just a short little thing. just tooth rotting fluff, soft keigo, very sweet, nice. nesting fic with avian hawks. enjoy a soft, feel good piece. 

enjoy a feel good piece y’all ;^)

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vent-ish, more just complaining

sometimes i wish i had friends outside of that community that are also into vtubers or understand oshi culture

bc how do i explain to someone "am i petty and unreasonable for wanting to unfollow a mutual's private acct bc they're tweeting perfectly valid and fair criticisms abt our oshi but i don't like seeing the negativity and criticism on my tl abt my oshi" without sounding like a deranged, parasocial freak to a normal person

like yes, i understand that this is such a stupid problem to have and be annoyed by. yes, i understand that it's valid for people to have different opinions from mine and for me to not agree. and yes, i understand the surprise that i still use twt. and yes, i know that it's twt and i should have my expectations on the floor when it comes to human decency there. actually.. that's another thing. someone that likes vtubers or understand oshi culture, and also isn't immediately biased or judgy bc i still use twt in today's day and age. the app may be shit and be run by assholes, but the community i'm in there is still alive and kicking and very kind.

but anyway. maybe i'm petty for feeling annoyed at seeing them tweet multiple times abt it. maybe i'm being childish for thinking they would care or hate me for unfollowing them, when we're adults and it literally doesn't matter. but also it would be nice to avoid the awkwardness of having mutual friends by not unfollowing them

idk. i wish i wasn't so sensitive so i wouldn't care abt stuff like this

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tumblr is such a different animal than other social media platforms for so many reasons obviously but one thing i really find funny about it is how on other sites if i see something that doesn't interest me i don't follow or don't like the post. but on here if someone i follow starts posting exclusively about something really niche that i have no interest in my reaction is never to unfollow. its just part of the natural environment. like oh mutual is now really into pro wrestling? ok i guess ill be seeing these guys around now

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coming back to tumblr after being on twitter for a bit is so nice

no misogyny, no unintelligible tweets asking why women should be allowed to live, no unnecessary drama over a poorly-worded tweet

just neil banging out his tunes, porn, and cursed yet poetic textposts <3

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what I think will happen if I message my mutuals

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when you need the voices in your head to care abt you bc you can't even do it yourself

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vent

i really fucking hate having high-functioning depression.

maybe people would care more if i was visibly not okay. if i had wounds. if i wasn't able to just get up and go about my day and get a bit of work done.

maybe it would be easier to feel valid in my struggles if there was visible, physical proof that i am, in fact, struggling. that i'm even mentally ill in the first place.

hell, maybe getting myself put in the hospital would be better than nothing, because at least i can pretend that the people there care about me getting better. minus the medical debt and inconvenience it would cause my family.

because that's all i ever feel like anymore. to anyone. just an inconvenience. just a passing hobby. a passing friend that will echo your fixation and help you brainrot. a temporary inconvenience that will eventually shrivel and go away where it can't bother you. a thorn inside that isn't enough to hurt you, but enough to make your days feel a bit longer and annoying.

i think the world would be a bit brighter without me here. nothing significant like my life matters, but maybe people would be a bit happier if i was never here in the first place.

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mutuals i am politely asking you what color i remind you of

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The Big Otome Game Survey

Hello all,

I've decided to launch a big otome game survey, looking at most popular characters across several popular otome games (and whether there are any correlations in terms of people liking the same characters across multiple games). You can also vote for your favourite otome game among the options listed.

If you're interested in otome games, please do participate and reblog this post! You don't need to have played all of the games on the list in order to participant, just answer for any that you have.

The survey will close at 10pm (22:00) (UTC+1) on May 1st 2025 and I will publish the results sometime after.

Any issues with the survey just let me know in the replies on this post!

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vent

at what point does "it's okay to want things from friends and to ask them" become "you need to do these things yourself bc you can't expect other people to take care of it for you"?

where is the line separating the two? where do i cut myself off from wanting things or words from people and just tell myself "you can't expect people to do this for you"?

at what point do i completely just shut myself off of expecting or wanting things from the people around me?

how do i become completely self-sufficent, to the point where i don't desire to or seek out others for comfort/guidance? how do i stop relying on others for what i need?

how do i stop feeling like a constant, ticking time bomb that people will leave when i vent or talk too much about my mental struggles?

how do i make all of attention-seeking, selfish behavior stop?

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Mystic messenger x Sanrio

Vanderwood x Pochacco

(More Mysmes posts here)  

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there's something oddly... nice? about being scolded by your friends/loved ones, whether jokingly or seriously.

for me, it's a sign that someone is thinking about me enough to speak out against my behavior. that someone cares enough about me to warn me against doing something because they don't want X to happen to me.

perhaps it's also because of my hyper independence. i am completely capable of taking care of myself, but having that safety net of "oh, if i can't properly take care of myself, they will be there to help me and nudge me along" makes me happier than i know how to describe.

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i shouldn't be left alone past midnight listening to the "my love is sick" album. currently crying to dogbird and wondering if i'll ever be capable of love again