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they want you to make fried rice

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tumblr discourse after 13 years on this fucking website

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me suddenly realizing that this head empty, air-headed persona/side of me that i put on is my way of coping with my horrible problem of overthinking

sometimes i have moments where i feel like i'm genuinely going to explode or have a meltdown with how in my head i am, and then i think abt moments where i'm all like "hehe my brain is all squishy and smooth" with my friends and realize... wow holy shit is that why i do that??

ofc it doesn't have to be as deep as that, but... huh, it's interesting to think about. i'm just so caught up in how good it feels to just not think and act like a dumb little monkey that i realize that wow, overthinking sucks.

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I think we all need some soup right now. Reblog to give prev a bowl of their favourite soup.

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finished my own tube of toothpaste for the first time,

and suddenly adulting feels a little more real.

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yeah spotify wrapped is cool but rb this and tell me ur blorbo wrapped. whos the character(s) you spent the most time thinking about. for me its the angel from oumen mokushiroku and mafuyu asahina

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i wish i wasn't high-functioning. maybe people would care more if i was visibly depressed.

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i wonder what's worse,

documenting your gradual mental breakdown in vent posts for people to see, and suffering the embarrassment of knowing people see it and choose to say nothing.

or suffering painfully in silence, not bothering a single soul. the only relief is knowing that no one is being bothered, put off, or disgusted by seeing your inner thoughts

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happy birthday, my child <3

i'm sorry for not giving you as much attention in my brain microwave the past few years, but thank you for being there when i really needed you. thank you for being a creative outlet for me and a way to connect more with my friends.

even if i don't really have anyone to share you with or brainrot about you with anymore, you'll always be special to me. i'll always be proud of creating you, and i want to indulge in writing and character creation about you in the future.

it's silly to say this, when you're just a character of mine, but you helped me grow into a better person. i'm gentler with myself, kinder, and more of the person i wished i could have when i was younger. you've become like a second voice in my head to keep me company, along with the rest of the circus in there.

it's been a long 10-11 years (i can't remember atp). and truly, your character has been one of the rare consistent things in my life. you've seen my whole journey, good and bad, so maybe i can say that it wasn't so lonely getting here. even if the company was just an idealized self.

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Having "a lot" of followers on tumblr is funny because probably 80% of them are ghost blogs who haven't been on here in like a decade.

It's like, no no, those aren't my followers, that's a graveyard! I'm the caretaker of a thousands of tombs. I love them, but they've been dead for seven years.