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I am deeply unhappy

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It does not get better.

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“How do you know a book is gonna be good ?”

When there are 3 pages of trigger warnings that end with this

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i can’t force you to appreciate me but you gonna feel it when i’m gone.

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POV You don't open up to people in real life, but you overshare on the internet for everyone to see.

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Dear “friends,”

No, you don’t care.

You don’t include me. You don’t ask me about my life. You tell me about yours, vent, rant, and gossip about people I don’t even know. But when I go to tell a story, I get talked over, interrupted, and side tracked until I just give up.

This is how people are clueless about someone’s mental health problems and shocked when they commit suicide. “We had no idea. They were always so happy.” No they weren’t. There were signs. There always are, if you know what to look for. The problem was, you never looked. Or cared enough to try.

So if I do survive this, I won’t be wasting my time around you anymore. I’d rather be around people who really know and care about me. And yes, normally I have a hard time finding friends. I may end up completely alone because neurotypical society is so dead set on othering autistic people and anyone with any kind of mental health disability.

Being alone is better than being around people who only ever make you FEEL alone.

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Stop ignoring the signs.. that person not meant to be in your life anymore

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I have no interest in relationships anymore I just keep to myself and hope I’ll die in my sleep

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Having BPD is wishing the people who hurt you miss you like you miss them.

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“You’re making a fuss over of nothing” yeah because I would’ve NEVER done that to you.

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What’s sad is that despite everything they’ve done to me, I still love them…

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heyy i was just wondering how does one get followers on tumblr. Like i had a previous account i ran it for a good month and a half, but like people didnt really find my profile. idk does that make sense ?

Hiiii

Yeah it makes sense but I have no idea how to get followers, I just randomly post whatever goes through my mind, I never really cared about having a lot of followers. sorry for not being helpful ToT. Try using a lot of tags though that might help <3

(And sorry for being so late to answer I never really check my inbox)

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i have quiet bpd, ofc i'd rather hurt myself than others because i dont want to be selfish