lostcauseartist

[lostcauseartist]

Perhaps we will meet again some sunny day and talk about what really happened.

[lostcauseartist]

I will blame you when things go wrong.

I will get drunk from the pool of my own misery.

I will scream and shout till my lungs fight for air and my voice get crack.

I will abandon you, abandon things,when time slips from my hand.

I will build a house with you but I am not certain of giving you a home.

I am a wretched child of a wretched father. I will gamble your love, burn your house, ruin you in ways ,you won't ever find your missing shards.

- I am my father's daughter after all.

[lostcauseartist]

Maybe in another lifetime, I'd be someone's first love.

Maybe in another lifetime, I'd be your loving daughter.

Maybe in another lifetime, I'd be the girl he can love back.

Maybe in another lifetime, I'd be a happy teenager.

Maybe in another lifetime, I'd be born at some other place , in another world, with a better father and in a calm home.

Maybe in another lifetime, My mother would raise me confident.

Maybe in another lifetime, I'd not hate everything about me.

Maybe in another lifetime, I'd fall in love with myself.

Maybe in another lifetime, I'd be everything. I would paint, sing ,dance, write,act, travel, laugh.

Maybe in another lifetime, I would want to live.

[lostcauseartist]

I let these voices in my head scream and I wonder why can't I sleep at night.

[lostcauseartist]

Sometimes I do hate myself for not loving me enough .

Other days i just hate myself for not being good enough.

-k

[lostcauseartist]

I am afraid of whom I have become; afraid of whom I am becoming : I am also afraid of whom I want to become.

- and that's the scariest place to be in and it's the messiest someone can ever be.

- K

[lostcauseartist]

And that's the thing about it beloved

No one can ever hate me ;the ways in which I hate myself.

No one can do harm of me ; the ways in which I harm myself.

-k

[lostcauseartist]

This self hate would be the death of me

someday.

-disappointing my inner child.

[lostcauseartist]

Ohh!!! to think like that...

[lostcauseartist]

[lostcauseartist]

It's hard to be someone in this generation who still believes in....

[lostcauseartist]

It's frustrating when u get really attached with the slightest amount of attention someone's giving you even when it comes to friendship but people are weird. They change. And when they do you left here thinking what you have done .

You left thinking about the past memories and all the beautiful moments you had together but now you can't do anything about it except grieve.

- the love you never got really turned you into a mess.

[lostcauseartist]

The kind of love i crave. The kind of love to die for. ✨

[lostcauseartist]

Sometimes when all my hope shattered and i found myself again in the same dark deep abyss, I think about never coming out from it. I think about forever being this damage. I think about I m never gonna heal. I think about I m never gonna survive this darkness . Never gonna make it out alive from here and what's on the other side will forever remain a mystery.

-what if I don't survive..?

[lostcauseartist]

It would be a legacy.

It would be a dream.

It would be a story so unreal,so untouched.

I promise.🤝

-k

[lostcauseartist]

Selena didn't lie when she said-

[lostcauseartist]

I turn on the music so loud for that I don't hear the voices screaming inside my head.

I turn it on so loud ,I don't hear anything but escape.

- k