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May you have the courage to break the patterns in your life that are no longer serving you.

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Why am I like this? Like the harder I try to stick to something the worse I fail. So obviously it isnt going well. Just an update, so far marching in reverse and just fat, bald, lazy, and sassy as ever. What in the actual fuck is wrong with my and why can I never actually get my shit together. Fuck, man. Inquiring minds (namely mine) want to know.

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Marching Forward Introduction

I am starting a challenge for myself this March titled MARCHING FORWARD in which for the month of March I basically attempt to get my shit together. Tomorrow being day 1.

The goals:

1.keep keto. Regardless of situations, keep calm and keto on. I've been struggling to stay on board for more than a few days at a time for the past 6 or so months.

2. Work out in the am. Get up when my alarm goes off, schlep my happy ass to the basement, and press play.

3. Tackle my hair pulling. I don't k ow if I've ever opened up to this platform about this, but I struggle with trichotillomania which I've had since somewhere abouts 1st grade and has never been well controlled... and its flairing up in a big way lately. For which I will be attempting bedtime guided meditation and hypnosis to help.

4. Get my shit together. Stop procrastinating, get off my ass, and do the things that need to get done. No more putting dishes off for days, etc.

Anyone else have anything similar this month? If so, I wish y'all the best with any endeavors or projects, and I invite you to come along with me and watch on mine.

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Today's macros. A little over on carbs but still under 30, a lot over on protein. I'm interested to see how that affects my ketones and GKI tomorrow. Today my ketones were 1.3 and 1.1, gki still hanging around 4. I went over my macros but I stayed keto and did not cheat so that has to be a win for me because I have had a ton of trouble not cheating lately. And I've decided to tackle another problem of mine, which will be coming in a second post.

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reblog if it’s okay to become internet friends

I’ve always wanted internet friends but have never actually had the courage to ask. so this is me asking I guess. I hope this isn’t an inconvenience. if you’d like a good friend to love and support you, I’m here. even if you want to send memes back and forth that’s fine.

we can talk about a show, a movie, your favorite character. we can talk about your day, your favorite music. anything and everything.

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Day 7 keto, ketones 1.1 glucose 86 GKI 4.34. Baked all the keto cookies so I can stop being tempted when people bring cookies to work, because I'm dying over here

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I'm back, and it's been some time since I fell off posting last. Baby fawn is now 15 months old and entering full toddler meltdown status. Baby Fox is almost 3 and has been threenagering for quite some time now. I have been working, as usual, but there has been extra on my plate at work since April, which is some of the reason I disappeared. I was filling in doing extra work to help as some people left the company. Leaving me to do hospital rounds and clinic work. This whole time I have been struggling, and mostly failing at keto. I stay good for about a week until a situation happens and I cave because y'all drug rep lunches are treacherous. Not that it's an excuse because while my presence is required to sign for my samples (which we need as it is a struggling community many of whom cant afford medications they need and so aying ball to get samples to give them is a prerequisite) eating the food actually is not. But I've always been a bingey person. Its not an excuse, there is no excuse, but it's a flaw I've mine I'm trying (though failing) to work on. So here I am after my thousandth cheat that always turns into a binge because carbs got me like golem in the corner yelling "my preeeeciiiousssssssss". Day 7 back keto. I bought a ketone monitor and my reading was glucose 75 ketones 1.4 and GKI 2.98 so that's thrilling. Now I just need to hang in there because week 2 is where I know things really improve. So this was a long ramble. Here are my macros for today. And I will check in with you guys daily as my goal. If anyone wants to see anything specific from me, let me know!

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Macros for 11/10 and a bonus picture of fawn at tummy time. Somehow she's 9 weeks old. Almost 10 now i guess. And already can roll over. Shes going to be a bruiser. I'm having a lot of trouble finding the motivation to do my yoga video tonight, just sitting in a tub with a hair mask in. Uuuuugh but I really need to stick to something. I also think I under ate today, I just mostly picked at 2 string cheese and a few strips of instant bacon until dinner because I couldn't be bothered to find or make food for myself. Keto sticks have been hanging in the moderate area. Water intake was shit today. I hope my milk doesn't suffer for it. I guess that's all for now, catch yall tomorrow.

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11/9/18 macros. I'm always high on my protein but I guess it's going to my milk so I wont complain. I've been weighing in at 203 for days now, cant wait to gain some ground. First stop is one-derland. Goal weight 1 is 199. Did another day of Adrienne 30 day yoga challenge. Its come to my attention I don't have any core wrist or shoulder strength at all. I hope that improves quickly.

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Macros for 11/8. Keto going strong! And I started doing yoga tonight. I need some serious work on my core and flexibility before I can even think about lifting. So I thought the 30 day yoga challenge on YouTube would be a great start. It felt great!

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Living that pumping in my office between patients breastfeeding life. If y'all are pumping and busy or working, check out freemie cups. I can't stress how key they were last time, and still are now. No having my boobs out, locking myself in a closet, pumping bras, etc. I just stuff em in my bra and confidently pump in a shared office with no exposure. Just tubes. Amazing. This is not sponsored, just wanted to help any moms anxious about pumping at work.

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Introducing Fawn (nickname obviously for privacy reasons), my second miracle keto baby. 9/3/18 7lb 20in, and so perfect. Shes so much better looking than I am lol.

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Reintroduction

A lot has changed since I was last on, but I'd like to make a come back so here we go *deep breath*.

So when last we spoke I was about to finish breastfeeding my miracle baby boy in a month or so and put myself back on the keto diet. (For those that are new and may not remember, it took 5 years, failed IVF, and multiple specialists telling us our odds were less than 5% of getting pregnant even with IVF, one specialist even refused to try without donor eggs. I took a break from TTC to go back to grad school for my NP so we could afford the donor eggs. Found out I was pregnant as I was starting my last clinical rotation.)

Wellllllll, apparently the keto diet is some kinda magical for me, and for the second time in my life I found myself pregnant after 1 month of keto. So I gleefully (but anxiously) accepted my roll as a mother of two under 2 and went on about my business. 9 months, 1 semi complicated pregnancy (gestational diabetes, which required 2 oral medications and a consistent keto diet to control), and a crazy delivery(which the dr did not make it for), I delivered a healthy, normal sized, uncomplicated vaginal delivered baby girl to the world just over 9 weeks ago.

I took a month or so to eat whatever I wanted, because strict low carb dieting was so difficult mentally while pregnant and hormonal that I thought I might lose it if I hadn't.

I've been back on keto off and on since and am now 10lb lower than my prepregnancy weight.

I've been back keto for real for 1 week, I am a nursing mom of 2 kids under 2, I work full time as a Nurse Practitioner in a rural community an hour from my home, and am gone from home 12 hours on days that I work, getting home just in time to feed the children, get them in bed, and start all over again the next day.

This is my journey through this craziness, my journey toward getting my health and weight in line despite severe time constraints and chaos. I plan on trying to check in daily, so follow along

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I’m fucking rolling with these keto memes.

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Day 5 on keto

Going strong. Down almost 5 lbs, though probably water weight. I'll take what I can get. Already noticing that I wake up easier and with more energy. I'm still sluggish but it's an improvement. Also actually capable of getting motivated to do anything, which is very unlike me (I'm usually a slug). And my skin seems less angry. I can't wait to continue this lifestyle and keep seeing the benefits