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My Love is a Broken Glass

My love is a broken glass I love with a broken heart The mangled pieces of which I hold up in offering

Flint and shrapnel mixed in blood Smearing your porcelain perfection As my muddied touch Ghosts upon your beauteous cheek

I stand bare, battered But in no shame For I stand in sum total Of all that’s left of me

And though my love is a broken glass And I love with a broken heart I love with every mangled piece And every drop of the blood I bleed

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Goodbye #4

Do you see the break in my wings

The tears sewed up in rags and strings

And borrowed bits of strength

Or do you only see the flight

Do you only see me fly

And turn a blind eye

To the blood that still clings

To the tips of my feathers

  I was never a caged bird

No freedom to me denied

I fell off to the wrong side

And let myself be tied

Do you see the trap marks

Running up in circles and arcs

Or do you only see the purple ink

Artfully concealing every cut on my skin

  I was never a caged bird

No freedom to me denied

Did you think I would cry?

I was born to learn the skies

And I’ll fly out tonight

I have clawed away the ties

But you’d turned a blind eye

Now you’ll always wonder why

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Goodbye #1

What’s this in your eye?

It’s something different

Something new

Was it always there?

And I was blind?

Has running time

Bequeathed me with fairer sight?

  I can’t look, I can’t look away,

Far lights beckon on

But there’s so much left to say

My fingers un-entangled

Barren feel

I never knew

That this was real

And on my tongue

The taste of goodbye

Were I to utter it

Will the magic die?

Will we vanish-

In a cloud of dust?

If I hold my breath

Will I keep on feeling our lips brush?

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What A Laugh

Laughing off the afternoon When the sun disappeared into the moon As I waited For a breath of your traces Goodbyes are overrated You taught me feelings can’t be slated And I flow on Dancing through the blues till they are gone

The misty edges of your mouth The corners that I turned around The blooming dale where I was found Newly formed, I carry it on Driving down your lane A finale to the waning twain Chasing down a twilit path Goodbye! Goodbye! It was a laugh!

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Run

Aren’t you tired Haven’t you grown old enough In this old town With more graves than people Holding you down

Maybe it’s time to look outside Those shoes look worn But maybe you’ll find a new pair On the road Have you thought about it?

There’s a carnival passing through The next town Maybe they’ll take you along Practice your best smile While you’re at it

And then don’t turn around You never end where you begin I know you weren’t taught right But listen to my advice And run.

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I Wanna Shine

I might be shy

But I wanna shine

In a world of glitterati

I wanna be the brightest light

There’s this pool of blackness

That I’ve just swum across

The seaweed entangling me

I’ve shed, It was my cross

Are you gonna cross me

Do you have the brass

I’m the devil with a million heads

Take your best shot

But when you go down

You remember my song

Baby, when you go down

You remember my song

I’m the siren’s call

I’ll rip you heart apart

Wear your skin as my coat

And strut it about

And when you go down

You’ll remember my song

Baby, when you go down

You’ll remember my song

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AND A THIRD MAKES IT EVEN (An Alex Turner Fanfiction) - Chapter 14- You Say the Way and I'll Follow (on Wattpad) http://my.w.tt/UiNb/CpcTFABbMw Miles Kane and Alex Turner- friends, and partners in crime. It is no secret amongst friends that they sometimes share their lovers, but they've never been in love with the same woman before. Now the duo find themselves enamoured by the same lady, and something's gotta give. P.S. This story began as a birthday gift for a friend who is a huge Arctic Monkeys and Milex fan. And in the process of writing this I must say I've become quite smitten with them both myself. Hope y'all enjoy reading. Do please let me know what you think! Would really appreciate feedback since this is my first ever fanfiction.

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Leave Me Love

Don’t want to leave you love

But I promised her I’ll be home tonight

If only you’ll wait till the morrow

I’ll be yours alright

Like I’ll be yours forever

 So tell me that you’ll wait

No, no don’t make that face

Not tonight when I need you the most

Don’t you turn into a ghost

Please stay mine, mine alright

 So don’t leave me now love

Promise me you’ll be home next night

I’ll wait for you  in the morrow

I’ll be yours alright

Like I am yours forever

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‘Strictly Stick Shift Witchcraft’

Well there she is now

Crooked fingers, shifty eyes

Her dulcet toned lullabies

To reel you in again

Up to no good surely again

  Where’s that charm

That you wore, to resist

Her sweet honeyed trap

Sapped in her golden syrup

Too dull to react

  She sounds the bell

To swell your being into March

Ach! It’s too late now fool

You’re just a scratch

On the ground, an etch on her crown

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And A Third Makes It Even

https://www.wattpad.com/story/80420168-and-a-third-makes-it-even-an-alex-turner-miles

For those who might be interested, here is a link to an Alex Turner fanfiction that I am writing. 

Here’s the summary: Miles Kane and Alex Turner- friends, and partners in crime. It is no secret amongst friends that they sometimes share their lovers, but they've never been in love with the same woman before. Now the duo find themselves enamoured by the same lady, and something's gotta give.

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Old Lover

Old lover

Call me back tonight

Old lover

Let’s rekindle that old fire tonight

Old songs await

The breath of out mingled sighs

Old lover

Walk back home tonight

Old lover

Let’s tread all the old trails tonight

Cold hearth awaits

The heat of our merging cries

Old lover

Just love me tonight

Old lover

Like back in the time

Old lover, Old lover

Old lover

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Lost Stars

I almost jumped when I saw her walk out from the dark side like a sudden apparition. I’d never seen her in the park before. I never see anyone in the park, even the stragglers leave by now. She seemed like another lone soul. I watched her in the semi-darkness, as I ambled down the dirt track running around the park. I wondered if she came to escape something, if this was her place of calm. What could she be running from? Maybe she was new in the neighbourhood, but maybe not. It isn’t like I know anyone except for the self proclaimed President of the welfare association. That man seriously gives me the shivvies, the way he creeps upon you unawares each time! So she could be anyone, old or new. I let my thoughts run from me then, losing myself for a time. When I came to, it was darker, and I was all alone. She was gone. Maybe I’ll see her again, I thought.

I didn’t. Not till I did. Not till much later. Days had gone by, and I’d almost forgotten about my one-time mystery companion, my curiosity overtaken by the drudgeries of everyday life. I’d escaped to the park again that day, with more urgency than usual. There was a storm broiling in the house. I’d felt the stirrings even before he’d walked in. And after he’d come home, I’d wanted to be anywhere but near the onslaught I knew was coming. My body was alive with restless energy, and I shook my head, trying to throw it off. I walked in and there she was, walking in the light this time. I felt a mild annoyance at this person encroaching upon what I’d come to think of as my space. My steps were heavy and angry, and my breath puffy as I carried on to the familiar dirt path, trying very hard to imagine her gone, and myself alone. I felt a prickling at the sides of my eyes but I stoically ignored it too and just marched on. When I felt calmer, I sat on one of the benches on the dark side. She came upon me then, almost out of nowhere like the first time I’d seen her. “Hey”, she said. “Hi.” I responded, looking up at her, wondering if she’d even heard what had come out as a low indecipherable sound. “What’s up?” she asked me then, so she might have. But I just shrugged, looking past her. She nodded, and plopped down next to me. After a moment she fished out her iPod, and we sat there for over an hour, listening to a song she’d been playing on a loop all day that day if she were to be believed. But there was no cause to distrust her.

I saw her often after that. I don’t know if it was I who looked for her, or if it was she who looked for me. Perhaps it was a little of both, but we met with an irregular regularity. We never spoke much to each other. What was there to say anyway? We held hands sometimes though. The first time she had, we’d been sitting on the swing set. I’d felt my heart stop for a moment, and my head had taken a dangerous spin. I think I’d forgotten to breathe then. And then I’d held hers back, squeezing with all my might, feeling scared of her pulling away, and more scared that she would see the shine in my eyes.

We never met out of the park. Sometimes I thought about where she went to school, where she lived, in some mad moments even entertained the notion of visiting her at her house. But who knew what lurked behind her closed doors. I knew I would never invite her through mine. Outside was safe. And so it was where I first kissed her, while sitting on the bench in the park. It was madness, it could be nothing else. I’d never have had the guts, never. When she’d kissed back something had come undone. There were days of furtive touches then, illicit kisses and fucking behind the bench on the dark side. “I think I love you,” she said one day as we lay there. I didn’t say anything, couldn’t. But I held on, fiercely, thinking I could never let go. Never.

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Let's Leave Off!

I thought the world- Would turn upside down By your coming But it barely tilted on its axis, And I’m rather annoyed At the view.

Why so anti-climactic darling! I thought, love was all- Fire and blazes! But you’ve gifted me a box of dying embers… What should I say?

I’m rather at a loss, With you, at you, like you, What should I do? Let it go, let it phase, But it ain’t my style, To be so contained!

I’m a screamer, I’m a dreamer! A believer! And darling, you’re not So let me smash this kiss upon your lips, Clashing, clanging, biting, and leave off! Let’s leave off.

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Red's Song of Sorrow

Red is the song I play The colour drenching my grief The colour of your blood upon my hands And I am left, bereft Your eyes, my eyes The only mirror I ever viewed Are shut now, lost now And I am left, to reflect The music box I repaired The keys I keyed to battle your nightmares Play on soullessly And I am red, I am red.

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Inspired By Your Love

You are a red ribbon of pain,

Woven through my veins.

Oh my heart of wings!

Flightless, roosts in shadowy corners,

And I peel off..

Peel a layer off each day,

Separating me from myself,

A painfully long process.

Cause the things you glued to me

Won’t come unstuck.

And I’m stuck, trying needles

Trying blades, trying drugs.

There are so many of me,

Around and about now these days

You’ll find me in several arms,

All at once,

Trying to relearn this world,

And all its ways,

And each one is a bad habit,

Inspired by your love.

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Geetanjali

Geetanjali, Geetanjali

Where are your lullabies

Where are all the songs you sang

And the melodies you wove into my being

My body is an artwork

Of threads you used to darn me

But you sewed up my eyes too

To blind me

I wander through the clouds now

Chasing the echoes you left to tease

Geetanjali, Geetanjali

Did you turn into a new leaf

I meet all the people you met

From this world and others

They tell me all your stories

Making me anxious to taste you like they narrate

How are you so popular, Geetanjali

Geetanjali, yet you feel all mine

I love this game of chase you make me play

But we must meet again some day

Geetanjali, Geetanjali, O mine

Let’s meet again some day

Geetanajali, Geetanjali, O mine

Be mine again some day.

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Summer Day Musings

The latticed sun

On your belly

Tiny windows

That I count

In a breath

But don’t breathe

Out any words

Not yet.

Let me finish

This act.

Because the shadows

They’ll move

You’ll turn

And speak

And break my spell

There’s magic

In this air

Suspended, right here

Above me, you

Like a chandelier

The gold lights

Of glittering delight

Quiet, diffuse

Infuse, wait

Stay, my muse...