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something charmingly twentieth century about this

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Well that’s not very in love with me of you

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-Yiwei Chai, the jacaranda years

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its crazy that being in your early 20s so often feels like you're running out of time. we are at the beginning..................... what on earth

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Confiscated pens containing cheat notes intricately carved by a student at the University of Malaga, Spain. (2022)

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This just seems the right time to share that my grandmother once told the family her second cousin had "erotic autism" instead of an aortic aneurysm

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adrienne rich, of women born: motherhood as experience and institution / alexandra levasseur - body of land collection, 2015 / ana teresa barboza - bordados collection, 2004 / margaret atwood, “europe on $5 a day” / tracey emin - it was all too much, 2018 / clarice lispector, a breath of life / gérard lartigue- femme bougie, 2018 / jenefer schute, life-size / louise bourgeois - i DISTANCE myself from myself, 2010 / wayne koestenbaum, “figure” / henrik uldalen - caries and surge, 2017 / andrés cerpa, “the vault” / jennifer’s body (2009) / enrico robusti- food, sex, & irony collection, 2014 / sylvia plath, the bell jar

i distance myself from myself

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wooyoung & yeosang ∙ 230304 ∙ celebrate (cr. me 🎉)

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love passes thru me at all times like an electric current

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Reminder that:

"I'm glad I'm autistic and I wouldn't want to change that about myself and I love being passionate and different and seeing the world my way"

And

"my autism makes life fucking hard and fucking sucks rancid ass sometimes"

Are two things that can and do coexist

I love being passionate and excited and many other things about being autistic

I hate the sensory issues and would love for social interaction to not be excruciating as well

Both are true and that's sometimes hard to accept but it's okay be pissed off at your autism

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This is not a want this is a need

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{Hannah Green, from "Are you still hungry, Mother?"/ Anne Carson/Sam Gordon, "A Mother's Hate"/ Ella Wilson/ Joan Tierney/ Ella Wilson/ Ocean Vuong, from On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous/ Unknown/ Nayyirah Waheed/ Sharon Olds, “Holding To A Wall, Treading Saltwater”/ John Green, Turtles All the Way Down/ Safia Elhillo, "an inheritance," published in Narrative Northeast/ Annie Ernaux, from I Remain in Darkness/ Poplar Street by Chen Chen/ Unknown/ Tumblr User: @inkskinned/ Elena Poniatowska, from "La Flor de Lis," published c. January 2011/ Kyung-Sook Shin, Please Look After Mom}