lilmiss-xanaxx

[lilmiss-xanaxx]

bikini th!n$p0 for summer

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Cigarette for breakfast, water for lunch, weed for dinner.

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thinspo for youu<33

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idk why everyone always feels so comfortable coming up to me and talking to me about weight and losing weight.

like when ppl come up to me talking about how they need to workout and eat better and lose weight my first initial reaction is to always say “me too” or “same” and people get so mad after i say i can relate just because physically i look smaller than most. but my mentality is always stuck at “lose weight” no matter what my actual weight is or my body looks like because i have an ed.

and it sucks cause i feel like ppl single me out to have the conversation of losing weight just because they can tell i’ve been losing weight as if i have the right answers to tell them on how to lose weight quickly.

like shawty i got an answer for you but u ain’t gonna like it…

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a visual representation of my routine from 11pm-4am every night:

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Babe, it's not real. That's not real hunger, you know. You're just craving another blood sugar spike. Why give in to that? Just ride it out and you'll see how perfect your body is without you feeding it junk.

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dudesssss the security guard at the bar i went to last night was so fucking hot and he was like flirting with me at the door. i was so upset he was on the clock bc the way i wanted to dance with him😭😭😭😭

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i hate my life. i wish i knew how to say no and didn’t have such fomo

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catch me relapsing later today deadasssss. i can just feel it in my soul i’m gonna give in.

it’s 5am i haven’t slept yet and i don’t think i’m going to. i’m so hungry cuz i’ve been binging nonstop the past like month and now i’m back to restricting so my head is pounding. i just do not care about trying anymore.

all i wanna do is st4rve and do drvgs

i’m going to the college bars tonight and i know all those little white boys in my state gon have what i want so it’s just a matter of finding it when i get there. i got a plug who ik probably sells it but that’s just too easy i gotta give myself a challenge or else i’m just gonna hate myself more for not relapsing sooner

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Honestly my goals are more aethetic than number based. If I need to be under my goal weight to have a flat stomach, tiny waist and arms, and a thigh gap so be it ya kno?

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i wish i could have that "idgaf" attitude, but i don't. i care a lot. too much.

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some new rules i’m forcing myself to follow until my bday (end of june) because summer is almost here and i’m miserable with the way i look.

not all of these have to do with ana but i’m putting them on here anyways to keep myself accountable

only eat 500-800 calories a day, if not less. i have to log my intake somewhere. (if yall wanna see my daily food logs lmk i always feel like i’ll be annoying if i post them on here)

must fast 1-2 times a week, if not more.

one workout in the morning after i wake up, and one before i go to sleep. each have to be atleast 1 hour. (on the days i won’t be home, i have to workout once i am)

keep my room clean aka. fold my laundry and put it away once it’s done and keep my desktops organized.

make my bed every morning.

no calories after 9pm. nights out drinking don’t count, i just have to be mindful of my intake. (if i want a munchie after 9, it has to be under 150cals, and i only get one cheat day a week for this)

read atleast 10 pages of a book a day.

keep a clean and healthy diet. NO BINGING. ie. stick to water and lowcal drinks, lots of fruits and veggies, proper serving sizes or less, etc,,,

keep up with my skincare/self care routines.

take my vitamins and supplements everyday

basically the 75 hard challenge but imma have a drink if i want a drink lol

i’ll probably keep adding to this as i think of more, if anyone has some other good rules or ideas of what i should add lmkkk

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i have the urge to just cut and dye my hair by myself at this point because i do not feel like spending money on something i can literally do myself at home

i’m so sick and tired of the way i look and i’m not losing weight quick enough so somethings gotta change

i know for sure i wanna go darker but not all the way black but i want blonde too tho and i wanna keep my red so i might just fuck around and do random ass streaks in my hair and maybe dark roots. idfk i’m open to suggestions atp

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i need more friends in the ana community. my page is dead and i feel so lonely on this app

if you’re 18+ pls follow me or share this so i can find more ana ppl to interact with

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having food poisoning sucks until my body starts naturally pvrging every oz of whatever it is i’ve put in my body then all the sudden i’m not so mad about it