secondcenturywarlord

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Missing the person they used to be sucks fr

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Thank you to everyone who got me to 100 likes!

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After a long time, trying something new.

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Butterflies

It's been a while...

I still get butterflies thinking of our first kiss and our second kiss and our third kiss You go on and on running laps in my head oh how I wish instead you were here in my bed In each other’s arms head on your chest whilst you kiss me gently on my forehead a silencing comfort, while my heart burns I look up to you and your lips find mine now I’ve lost count but there it is…

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Sweet anguish

Sorry it took a while... but I'm back!

Why do people get close get attached, form a bond, make memories, birth a habit, just for them to leave, leave you with a broken heart, trust issues, trauma and then some, yet what’s remarkable is that we do it all again, the hurt becomes the pain, the constant pain you live with, a rising addiction, almost as if only out of anguish, is the victory sweet to taste.

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Holidays

Spare a thought To those without a shelter Spare a prayer To give them strength And if you can Spare a penny or two You could make someone’s day anew

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2 states of matter

2 states of matter

I know a girl She’s stuck between her heart and her head But only ever listens to what the heart says She’s vibrant and fun But also an overthinker She trusts too easily And that often breaks her I know a boy He’s stuck between traditions and changes But only ever listens to what other people say He knows what he wants But denies it often He doesn’t want to hurt the other one And…

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No one's watching

No one’s watching

The way she swings her arms, the twirls she takes to the count of eight the smile she has as she glides across the room her feet light as if floating on a cloud she is consumed by the rhythm she moves as if disillusioned from reality she is fragile yet tough hits hard but her slow touch will leave you mesmerised…

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What if I gave it my all?

What if I gave it my all?

If I give it my all I’m scared to see it take off become a big deal and be known by every stranger walking down the road Maybe it would be nice to have people admire you to have someone other than yourself think of you and appreciate you and that someone to be in hundreds? Oh boy See then it gets scary again that if I gave it my all what if I have a big fall out of what I love and…

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He’s wrong. I know. I know. But fuck 🥲 it’s too late welp

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Its 11:11. Make a wish. I wish I meet someone who loves me for the way I am. And wants to get to know me, because they love me. I just want a happily ever after

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I get tired of living sometimes. I need a routine or something to function. I just don’t want to be left alone with my thoughts. And the fact that I don’t have friends. No one is close to me here that I can speak to easily. Everyone I love and want to be near, lives far away. Back home. I think I made the wrong choice coming here, 5 years ago. I never felt accepted, wanted or even felt the need to try and be accepted here. Idk what it is. Anxiety maybe. But lately I have stopped wanting to put any efforts. Should I just leave everything and go? It’s not easy. But what if it’s worth it.

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How are things now?

How are things now?

Sometimes I’ll have these feelings That I wish I never met you I’ll try and erase you Replace you by another Convince myself that they’ll treat me better Sometimes I’ll have these feelings Where I wish we had more than we shared Play a fantasy in my head We’ll be the lead pair Sometimes I’ll have these feelings I get lonely and despaired I’ll never find my happily ever after Fate…

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Does it ever hit you?

Does it ever hit you?

Does it ever hit you? in that moment where you’re carefree and content when you feel like all the dreams you’ve dreamt fail in comparison to the feelings you’ve felt in the passing moment of a laugh amongst friends and the recollection of the early mornings spent trying to catch a Disney channel sitcom before its end that these feelings are temporary and not permanent you’re at peace one…

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Question Mark

I am not afraid of the dark what truly scares me is the question mark at the end of my every worry because the future seems dreary Should I pursue what I love or hold a 9 to 5 and behove myself to the glittery gold promises of money and security

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Pages

I have a pen and a paper I write down my day’s labour Now there’s someone new I’ve picked up the pen and drew A sketch of me and you You write on my pages and then leave Like it was never true

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There is always tomorrow

There is always tomorrow

There is comfort in knowing “It’s just one of those days” This too shall pass It’s just a phase You’ll get back up even stronger You’ve had worse days But nothing has kept you from growing You still shine despite the gloomy greys