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guys. caitlyn hitting vi at the end of ep 3 is heartbreaking for SO many reasons. it's a deep betrayal for vi, who wasn't expecting that kind of violence from her, from anyone but her, it was yet another enforcer hurting her, it was caitlyn (potentially) hitting vi on the wound she herself once sold her own rifle to help heal, the same weapon she hit her with, but most importantly,

it's also heartbreaking because vi has dropped everything to be the person she thought caitlyn needed; a pillar, a shoulder to cry on, a soldier, a killer; a betrayer of her own people. she became the same opressor that hurt her community, that killed her parents, that haunted her for the years she spent in stillwater. she became all of that, because she thought that caitlyn needed it.

vi has completely, utterly betrayed herself, and it still wasn't enough for her to stay.

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lives were just single handedly changed

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best trope is the one where the character’s godlike power is also killing them btw. they don’t even lift a hand to kill the monster but now they’re delirious with fever. they save a friend’s life and said friend immediately finds them emergency medical care. they raze the enemy to nothing and it takes far too long to find their pulse with all the bruising. their friends just constantly having to patch them up and worrying over which feat will be their last. et cetera

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sisters, always.

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i love you fang runin. for better and worse

I love when trauma makes characters messy. I love when characters don't know how to show love. I love when they lash out. I love when they're vile and break down. I love characters who aren't perfect victims. I love when stories don't excuse behaviour but allow you to understand it

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i love my jessica rabbit x roger rabbit style ships

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HEARTBREAKING: Poor girl has to get out of the soft warm bed even though she is so so so so comfy

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i will always prefer paper over digital books but sometimes it's actually so inconvenient bc tell me why i'm bending the book a million different ways just to take a picture of the page without getting a shadow in the way 😭😭

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luka's interview is so much more haunting than it appeared to be when it first came out.

in this interview (you can read it for free on vivinos patreon if you haven't already), luka speaks of HIMSELF like he's a product, a thing to be maintained and used, and acts like it's a privilege to be exploited the way he is.

and because of how little we know of him, we can't tell if he's acting this way out of fear, or if he's developed this mindset due to the way he has been treated throughout his life.

it was confirmed that heperu has been abusing luka in horrid ways (stopping his heart???), and the effects it had on his mindset are present in the interview (he brings up the topic of human heart beats several times and speaks of humans like they genuinely are products made to serve the segyein). he seems to be downplaying his abuse, simply referring to it as "strict training" and even saying he received "all the support [he] could possibly need," when really he was being tortured to perfect his craft.

the saddest part is that he refers to heperu as "father." and that really just says a lot about him. his owner was the closest thing he had to a parental figure, and he was so horribly harmed by him ever since he was a child. he may have genuinely thought that love is meant to be that way, and developed and grew with that mindset.

it explains his obsession with hyuna, and why during that one scene during "all-in," he seems to be sort of forcing himself onto her? (he doesn't seem to be trying to do anything TOO crazy, but she's still frozen and clearly uncomfortable.) Luka believes that if you want something, the only way to get it is to take it by force, and he likely thinks this way because he's been used and hurt by aliens for their entertainment all his life. he might've genuinely believed that this was the way of the world because it's the only thing he's seen.

it's why he's so possessive over hyuna, and why he mentally abuses his opponents on stage. he needs control, and he only knows one way to get it. he sees this method of harming people as a way to achieve power as conventional and normal because it's all he's ever known. i honestly believe that he DID kill hyun-woo, but I don't think he's an evil person.

in my eyes, Luka is a child that lived a horrific life, and as a result developed a fucked up way of thinking. we barely know anything about him in canon, but through his actions and behavior we can see that he clearly doesn't know how to act normally, especially around things that he loves and idolizes. i think hyuna offered him the first glimpse of acceptance and safety he had ever felt in his life, and he grew unhealthily attached to that. paired with his messed-up worldview and trauma, it developed into a possessive obsession that led him to do the things he did.

love him or hate him, you have to acknowledge that deep down he was once (and maybe still is) a little kid that was exploited and violated when he needed to be protected.

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looks like she could kill you, could actually kill you

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sring venka wouldn't have missed btw

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mikey berzatto really just had an innate urge to believe in the people around him and their ability to do great things

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THE BEAR — 2.10 // 3.09

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Nat Berzatto, The Bear, S2E6, Fishes // Mater Dolorosa, (Circle of) Bartolomé Esteban Murillo

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LOUD AND PROUD RETWEET

the way I feel about fang runin is the way men feel about eren yeager