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[kohai25]

I hate putting in my CV my hobbies or telling my hobbies during a job interview. Not because I don't have any or because they are cringy but because it implies that even my HOBBIES need to be productive or some kind of hustle. I engage in my hobbies when I'm tired from my 9-5 job and need some braindead time for myself. My hobbies are not for you to analyze my job competence, they are for me to get away from corporate shit.

[kohai25]

The hardest line I ever dropped I said to myself when I was self harming. My parents always told me I would regret the scars. I was always worrying about it until I realized-

"The moment I regret my scars

Is the moment I'll have won."

[kohai25]

Yeah Characters that are shitty at first but then are revealed to be complex and misunderstood are fun. I agree. But please don't think that acting like them will make people interested in you.

If you are a shitty person no one is going to care about your lore or trauma or the things that made you become shitty in the first place.

If you are shitty, then you are just a shitty person and no one will be interested to know you better. You are not an Anime character. You are a pretentious a-hole.

[kohai25]

I just proved this point by talking to someone with a green furry tail. He is autistic and we are now best friends. He told me a lot about trains and recommended me to play TUNIC. Freeens :3

I am not a furry or a therian. But I find myself relating a lot to them because they are most of the time part of LGBTQ, neurodivergent, leftists or generally really open minded. They are also some fucking how the wisest and at the same time most perverted people I have ever seen in my life.

[kohai25]

So many people just cant enjoy silence and I hate that. I appreciate my classmates from my internship wanting to talk to me but I just had a 9 to 5 and want some space on my way home. It wouldnt be a problem if they just walked along beside me, but they don't seem to notice how tired I am and always strike up small talk. I dont care about your life. I am tired. I am not capable to give you the right responses to the drama that is happening in your life. I want to listen to music and daydream. I NEED to recharge PLEASE. And if I tell them that I want to be alone they seem to take great offence in that like wtf. Why is setting boundries so hard with them? Or if I dont want to run to catch a train because I have health problems they just force me???

Man fuck them I dont need this kind of stress right after work.

[kohai25]

AI is the first step to abolishing the education system as it is and I am all for it.

Of course AI has its issues but I'd rather have AI than the school system they try to sell as education.

School shouldnt be about competition but about teamwork. School shouldnt be about teaching every single kid the exact same shit and expecting them to be good at it while ignoring where their strengths and weaknesses lie and then telling them theyre dumb if they cant learn something. Grades in general should be abolished. Homework should be abolished. Like, why is it a bad work life balance to work overtime after a 9 to 5 but homework is okay? Dress codes should be abolished. Sports, Music and Art should be optional. A school subject about economics should be established to educate about stock markets, pyramide scemes, taxes, how to find a job, how to find an appartment, inflation etc. High school teachers should stop scaring children about the future and instead help them.

We as a society decided that the better an animal can follow your commands, the smarter it is (dogs, dolphins etc.) and use the same logic with kids. Look at octopuses or ravens. They are a part of the most intelligent creatures in the world but we are indoctrinated from a young age that following commands equals being succesful. And then the older generation is confused why its so hard for us to be independand or make choices for ourselfes.

Maybe AI can show the world that by treating us like mashines that have to give a specific output to get good grades, we will never truly learn because we do not need to be ChatGPT. Thats not how children should be teached.

[kohai25]

When I was little I was working on a cosplay. I was buying fabric and stitching everything myself. But it didn't come out well enough, so I asked my mom why that was.

"Because you aren't good enough. Other people have trained years to make clothes so no wonder you can't make it."

This shattered me and to this date I hate, HATE, people who give up on their dreams. You ARE good enough. You CAN do it. If you put your heart and soul into it you can do the things you aspire to do! Make a compromise if you have to, in my case for example buying a very similiar looking dress and adjusting it BUT NEVER GIVE UP HOPE.

[kohai25]

A lot of games stop bring hard as soon as you start believing in yourself.

"Yeah this boss is hard, but I am getting better and better. It/She/He will fall."

"I can't get this rare thing even though I've been trying to get it for ages. I guess that means that the chance that I get it gets bigger and bigger."

"This level is bullshit. But I understand it better the more I try it. I can do this."

Stuff may take time. But never lose hope. This also counts for Real Life

[kohai25]

Being neurodivergent is unbelievably hard. Why do we have to follow some stupid rules while talking? Why do I have to make eye contant or else I am not respectful? Why do I have to make the right expression on my face? Can't I just say how I feel and what I need? Why am I weird if I am not following the right social cues that are wildly different from person to person? Why am I weird for staying silent? I don't want to waste my time on neurotypical people if I get judged for everything I do.

Oh my god and don't even think about telling neurodivergent people you are autistic. Everytime I get treated like I am 5 years old or an infected animal as soon as I make that mistake. I want someone to accept me. I want people not to laugh at my expense. I want to be understood. I want to finally feel like I am enough. Like I'm not a burden. I want to be myself but its so hard.

[kohai25]

There never was and probably never will be a movie that influenced me as much as "The Boy, the Mole, the Fox and the Horse".

Every word is filled with love.

There is too much hatred in this world.

[kohai25]

I love creating. I love editing videos, building houses in Minecraft, I love drawing and I love making funny posts but there is always the thought of "someone could do it better then me".

The universe which has existed for longer then all of us could ever comprehend gave me 80 or so years to live. And I am hindering myself from experiencing the joys of this world due to the competetive society we live in.

It doesn't matter if someone does something better then you, because no one can make you as happy as you yourself can.

[kohai25]

I am not a furry or a therian. But I find myself relating a lot to them because they are most of the time part of LGBTQ, neurodivergent, leftists or generally really open minded. They are also some fucking how the wisest and at the same time most perverted people I have ever seen in my life.

[kohai25]

I disagree with anyone who tells me that humans are peak evolution.

Have you even seen a capybara? No thoughts, no natural predators, no taxes, no mental illness, no unrealistic expectations, only vibes.

[kohai25]

I hate asian food so much. The food tastes so fucking good but as soon as I look at the recipe its ALWAYS something like this

Ingredients:

• Garlic

• Spring Onion

• Some vegetable only found in the deepest cave of the mariana trench

• Sauce made of warrior tears from the Kamakura period

• Bones from a dragon slayed by your own mortal hand

Step 1: Boil the bones for 36 Hours over a natural flame (it has to be sustained by wood or else this recipe will taste like bland western soup!!!)

Step 2: While the bones are boiling you have to constantly remove the everspawning foam or else your food is RUINED

Stap 3: Season it until the asian kamis tell you to stop because this recipe won't give you ANY measurements.

Step 4: Somehow create a substance you have never seen in your life even though asia has worked with it for millenia and you didn't even know it existed