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“You must keep it for the captain / whose ship has not been built”

—

Leonard Cohen, Heart with No Companion

Another brave soul has put their hand up, @regionalpancake​!

Which means, we’ve got this marvellous turn-out: 

May 1 - @caladeniablue - Voyager fic

May 2  - BlackVelvet42 - Voyager fic

May 3 - @70thousandlightyearsfromhome - Voyager fic

May 4 - @amoderngirl​ - Voyager fic

May 5 - @bizships​ - Voyager fic

May 6 - @regionalpancake​ - Picard fic

May 7 - @cnrothtrek​ - Picard fic

May 10 - @70thousandlightyearsfromhome​ - Voyager fic

May 12 - @janewaystolemyheart​ - Voyager fic

May 13 - @coffeeblack75​ - Voyager fic

May 14 - @monsterfisken​ - DS9 Fanart

May 15 - @bizships​ - Voyager fic

There’s still room for three (or more) victims marvellous writers/fan artists. More info on this fest here.

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And who by fire, who by water...

... who in this merry, merry month of May... who shall I say is calling?

So we have come to the end of the Merry Month of Cohen, and I’d like to thank everyone who’s contributed fic, art and fanvids, as well as everyone who has read and followed along. It’s been angstiferous 🖤

Here is the final list of contributors and fanworks, and don’t forget to bookmark the Who By Fire collection on AO3 and keep following @killitwithtears​, because submissions will continue to be accepted should anyone get the urge (just tag me so I can reblog your work!)

May 1 - @ladystark428 - Field Commander Cohen/Hallelujah - TNG - And Be Your Sweetest Self

May 2 - @mia-cooper - Winter Lady - VOY - Smoke and Gold

May 3 - @70thousandlightyearsfromhome - Bird on the Wire - VOY - Bird on the Wire

May 4 - @70thousandlightyearsfromhome - Bird on the Wire #2 - VOY - Bird on the Wire (video)

May 5 - @caladeniablue - Joan of Arc - VOY - Pyre

May 7 - @manalyzer13 - Is This What You Wanted - VOY - The Ghost of You and Me

May 8 - @allthetrek - Closing Time - DSC - Closing Time

May 9 - @pixiedane - A Thousand Kisses Deep - ENT - Quiet is the Thought of You

May 10 - @devoverest - Avalanche - VOY - The Shadow of Your Wound

May 11 - @caladeniablue - Anthem - VOY - Fractured

May 12 - @bizships - Hey, That’s No Way to Say Goodbye - VOY - That’s No Way to Say Goodbye

May 13 - BlackVelvet42 - Take This Waltz - VOY - Take This Waltz

May 14 - @curator-on-ao3 - I’m Your Man - VOY - Traveling Light

May 15 - @leisylaura - Everybody Knows - VOY - Everybody Knows (video)

May 16 - @ariella884 - I Tried To Leave You - VOY - I Tried To Leave You

May 17 - @mia-cooper - Light as the Breeze - DS9 - Orbit

May 18 - @littleobsessions90 - Suzanne - VOY - Her Lover

May 19 - @caladeniablue - Heart With No Companion - VOY - He starts with the bedroom

May 20 - @grace-in-the-stars - Everybody Knows - VOY - Empty

May 21 - @curator-on-ao3 - You Want It Darker - VOY - Ten Years at Home

May 22 - @killermanatee - Iodine - DSC - iodine

May 23 - @caladeniablue - The Window - VOY - There plunged the rays of love

May 25 - @arcadia1995 - Tonight Will Be Fine - VOY - Tonight Will Be Fine

May 26 - @rocktherecorder - The Future - VOY - The Future

May 27 - @poetictrekkie - Dance Me To The End Of Love - TNG - Dance Me to the End of Love

May 28 - @gluecookie - The Partisan - DS9 - Through the graves a wind is blowing (art)

May 30 - @bizships - Come Healing - VOY - Come Healing

May 31 - @mia-cooper - Take This Longing - VOY - your body like a searchlight

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Fandom: VOY

Rated: M

Inspired by: Take This Longing

The final entry to the Merry Month of Cohen, from @mia-cooper.

Thank you to everyone who's contributed to this Star Trek fandom event! Long live angst 🖤⭐😭

It’s a long and lonely journey for a woman who longs for things she won’t allow herself to have.

Written for the #merrymonthofcohen.

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Fandom: VOY

Rated: M

Inspired by: Come Healing

Thank you @bizships! I can’t wait to read this one (usually I read before I reblog, but this is a 14k story) - I’m sure it will be suitably heart-wrenching.

Chapters: 4/4 Fandom: Star Trek: Voyager Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Rape/Non-Con Relationships: Chakotay/Kathryn Janeway Characters: Chakotay (Star Trek), Kathryn Janeway, Tom Paris, Tuvok (Star Trek), The Doctor (Star Trek), Kes (Star Trek) Additional Tags: Episode: s03e01 Basics Part 2, AU of Basics, Potential Triggers, there is a baby involved, because seska didn’t actually lie, Yep I went there, but he isn’t the main plot, Rape Recovery, Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Merry Month of Cohen Summary:

In this AU of Basics, Seska and Culluh kept the Captain aboard the ship when they left everyone else on Hanon IV. This is the aftermath from Chakotay’s POV. Kathryn’s story is coming eventually, but, this is where this song took me.

Part of the Merry Month of Cohen angst-fest. This isn’t as angsty as my first one. I promise. :)

This is my second story for the Merry Month of Cohen event. @killitwithtears

It’s not as angsty as my first one, though do heed the tags. 

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YOU GUYS LOOK AT THIS

This is AMAZING. Thank you @monsterfisken for your talent and your contribution to the Merry Month of Cohen 🖤

“Ah, the wind the wind is blowing Through the graves a wind is blowing Freedom soon will come Then we’ll come from these shadows”

The Partisan, Leonard Cohen

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Captain Picard and Dr Crusher are each dreaming of things they believe they can't have...

Thank you, @poetictrekkie - this is a lovely, lyrical piece and I enjoyed it very much!

Dance Me to the End of Love

My #merrymonthofcohen submission! A TNG fic based on Leonard Cohen’s Dance Me to the End of Love.

Thank you to @killitwithtears for creating this event.

https://open.spotify.com/track/3mFzIFFFmEXTQs6BDAK2ZZ

Dance me to your beauty with a burning violin. Dance me through the panic, till I’m gathered safely in. Lift me like an olive branch and be my homeward dove. Dance me to the end of love.

In his dreams, she was in the family vineyards and she was smiling. She was wearing blue, which complemented her red hair. There were stains from wine on her lips, colouring them a deep, uneven shade of burgundy. She was dancing on her own, humming an obscure melody, holding her arms out as if she was dancing with someone. Yet she was alone. She wore no shoes, and her pale feet glided across the grass and the dirt. He could hear birdsong, but no other music to speak of. But she kept perfect time, waltzing to the sounds of the doves and the wind rustling through the long alleyways of grapevines.

He woke from those dreams slowly, unrushed, and even turned to the empty pillow next to him as if to wish it good morning. There was no head resting upon it, but the stars outside cast fragmented light across the bedspread. Though it was perpetual night, out in the depths of space, Jean-Luc woke to a self-made dawn.

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And you say you've been humbled in love

Just under a week remains in the merry month of Cohen, and judging by the calibre of contributions so far, you’re going to need a few boxes of tissues to get through it.

what is this all about?

May 1 - @ladystark428 - Field Commander Cohen/Hallelujah - TNG - And Be Your Sweetest Self

May 2 - @mia-cooper - Winter Lady - VOY - Smoke and Gold

May 3 - @70thousandlightyearsfromhome - Bird on the Wire - VOY - Bird on the Wire

May 4 - @70thousandlightyearsfromhome - Bird on the Wire #2 - VOY - Bird on the Wire (video)

May 5 - @caladeniablue - Joan of Arc - VOY - Pyre

May 7 - @manalyzer13 - Is This What You Wanted - VOY - The Ghost of You and Me

May 8 - @allthetrek - Closing Time - DSC - Closing Time

May 9 - @pixiedane - A Thousand Kisses Deep - ENT - Quiet is the Thought of You

May 10 - @devoverest - Avalanche - VOY - The Shadow of Your Wound

May 11 - @caladeniablue - Anthem - VOY - Fractured

May 12 - @bizships - Hey, That’s No Way to Say Goodbye - VOY - That’s No Way to Say Goodbye

May 13 - BlackVelvet42 - Take This Waltz - VOY - Take This Waltz

May 14 - @curator-on-ao3 - I’m Your Man - VOY - Traveling Light

May 15 - @leisylaura - Everybody Knows - VOY - Everybody Knows (video)

May 16 - @ariella884 - I Tried To Leave You - VOY - I Tried To Leave You

May 17 - @mia-cooper - Light as the Breeze - DS9 - Orbit

May 18 - @littleobsessions90 - Suzanne - VOY - Her Lover

May 19 - @caladeniablue - Heart With No Companion - VOY - He starts with the bedroom

May 20 - @grace-in-the-stars - Everybody Knows - VOY - Empty

May 21 - @curator-on-ao3 - You Want It Darker - VOY - Ten Years at Home

May 22 - @killermanatee - Iodine - DSC - iodine

May 23 - @caladeniablue - The Window - VOY - There plunged the rays of love

May 25 - @arcadia1995 - Tonight Will Be Fine - VOY - Tonight Will Be Fine

May 26 - @rocktherecorder - The Future - VOY - The Future

May 27 - @poetictrekkie - Dance Me To The End Of Love - TNG

May 28 - @gluecookie - The Partisan - DS9

May 29 - @bizships - Come Healing - VOY

May 29 - @queen-x-ishtar - A Thousand Kisses Deep - VOY

May 30 - @mia-cooper - Take This Longing - VOY

May 31 - @icecream-junkie - Hey, That’s No Way to Say Goodbye - DSC

follow @killitwithtears | follow the #merrymonthofcohen tag | visit the Who By Fire collection on AO3

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Three bleak AUs all in a row from @rocktherecorder ... Janeway stripped raw and at her purest. I’m still stunned. These are amazing.

(Note the warnings, people - these will smack you in the face.)

Chapters: 1/3 Fandom: Star Trek: Voyager Rating: Mature Summary: Three alternative endings to three episodes based on Leonard Cohen’s The Future.

As you may expect with Cohen, not cheery reads!

My first challenge from Tumblr!  Thank you to @killitwithtears for organising the event.

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Fandom: VOY

Rated: T

Inspired by: Tonight Will Be Fine

I’m sorry I’m so late reblogging this, @arcadia1995. Such a beautiful story of hope and loss and persistence and love and strength and sorrow. 💔

My contribution to the Merry Month of Cohen @killitwithtears

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Fandom: VOY

Rated: M

Inspired by: The Window / Love Itself

There’s a sense of charged silence and gathering doom in this story, told through the eyes of a man in shock at an act of violence and injustice, but still struggling to do his duty and save lives.

A brutal but gorgeous little vignette from @caladeniablue ... thank you.

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Thank you @killermanatee! I’ve been thirsting to read a post-Season 2 Disco fic exactly like this one 🖤 sexy, desperate, and the last line is a shot to the head.

Pike/One fic: iodine

Based on the truly beautiful song “iodine” by Leonard Cohen I came up with this contribution to the Merry Month of Cohen ( @killitwithtears ).

Fandom: Star Trek Discovery

Pairing: Number One/Christopher Pike

Rating: M

Summary:  Number One and her captain try to find a way to cope with the aftermath of the battle against Control at the end of Season 2. Hurt/comfort ensues. 

To be found: posted here on Ao3

Many thanks to @mia-cooper for organizing the event, as well as to @missmil and @icecream-junkie for their beta-work. 

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Fandom: VOY

Rated: T

Inspired by: You Want it Darker

Thank you, @curator-on-ao3, for this unaltered timeline tale of obsession and drive.

I never thought I'd say this, but your Admiral Janeway x Commander Barclay is pretty damn convincing in this timeline.

Fandom: Star Trek: Voyager Relationships: Reginald Barclay/Kathryn Janeway Summary: For the Merry Month of Cohen Star Trek Fandom Event.

There’s a lover in the story But the story’s still the same There’s a lullaby for suffering And a paradox to blame — “You Want It Darker,” by Leonard Cohen

Concept: You don’t know Endgame Admiral Janeway like you think you do.

Thanks to @killitwithtears for organizing Leonard Cohen Month.  

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Fandom: VOY

Rated: M

"But bit by bit, her duty was killing her..."

Janeway, the night after escaping the Void. She's not grateful.

Thank you, @grace-in-the-stars.

My contribution to the Merry Month of Cohen @killitwithtears thank you for organizing this event.

Based on the song ”Everybody Knows ”, Empty shows an insight into KJ’s mindset after the episode Night. Please feel free to listen with the song in the background for the ultimate feels.

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then love itself was gone

The Merry Month of Cohen runs for a little under two weeks... Let us reflect on the month so far, and anticipate what is yet to come.

what is this all about?

May 1 - @ladystark428 - Field Commander Cohen/Hallelujah - TNG - And Be Your Sweetest Self

May 2 - @mia-cooper - Winter Lady - VOY - Smoke and Gold

May 3 - @70thousandlightyearsfromhome - Bird on the Wire - VOY - Bird on the Wire

May 4 - @70thousandlightyearsfromhome - Bird on the Wire #2 - VOY - Bird on the Wire (video)

May 5 - @caladeniablue - Joan of Arc - VOY - Pyre

May 7 - @manalyzer13 - Is This What You Wanted - VOY - The Ghost of You and Me

May 8 - @allthetrek - Closing Time - DSC - Closing Time

May 9 - @pixiedane - A Thousand Kisses Deep - ENT - Quiet is the Thought of You

May 10 - @devoverest - Avalanche - VOY - The Shadow of Your Wound

May 11 - @caladeniablue - Anthem - VOY - Fractured

May 12 - @bizships - Hey, That’s No Way to Say Goodbye - VOY - That’s No Way to Say Goodbye

May 13 - BlackVelvet42 - Take This Waltz - VOY - Take This Waltz

May 14 - @curator-on-ao3 - I’m Your Man - VOY - Traveling Light

May 15 - @leisylaura - Everybody Knows - VOY - Everybody Knows (video)

May 16 - @ariella884 - I Tried To Leave You - VOY - I Tried To Leave You

May 17 - @mia-cooper - Light as the Breeze - DS9 - Orbit

May 18 - @littleobsessions90 - Suzanne - VOY - Her Lover

May 19 - @caladeniablue - Heart With No Companion - VOY - He starts with the bedroom

May 20 - @grace-in-the-stars - Everybody Knows - VOY

May 21 - @curator-on-ao3 - You Want It Darker - VOY

May 22 - @killermanatee - Feels So Good - VOY

May 23 - @caladeniablue - The Window - VOY

May 25 - @arcadia1995 - Tonight Will Be Fine - VOY

May 26 - @rocktherecorder - The Future - VOY

May 27 - @poetictrekkie - Dance Me To The End Of Love - TNG

May 28 - @gluecookie - The Partisan - DS9

May 29 - @bizships - Come Healing - VOY

May 29 - @queen-x-ishtar - A Thousand Kisses Deep - VOY

May 30 - @mia-cooper - Take This Longing - VOY

May 31 - @icecream-junkie - Hey, That’s No Way to Say Goodbye - DSC

follow @killitwithtears | follow the #merrymonthofcohen tag | visit the Who By Fire collection on AO3

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Fandom: VOY

Rated: T

Inspired by: Heart with No Companion

@caladeniablue once again slamming my heart to the floor and stomping around until all the little pieces are crushed into dust... thank you so much 💔

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What is the merry month of cohen?

An event in which Trek fans of every flavour base fanworks on a Leonard Cohen song. The event runs throughout May and everyone is welcome to join in.

Here’s some more info and here’s the list of contributors (so far).

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Fandom: VOY

Rated: M

Inspired by: Suzanne

@littleobsessions90 is the best in the business and proves it once again with this exploration of love that borders on obsession, and the imperfect woman who inspires it (and is all the more fascinating for being imperfect). Just read it.