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BPD culture is having ‘fr’ ‘okay’ ‘gm’ ‘gn’ ‘lol’ ‘lmao’ ‘thx’ ‘wyd’ etc be one of your biggest triggers

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I feel like nothing I do is good enough.

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I’m legitimately so restless. I wanna peel my flesh off 😩😩😩 I tried to do some painting but that didn’t help and I can’t focus on anything 😩😩 I know it’s the ADHD but DAMN bitch got hands

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I hate that I cvt. I feel like such a failure, especially when I have to mutilat8 myself just to maybe feel like person for a little while.

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I’m tired of feeling things so intensely

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This part 😞 like I feel bad enough for having needs, now you want me TO COMMUNICATE THEM 😳

bpd culture is wanting to communicate to your needs so you don't split but never doing so because you feel like you're burdening someone even more and that's not fair on them

(i feel like enough of a burden already)

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BPD culture is this gif:

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bpd culture is your brain going “oh you’re having a fun time with your friends? damn, it would be such a shame if the Emptiness happened. like right now”

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bpd culture is getting super depressed and anxious and unreasonably upset and fearing abandonment if your favorite person doesn’t respond to your texts within a certain amount of time

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borderline culture is literally freaking out because your fp is mildly upset and you dont know how to help them

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(questioning) bpd culture is yearning for people’s attention while unable to understand what’s wrong with you. why are you so far away from everyone? why do they perceive you only as some kind of ‘background character’ in their lives? why are you never someone’s #1? but if you are given love and attention you still feel empty because everything they give you just goes through some kind of hole in your body without being consumed anyhow? why is everyone so normal and able to have fun and live their lives while you just..can’t? what am I here for if I can’t form basic connections with other human beings? am I even human then?..

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why does bpd make me so fucked up abt sex. like i cant just want it or not want it. it has to be this repulsive attention seeking for validation that leaved me feeling like shit.. or just and ick from the terror of rejection and not being enough. I fckn hate this shit

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I’m a burned out autistic with ptsd and bpd. So when I say I fucking hate people, I mean it.

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BPD culture is they no longer love me they hate me I'm so fucking worthless- oh wait they texted back never mind!!!

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Introduction

I guess this is my introduction post. I’m Jack (he/they) and I have Borderline Personality Disorder (still feels weird to say.) I was recently diagnosed but I think I’ve known for a while. I am also AuDHD and have several other co-morbid disorders.

I just wanted a place to vent, find support, and idk just talk about it. I’m in treatment and I have a great partner, who does so much to take care of me, but there are certain things I just don’t want to tell him.

I’m not super sure what else to put here, but 🤙🏻🤙🏻🤙🏻

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