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A few weeks ago I ran out of my antidepressants and I thought to myself: "let's see how long I can go without antidepressants" because I like challenging myself and I like doing difficult things

I cannot stress how bad this idea was. please do not be like me. I have gained nothing from this experience, I don't know what I was thinking I would gain. there is no glory in suffering

I should go take my meds

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joe biden has to the opportunity to end his presidency on the funniest goddamn note

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Parents don’t get to decide if they were “really good” parents. I know that’s harsh and there’s a lot of mommy positivity circles online that just give each other a positive feedback loop but you don’t decide if you were a “really great parent” to your child. Your children tell you if you were a good parent or not. I see this a lot of no contact parent circles where the person who is no contact with their children is like “well I was a GREAT parent so it isn’t my fault and I didn’t do anything wrong”. Normal parents wonder if they’re doing a good job, ask themselves how they can improve, are open to feedback from children and other parents. If you are 100% sure you were a faultless fantastic selfless awesome fantastic parent totally beyond reproach and your shitty ungrateful willful delinquent children just don’t appreciate you enough, you are a terrible parent.

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her voice was as silky as silken tofu. but her words were as firm as extra firm tofu

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self destruction really is such a fascinating human response to various factors both external and internal. what if sisyphus could leave at any time but kept rolling the boulder up the hill just to watch it roll back down anyway. what if he kept pushing it even as the rock cut into his palms and his legs began to ache with the desire to rest for even a moment and his body became a canvas of bruises and cuts that never have time to heal. what if he did it because it's the only thing he knows how to do. the only thing that gives him a sense of certainty and control in a world that takes both and offers neither.

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Unpopular opinion but this is infinitely better and more positive than policing already gendered language.

It is inherently fun and sexy to say statements that swap the traditional genders of pronouns and terms mid-statement, such as: "I'm going to make him my wife" "She's my boyfriend" "Who says a guy can't be a pretty princess?" "That girl's the coolest dude I've ever met" "She's a madman who has to be stopped" "It's not his fault he's a material girl" Gender is a set of watercolors and the prettiest shades come from mixing the paints together.

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Everyone is so weird about people who cry easily. Fellas, is it evil and manipulative to *checks notes* have an involuntary stress response?

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Anyone else generally confused as shit about communication.

Like, when I communicate my needs clearly, calmly, and respectfully, I'm told that very reasonable requests (i.e. I need five minutes to calm down because I'm overstimulated) are silly, and I need to grow up.

Because for some reason, when other people consistently miscommunicate with each other and then get mad because they're misunderstanding each other's ridiculous subtext for the very obvious reason that invisible boundaries are not real, that's fine and normal.

It's also fine to guilt trip, deride, yell, and use unclear language.

But when I inevitably have a meltdown from the boundary that I said would give me a meltdown if it was crossed, I'm the overly dramatic one that needs to calm down.

I seriously don't understand how people live like they do.

Anyway, it's been nice having a Christmas where I'm not generally being yelled at for no reason.

Happy autism Holidays, y'all.

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Friendly reminder that I'm far too autistic to be responsible for the anxiety of other adults. I have enough of my own, thanks.

Also, saying "I'm so impressed with how you handle your... spectrum" isn't actually a compliment. It's an indicator that being myself is unsafe around you, and a reason for me to mask more.

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Idk why Christians are so against gender minorities when their angels are depicted with like a bazillion eyes and no discernable gender

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This headline hit me like a bag of bricks

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Chai tea bag + lil but of brown sugar + apple cider packet + 16 oz. mug of hot but not quite boiling water

it will not Fix You but like. maybe. maybe.