itslolzworld

[itslolzworld]

[itslolzworld]

[itslolzworld]

[itslolzworld]

I tried so hard to be someone you would fall in love with but I ended up hating myself.

[itslolzworld]

I wish y'all knew how hard it is for me to act normal

[itslolzworld]

What if this is the happiest I'll ever be

[itslolzworld]

[itslolzworld]

the fact that I have to be in the “right headspace” to do even the simplest tasks. absolutely humiliating

[itslolzworld]

I feel anxiety rushing over me as soon as I stop petting my cat

Sorry, tonight I can't hang

[itslolzworld]

Sometimes people tell me that I say things in a rude way and if I try to explain myself they sigh in relief because they thought I meant it in a bad way. But I just try to be neuter and say short sentences.

My boyfriend tells me this a lot but it's happening with friends as well when I don't over explain what I mean to say and it's getting annoying. Could be an autistic trait or maybe I'm an asshole because I don't seem to understand and don't care to say things differently.

[itslolzworld]

I keep eating but the empty feeling doesn't change

[itslolzworld]

[itslolzworld]

the urge to deactivate everything and go missing

[itslolzworld]

I wanted blue hair

The hairdresser said I'd look better in purple

I said I don't like purple

He said he does

I now have purple hair

[itslolzworld]

[itslolzworld]

During my teenage years I have been so used to sadness and apathy that now too much happiness makes me uncomfortable. As weird as it sounds I miss being depressed because it feels like home.

[itslolzworld]

Source: ikoijanggg