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I have never been given flowers turned 8 today! 🥳

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sometimes I miss my old apartment. it was small af but it was all I could afford. it was just me and my 2 cats and now that I think about it things seemed to be simpler back then (even if at the time it didn't feel so).

all my life I lived in other people's places trying to occupy the smallest space possible. I was told in many ways other than words that I was a burden so I tried my best to go unnoticed and to not disturb. I did it for so long I forgot how to stand my ground, but on the other hand I never stopped dreaming of a small place where I could just be.

you see, I never really wanted to be rich. over the years I slept on a few couches, walked a good couple of miles to save the money of the bus and yet I had to tell people I wasn't hungry when I actually didn't have enough to eat. one of those days I was especially sad and got me thinking that in this world not everyone has a place under the sun after all.

that apartment received just a teeny tiny strand of sunlight early in the morning, and through the window facing another building I could see just a little bit of the sky, but for me it was like a sign that yes I had a place under the sun. I had my own bed, as many shelves for my books as I wanted and my cats as company.

I still work hard, but I make considerably more money now and life got better than I ever expected it would. the apartment I live is 4 times bigger and it gets so much sunlight all day long! the cats absolutely love it and I love it too but many days I feel like I'm an imposter and I don't belong here. like someone realized they made a mistake and bam! I'll lose everything.

maybe this is the reason why things seem more complicated now. the feeling of scarcity is hard to overcome, and I'm not sure what to do now. or should I get married or break up with my boyfriend? should I buy a car or move to a different town where I won't need one? should I try a new dance class or learn a new language? what am I going to do when I get too old to work since my generation will never be able to retire? what have I accomplished in my life so far and what the hell am I going to do now? maybe it's just the 30s crisis?

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i think what’s on a person’s nightstand is very telling so reblog this and put in the tags the things you have on your nightstand

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did you hear about what's happening in the state of Rio Grande do Sul, Brazil?

please bear with me for a minute, I'm Brazilian and would like to tell you and ask you for help

this ���🏻 is a gas station completely submerged

this ☝🏻 is the biggest airport in the state, located in the capital city of Porto Alegre

and ☝🏻 this is the main scenario in 80% of the state, which means there are more than 300 cities underwater. and the rain isn't likely to stop in the upcoming days.

this is the worst flood ever in the whole country. EVER. and let me tell you, we've had a lot of them in several states all this decade long. and they're getting worse.

it's May, it's autumn, it should be getting gradually colder and we definitely shouldn't be expecting much of a rain for many months to come. yet it's hot as hell (30°C or higher) and it keeps raining in the South region.

in the last few years we've had a couple freezing days, but (despite of El Niño) there hasn't been a proper winter anywhere in this country for a long time. it's getting scary because the seasons seem to be fading away, the weather doesn't show a pattern as we're used to.

many rivers reached the higher level in history: more than 5m. roads are underwater and/or destroyed by the force of the water. there is no food, power, shelter, clean water. even if you got a lot of money, there is none of it to buy! expectations are bodies won't be found at least in the next 10 days, because the water levels won't get lower than 4m before that.

I live in São Paulo and I can tell you that all the country is sending help, whether it is money, mineral water, clothes, medicine, cleaning and hygiene items. infectious diseases due to contaminated water exposure should spread in the upcoming weeks. lost children and pets are being rescued nonstop. people are scared, starving and desperate because they lost everything, sometimes family included.

if you live outside Brazil, it doesn't matter whether you're from or how much you can give away, please consider donating to Brazil Foundation. it is a verified and trusted organization raising funds worldwide to help the state. even if it's 1 single dollar, please don't think it won't be helpful because it very much will.

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I've never felt so cool for being autistic

AUTISM

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LadyBoy by RuPaul

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you know what they say, get you a man who can do both

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the precise moment when I found out what bi panic means

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I used to be straight until this woman turned me into a lesbian mess

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Reblog and put in the tags of your favorite underrated ship that you think deserves more fanfics and especially fanart!

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me: yeah I'm not really into blonde gu-

Alucard:

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have you ever tried to explain Hellsing to anyone? it's like. protestant vampire hunters experimented some dark magic on Dracula over a century and now they're using him as their main weapon to fight nazi ghouls and catholic fanatics to save London from the 3rd reich...? lots of sexual tension, big guns, long hair, overcoats and boots included? but it's amazing I promise.

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Shout out to demons, vampires and dhampirs presented as handsome men in manga & anime. Gotta be my favorite gender.