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I wrote something for my drama programme and turned it into an SVU/Barson one shot !! Enjoy ig

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Another bout of bones memes be upon ye!!!

thank you for coming to my fourth bones talk!! see you again soon!

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"People are allowed to dislike characters!"

WRONG!

NO ONE is allowed to dislike Dr. Tara Lewis.

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This is your PSA that from approximately 11:20 today until next monday (the 21st) i will be largely inactive on all social media. I am off to holiday programme and will have little phone battery and time to talk to anyone online, so my phone will be on do not disturb ! If you need me , no you dont /lh

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Once the pain stops being so bad that i can barely move and can hardly think im gonna start working on the character designs and the plot outlines for my comic . I'm finally gonna start the project . Trust .

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Could really go for some platonic bedsharing and cuddling featuring The Characters on this fine Tuesday

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My pretty creatures all dressed up

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i just think it says a lot about the person. my favorite is a bear named theodore

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If my pain is at a baseline of 2 day to day , and about a 4.5 on a decently bad flare , and like .... 6 at its absolute worst , is that counted as having chronic pain ? Or am i just dramatic....

Also at what point is it "acceptable" to use a mobility aid to stop the pain ? Cause rn i only use one when i reach about a 5 and physically cannot cope with walking , but ive found that using one when im at a 3ish prevents the pain from getting any worse (but idk if that justifies it cause i can definitely walk without one at that level , its just a preventative measure...)

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No triggering stuff just a long post so im putting it under a read more lmfao .

TLDR: i talked to my shrink about dissociation and potential of being a system / having alters , blah blah blah

Discussed my dissociation and potential alters with my shrink today !! I was worried and thought shed either shut me down or be concerned about it, but instead she said to me that it sounded like i wouldve been diagnosed with a dissociative disorder (likely OSDD-1) a few years ago when i was actively dissociating all the time and it really impacted my life , but now that i've been in therapy and got away from the traumatising environment causing me to dissociate , i don't really meet the criteria anymore (which is a good thing! It means im not struggling as much now).

She also said that it sounds like i probably have at least one alter based on the short discussion we have , and that if i want to , trying to work with that could be beneficial ! She said to embrace it , because he (Bill) sounds like a calming presence and a relatively healthy way to cope , since his existence doesn't come with as much dissociation anymore .

Also she said that while it's hard to tell for sure , it is likely that i could be a new-er alter ??? And not the "original" ? Wild....

OH AND - she said that from how i describe my childhood and past , I've probably always had alters without knowing , but only became aware when Bill came about....

Overall , she was incredibly supportive and helped me work a lot out in a short session ! She said that it's entirely up to me if i wanna try understand my system more and do more research and shes with me if i want her help or validation , but she recommended we focus on more pressing issues in therapy because rn the dissociation isnt my biggest problem 🤷

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Idk what the british call it but in NZ , ground beef is mince . I wouldn't dream of calling it anything else 😭

AMERICANS DONT CALL MINCE "MINCE" ???? ITS "GROUND BEEF" OR "HAMBURGER" ???? EX-FUCKING-SCUSE ME ?????

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Oh that country squintern gave hodgins a lecture goddamn....

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Trying to make conversation with estranged family is so awkward 😭 someone help me pls what do i say 😔🙏

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Hodgins got into the shower with Zack ???? GAYYYYYYYYYY

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"In a festive non-lesbian manner"

I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE ANGELA MONTENEGRO

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Realised today that i skipped the first christmas special of bones so ive gone back to rewatch it.

I forgot how much i loved Zack , he's so silly

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AMERICANS DONT CALL MINCE "MINCE" ???? ITS "GROUND BEEF" OR "HAMBURGER" ???? EX-FUCKING-SCUSE ME ?????