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I'm going to talk about it! Periods! Periods! Periods! I was not allotted a mother as I was going through my first period. I have always had really painful periods and I know other women have struggled with painful periods as well. I am not talking about simple menstrual cramps what I am talking about is the very real abdominal pain that comes with a very heavy period. I have struggled since I was young with really painful periods, and with my dad being the only adult in my home at that time when I got my first period there wasn't any protection, there weren't any answers there, there was no information that I was given about what was happening to my body and whether it was normal or not.

Being curled up on the floor or sneaking away to cry hysterically 😭 or even the cancelled plans. I never mentioned it to a doctor because like I said this is what I thought a period was. I wasn't taken to the doctor as a preteen or teen by any parent to make sure I was not in danger of future problems. That was my foundation for the way I would treat myself in the future. I came into adulthood until I got pregnant with my son I ignored self care like it didn't exist. The pain got worse and I had to figure out new ways to be ok. With each child the pain got worse and I continued to ignore the cysts that were present during my pregnancies and the pain that had me in bed for days. No more!!!

I will be sharing my journey into taking back my health. I will take back my self care in this area. Welcome to the adventure.

#health #selfcareforblackwomen #selflove #physicalhealth #motivation #inspiration #womenshealth #wellness #physicalhealth #pain #selfcare

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I love this new life that is slowly but vividly showing up for me right now. My hormones have been wild west meets Westside Story and financial aid plus God made it clear that I'm not in control of the whole wide world and everyone in it and now I have to be "patient" blah whatever that means. I have taken this day to study more and more about the beauty in my Nigerian blood. There is so much to learn that the thought that it will take my whole life is dedicated to this rebel adventure of lifting up humanity and our gift, wraps me up in excitement and endurance. I tried doing life "the right" way and it bit me, soooo this time I will listen to my intuition, my Creator and spiritual guides. I went ahead and threw my fit about starting classes in March instead of this week and now I have moved on. God knows I need the additional time and I need the additional growth. I'm so glad life doesn't work out to my expectations and instead it falls in God's perfect pattern. 🥰👑🙏🏾🤷🏾‍♀️🙌🏾 https://v.lemon8-app.com/al/OgNfNwpry

#African #Language #inspiration #motivation #spirituality

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We have all learned that no year is our year. 😂But what if we could start retraining our minds to stop waiting for the year to serve us and start setting our mindset on how we can serve others? 🤔What if our intentions weren't set in what we can get throughout the year but what we can give?🤷🏾‍♀️ I have decided to stop waiting on the year to bring me joy, happiness and love, and will be the person that makes someone's year a little funnier, adventurous, healing or peaceful that is what I will strive for. This is not my year, it's God's and I now invite myself into the happiness, tears, battles and victories. I will fight for those who are oppressed and haven't grown into their voice. 📢 I will show compassion and empathy to those who have lost. I am not perfect, I will fall and hurt but I will progress and hopefully I will add sunshine and love to someone's hard year.

#intentions #embracevulnerability #safespace #motivation #inspiration

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I haven't posted in a minute and here is why! She was minding her own business in her kingdom far away in the middle of the forest. He was hustlin' a new start up in the middle of the big city. They both searched for escape in the heart of books and wrote their dreams in the form of stories. With their heads down both wrapped under the warm blanket of the characters being created and put on paper, creating their futures on two different spiritual roads that would collide.

The cards were lining up in her growth, showing her step by step the next steps. She served and offered her gifts to others. She donated and encouraged, Being reminded by the Supreme Being her struggle will have a moment of rest. Of laughter. Her faith allowed her to start glowing.

He fell on his knees each Sunday praying for growth and strength to carry a family. He met with his pastor, gave to the church, opened his mind and released past beliefs. He kept stepping out on faith not knowing what the blessings would look like.

Both reflected on past heartbreak and where they contributed, through tragedy, victories, Tears and Laughter. Both highlighting their goofy and redefining their gift neither had any idea that their souls were already connecting. Preparing a safe place and creating a path. Completely under a pool of light reconstructing parenting in their homes. They took a second. They looked up for a minute. Taking a rest from running, flying, arranging, stressing. When they took a breath, the moon was in Pisces and the Universe in the age of Aquarius their signs lined up. TO BE CONTINUED 🥰📚💖

#soulmate #spirituality #partnership #romance #blacklove #lemon8 #blackgirlmagic

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Cozy, Comfy and Relaxing! ✌🏾😻✍🏾

#catlover #intentionalliving #African #spirituality #inspiration

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So I have been obsessed ever since the thought of exploring the spiritual gifts that run in my blood, I have found a connection to my features. Growing up around nothing but whiteness I always heard about how big my nose was or having fish lips or having people say that I am dirty because of the rich melanin that is my skin tone.

As I move through the hurt that my younger self absorbed about my looks, I realize how far away from the beauty of my maker I was. I realized how often I would put myself down because my black features were never put up to me in a positive light. I realize how often I put that anxiety onto my kids.

I am grateful for these realizations and awakenings. I am grateful for the loose skin that kept my babies safe. I am grateful for support around me that allows us to heal those wounds. 🙏🏾🧘🏾‍♀️✨🌞 Remember Queens, we glow 🌟

#blackgirllemon8 #adoption #blackgirlmagic #spirituality #natural

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As I reach for the unbelievable connections with not only The Supreme Being, but also myself and my children. Everyone's Spiritual DNA is different as I connect in this way another may go another route. I was adopted so most of healing is educating myself starting at the beginning, and honoring my culture that was once lost to me. 🙏🏾🧘🏾‍♀️✨

#oracle #spirituality #selfcare #adoption #safespace

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Under this storm that we had here on the lake of Ohio and seeing the devastating destruction that has befallen me and my fellow rural farm owners has pushed me to lean back and actively be patient. To reconstruct my vision and connect to where the spirit has been sending me. The acts of free generous behavior of my adopted community was part of my reading last week.

One of my reading I got a warning of destruction. I thought that was my divorce, it wasn't. it was the barn collapsing this week. The reading last week also asked for patience and community from me. Now the card are clear from last week.

This particular spread is used for relationships, and the message now is strength and endurance. The message is compassion and social service are my purpose for this cycle. All I had to do is ask and my amazing community has already been so amazing in offering spring barn clean up. Being in a spiritual mindset doesn't mean nothing bad ever happens. What it means is we mourn the loss, go through the process, and never ignoring the self that is hurt so you can move forward and grow. Connections!!!! Let's bring the humanity back. 🙏🏾✨🧚🏾‍♀️✊🏾

#spirituality #embracevulnerability #safespace #spiritualjourney #wellness #Lemon8

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To all of my single parents. You have an identity and dreams and laughter and love to give. You deserve to rest, smile, friendships, romance and joy. The fact that you are carrying all of the emotional, mental and spiritual exhaustion and still slaying says nothing but positive things about you. Lift your head up and keep your feet on the ground. push through and find the life within each moment. Breeze past those that judge with grace and glow in your freedom. You are allowed to be frustrated, angry and sad but we don't stay there. We don't have that luxury, but what we have is so much more. We harness our energy and put it into the grind. It's difficult but the blessings are so much more. You will find your footing once again and you will fly again. 🧚🏾‍♀️👑🙏🏾

#safespace #embracevulnerability #selfcare #singlemom #motherhood

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This is a time of mixed experiences. I think of my bloodline and the fear, the pain, the tears, the strength and the courage that my ancestors went through. I think of the people who were betrayed, killed, R***d and misplaced in their own land. 2 cultures of people lost their families, homes and culture all in one swoop. I am grateful to have the blood flow, however, that doesn't take away from the ancestral pain that we carry still till this day. I am grateful for the pillow that we share. I want to say even though there are others that will not acknowledge our pain, but I see you and you are cared for, you are worth shining your light, you are worth not backing down. You matter and what happened matters. 💔❤️‍🩹🧚🏾‍♀️✨

#youmatter #embracevulnerability #safespace #ancestors #selfcare

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I am so grateful for this journey of self Discovery and ancestral healing, however it gets lonely sometimes. My circle has gotten smaller and my path and vision seemed to have changed overnight... AGAIN!!! I mean this is getting a little ridiculous!!! Okay whereas I do not do well with change and The Creator and my Spiritual Guides know this very well, however this one I am welcoming. I am ready to go ahead and face these recently discovered shadows and my responsibility in it. I am also ready to sever the relationships that I have been chasing that were toxic on both ends so that they as well as I may find what is meant to fill that spot. Chasing my Ancestors has been the start to my connection to my spiritual gifts. This particular spread allowed me to see my direction and next steps to my purpose. Yesterday was all about being still and connecting with my messages and this one seems to be an encouragement in that waiting period. In a lot of ways I have done all I can do even giving away energy on things that took joy and resources instead of providing them. Ventures that includes taking myself from my kids when I was already the only parent they have. So doing this has allowed me to take myself out of the guilt of others faults and rise up through the quicksand of struggle they left behind. The survival for me is not trying to fix anyone including myself, but to finally allow myself to be who I was created to be and relay the messages and stand not just for my African Ancestors but my European Ancestors and Spiritual gifts that have been forgotten by and demonized by the oppressors. I love Christianity it's original message and Proverbs of Christ are beautiful and progressive for that time. I tend to be very drawn to all spiritual backgrounds. I also Love how much of a socialist he was. It also shines a light on how far we have moved from our roots. As I watch each nation in such unrest I am reminded I have to stay close to The Creator, Listen to my guides and not be afraid to receive as well let go. I will not stop!! One thing is for sure. When you disconnect from your ancestors you disconnect from your spiritual gifts and then you disconnect from your people. When I research early Kingdom of Kongo which is part of my DNA I am saddened by in order for that advanced Kingdom to happen the indigenous people were enslaved and their culture and spiritual gifts stripped all in the name of the Oppressor's spiritual disconnection. What happened it fell as all nations do that are built on the innocent's blood sweat and tears. Karma may not hit right away. But does always hit! Every nation carries beauty as well as ugly ignoring both as left humans disconnected and lost. I am grateful for the pain and suffering that I am surviving to become connected with my true roots for the first time.

#embracevulnerability #safespace #blackgirls #heal #worthy

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1.General Message from your maternal line regarding who you are/how you live

2.General Message from your paternal line regarding who you are/how you live

3.What the ancestors in my maternal line want from me

4.Whay the ancestors in my paternal line want from me

5. The gifts I inherited from my maternal line that I am underutilizing

6.What gifts I inherited from my paternal line that I am underutilizing

7.The ancestor most eager to connect and work with me at this time

8.My relationship with this Ancestor

9.What we will achieve if we consistently work together to solve my problems

#ancestors #spirituality #tarot #blackgirl #identity

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The path belongs to my ancestors and guides. One of the things that I am realizing and also appreciating about being able to research my own DNA Spiritual history but I have been able to connect with so many different Rituals because of the wild mixture cultural richness that runs through my blood. I feel the pain, the struggle, the constant fight as a black woman but with all of that, when we go back, and I connect with my writing and my all of the spiritual Rituals I get to participate in because of my DNA I am blessed. I scream, cry and throw tantrums actually I already did several times this week, but when I'm writing to my guides and researching my history I find the Power, Magick and Motivation to show and explore the concept that I AM WORTHY OF SUCCESS, LOVE AND RESPECT. I call on all of these things. I call on PEACE, SERENITY AND GRACE of the gods and goddesses of my ancestors of all the regions that are a part of my make up. I am evolving and with that process is loss, unrest, discomfort and misplacement at this section of my growth. I feel like I'm glowing throw all of the waste that my Creator has been eliminating. I see myself shining through the tears and discomfort and I know I will only continue to grow and change and I now welcome discomfort when it knocks because it means more beauty. I'm not sending discomfort and invite or anything but I am learning to create solutions around me when it decides to drop in uninvited. 🧘🏾‍♀️🙏🏾🧚🏾‍♀️

#embracevulnerability #Diary #blackgirl #safespace

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Today has been a rough one already and I barely opened my eyes this morning. Including everything I needed to get the kids ready was a struggle. Why? I'm never sure when these mornings happen. I did what every responsible parent does I set my intentions and then went on with my morning. Now my intentions are not always the best, I wanted everything to go the way I planned with some extra razzle dazzle. Well I got the razzle dazzle just what the kind I had envisioned. So the mature, lady like woman that I am I dropped off all the kids went home and threw the biggest fit I have ever thrown to date. Why? I still can't tell you all I can tell you is when I journaled and released every thought without judgement it helped. I meditated by the wood fire it's help even more. I Paused and remembered my breathe and I went from age 2 back to age 37. Would I like this process to take less of my day up yes, but before I started this journey I would have let it destroy our holidays. I would never be able to do it without my support, my Creator, and my willingness to get my head out of my own a**. 🙏🏾🧚🏾‍♀️🧘🏾‍♀️✨

#motivation #inspiration #embracevulnerability #safespace #womensupportingwomen

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You can now get a copy of the Sefirot deck, the game, pins and more until the end of February ✨

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I have never been more sad to be done with a book. I know I have to move on but I already miss them. 😔😭

#book #lemon8bookclub #booktok #goodnight #selfcare

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The election has everyone drained, specially those that are of color and LGBTQ+ communities. We don't know what our future in this country looks like. The energy that we were still holding from past elections, COVID trauma and now this election. So as we move through the next 4 years we need to find our voices and fill up space. As a mother raising a black man I have failed up until now stand and find my space. Now, I realize now that that will take practice, you see, I have spent decades in survival mode of people pleasing. I grew up being the diversity everywhere I went as a child and most places as an adult. So as you can imagine there will be practice involved. My goal is not to spread more hate in this world but to advocate for tough, healthy communication among humans. With that being said there is a certain amount of healing, recharge and self-care that need to happen after each election whether your on the "winning" side or not. However, people of color and the LGBTQ+ community especially for the constant scanning, constant alert mindset and constant making ourselves smaller for the sake of guaranteed safety leads to burnout and trauma. So what I decided to do is, let go of what I cannot change and grabbed the boldness to start meditation and healing work around the initial anxiety of the results, so I may effectively advocate and challenge conversations. 🙏🏾🧘🏾‍♀️✨

#safespace #safeplace #inspiration #meditation #motivation