hipbonesbymay

[hipbonesbymay]

Just for the record, this account is a safe space for @na's and mi@'s of all genders, races and stages. Whether you're a trans man who's been struggling for 5 years, or a non binary amab of colour who's been struggling for 2 weeks. My dms are always open for you <3

[hipbonesbymay]

wouldn't wish an ED on my worst enemy cuz what if they get skinny before me

[hipbonesbymay]

omgggg why is it so hard to lose 5lbs 😭😭😭 i have lost 1 fucking lbs this entire month. what am i doing wronggg maybe i just need to get on the treadmill i haven't had motivation to do that

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ughh ive been losing motivation (ig?) and i have been eating WAY to much like more than i really need, and i just saw a tt on how the brandy melville clothes are to big on them and that an xxs is way to big on them like omg i wish i had that problem 😭😭. i need to be better tomorrow ik i will i have to be.

also yk how asian sizing is quite small?? i terribly wish that i could fit into the smalled size they have

[hipbonesbymay]

i hate this stupid fucking disorder

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i can feel a binge coming i think im gonna have to do my metabolism day tomorrow. lets hope i can prevent it

[hipbonesbymay]

guys im so cooked. im going to my grandmas on like Sunday or Monday, and i wont have a scale and also my family is making food plans right, 3 meals a day i can only eat 1 meal a day or else im gonna freak out like i dont know what to do. honestly my dad and my sister know that i eat 1 meal a day, but like still its so stressful bc they're probably gonna say something

[hipbonesbymay]

Talking about my feelings is great

but like what if I just never 3at anything but soup, rice crackers, yoghurt and oatmeal ever again and become deathly underw3ight (Guess who is too f4t to open up about their 3D to anyone)

[hipbonesbymay]

i hate eating it stresses me out so much

[hipbonesbymay]

Is this a safe place to say flat ass over juicy ass any day

[hipbonesbymay]

does anyone know what to do abt none of my pants fitting me? i really don't want to buy more just for them to not fit later. i literally have 1 pair of pants that fit and im getting a job soon and i dont wanna wear the same pants everyday or even pants that don't fit

[hipbonesbymay]

day 4: the way people react and not being able to fit in my pants

day 5: bc im fat

day 6: yes but like a real binge doesn't happen often anymore

[hipbonesbymay]

im so glad tomorrows monday bc i haven't seen have ice cream 3 days in a row now and i dont like it let me stave in peace

[hipbonesbymay]

thigh gap by april pleaseee 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

thats when my friends birthday is and she'll probably have a birthday party and i wanna go especially since i haven't seen her since june

[hipbonesbymay]

omg ive been so distracted that i didn't even realize that its almost dinner time i didn't even have lunch (ive been playing crk all day)

[hipbonesbymay]

Confession of a bad anorexic

Of course food isn’t a reward. But I want to feel normal sometimes. Sometimes I want to pretend that I’m naturally skinny, like I don’t count every calorie and overthink every bite. So I think one day of each weekend, if I stay far far below my weekly calorie budget, I’ll pretend to be normal.

After all, I don’t need to recover if I can still be normal when I want to, right? If I can choose to “let go” it must not be that bad. Right? Right?

I’ll still count the calories of course. But I might eat a donut.

[hipbonesbymay]

ugh how much weight do i have to lose to get a thigh gap 😓😓 ive lost 22lbs and my thighs are still touching