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i feel so left out. like everyone around me knows how to be a human and i don’t.

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Got absolutely censored today when writing my essay for my games design degree. I will not take the erasure of the piece of artwork that is Baulders gate 3

DONT PMO

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You know it’s girlhood when even my panic attacks are silent

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I don’t think I’ll ever get over my grief for the person I was meant to be

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why i love my country

(the answer is love)

they say that Love is

the root of all revolution—

and maybe they’re right,

but it’s not the kind of Love

you find in Valentine's cards,

glossy tabloids, or the hollow

of a lover’s neck.

it’s the sort of thing that wakes you up

at 3 a.m., fists clenched,

staring at the ceiling like it owes you

an answer—like the lies you’re told

are too heavy to dream through.

it’s the Love that sweats,

that drinks alone at the bar,

then walks home through the alley

where the rats are smarter

than half the men you know.

Love isn’t patient.

It isn’t kind.

this kind of Love is the sort of thing

that makes you want to tear the world apart

and burn everything to the ground,

because sometimes

(just sometimes),

you need to

burn it all down

before something real can grow.

they’ll call this anger,

but it’s always been exactly

what it is: Love—

raw, bloody-knuckled.

The kind of Love

that asks, why?

what now?

what else?

what next?

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He is one of my only consistent obsessions

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You are the bane of my existence and the the object of all my desires

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I think he’s my new drawing obsession. I find him quite easy to draw

My mans

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This is a small drawing I did of my favourite marriage candidates on stardew

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It’s not eight either.

has anyone figured out how much art you need to make to make your mental illness go away

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Which is why it’s so frustrating when people simply ‘don’t keep up with politics’ what a privilege it is to not keep up with what’s going on around you. To not see the genocide and essentially what will most likely be the end of the world. Because you won’t experience the end of the world like the poorest people- like the people who are desperate for you to pay attention to things going on around you.

Like do you not think that people in 1940s German sat around and said ‘I tend to not keep up with politics, it doesn’t affect me’ as they watch millions of people die, as there neighbours where stolen from their homes.

It won’t be you, until it is. Please vote, please educate yourself and please have some empathy.

I'm trying to take a step back and view the current political climate through the eyes of a future historian. I'm trying to live my life like it's all going to be okay because in the future XYZ will have happened. If I went back to the 1920s or 1930s and saw the nadir of race relations, the rise of fascism, the great depression, the War, I could stand back and say "well, things will slowly get better throughout the century. There will be ups and downs, but life in the 50s will be better than this, life in the 80s will be better, life in the 2010s will be better." I'm trying to pretend like I'm not living through unprecedented events, like whatever is happening now was always going to be that way and it's all just a hiccup in the inevitable march of progress, which I know is a delusion but otherwise I'd be paralyzed with dysfunctional fear. I don't know what's going to happen 2025, or 2030, 2050, 2100. The future isn't guaranteed to turn out fine. In fact, it turns out really fuckin bad for a whole lot of people. "Things will be okay..." Tell that to Jews in the 40s. Tell that to the Iranians since the 50s, or the Afghans since the 70s. Tell that to gay people in the 80s. Tell that to black people pretty much anytime, anywhere. Tell that to the Armenians, the Kurds, the Palestinians, the Uyghurs. Being alive is terrifying. I can't even begin to imagine the horrors yet to unfold in my lifetime. My kids will enter a worse world than I did, I know that to be true.

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Ah shit here we go again

wow babe you’re really good at staying up incredibly late and barely sleeping every night

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Yes sir! Now someone tell the companies this

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No cos why is not a single experience I’ve had unique, but also yeah I was super scared of the sun exploding in 4 billion years.

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To my favourite trauma bonded father daughter duo

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Oh….

The dystopia of your darkest insomniac imaginings is almost always someone else's dream of a new utopian dawn.

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nothing makes me wanna kms more than trying to learn a new skill. crochet can bite me.