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THIS BLOG IS BEING MOVED , NO MORE BEING UNHAPPY.   LIKE THIS AND I WILL FOLLOW YOU BACK.  ( THIS WILL BE REBLOGGED A FEW MORE TIMES . )

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THIS BLOG IS BEING MOVED , NO MORE BEING UNHAPPY.   LIKE THIS AND I WILL FOLLOW YOU BACK.  ( THIS WILL BE REBLOGGED A FEW MORE TIMES . )

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THIS BLOG IS BEING MOVED , NO MORE BEING UNHAPPY.   LIKE THIS AND I WILL FOLLOW YOU BACK.  ( THIS WILL BE REBLOGGED A FEW MORE TIMES . )

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THIS BLOG IS BEING MOVED , NO MORE BEING UNHAPPY.   LIKE THIS AND I WILL FOLLOW YOU BACK.  ( THIS WILL BE REBLOGGED A FEW MORE TIMES . )

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THIS BLOG IS BEING MOVED , NO MORE BEING UNHAPPY.   LIKE THIS AND I WILL FOLLOW YOU BACK.  ( THIS WILL BE REBLOGGED A FEW MORE TIMES . )

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i might remake this blog again but yeah...

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Quick question is a ipad / tablet worth it if you have a laptop? i have a few discounts at target for birthday and working there and i have been considering a tablet but don't know if i should.

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THE SUALA BIM   -         translating into the seven vexations .  are those creatures born out of the filth of humanity .  these being are the lesser gods  more focused around the concepts of doubt and ruin ,  greed and gluttony  ,  and lastly rage and compulsion.  these seven can become a single god -  one most terrifying but that usually ends with one dying or melding into another as they don’t have the ability like the focal gods to hold themselves in world as they were not created out of themselves but out of that which was created by the larger gods.  so they fear the god of creation , but they also study and learn more and more of him by the day and that is one of the reasons azmat is  so keen on finding ‘ the ends “ and forming his union with them but they are currently lost .

the lesser gods tend to branch out , into what is known as the ulat din  or the roots of havoc and they run rampant  and they start to grow out heathens and wars, coups and destruction and even lesser versions of themselves  . there has been mention of a man though who is less compelled by the lesser gods but is actually on the same power current as them. but he also draws from his line of gods  and that makes him a formidable foe .

begum kalsoom is the head of them by being the goddess of the cursers and her second command is her lover currently in a deep slumber bibi pasha who is the god of heathens and wars.   kalsoom targeted zindaagi for his complicated birth and abilities and  grew in favor of his mother who was a saint of death and pushed into selling him off to her people who worked to kill him unsuccessfully as he kept healing  as to bring strength back into pasha.

the sula bim are four women and three men, they reproduce by feeding off the immoral actions of man . both the men and women can have children ,  yet if produced between two of them they are even more powerful.  they eat the vice  and then allow it to set in their wombs and then be passed out as a inky substance that will then go on itself to find a face to keep .    the children of the suala bim are know as the  fetoori bam or the threaded undoings.  there powers consist of  variations of the seven ,  not as strong but can be trained to become a threat.   both use abilities that deal with  afflictions, shadows ,  seduction ,  word play ,  iron and fire.  it is different then how people attuned to the larger gods would use  powers around these themes as they are safety measures and after effects that the sula bim and the fetoori bam have to deal with because   they are the worst  of this world  and that is careless and gluttonous.

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what if zindagi's mother tore and sold off all of the parts and insides of a young zindagi , and though he heals it takes time and the question becomes is what he is now still the same him . like when he had to grow himself back to life , how much of that early zindagi is stillnteally there and how much of something new was made because he had to for all intents and purposes be reborn with all new parts . think the ship of theseus.

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belladonna and magnolia for khushal ! <3

01. BELLADONNA : how does your muse respond to silence ?   do they take comfort in soundlessness ,   or seek to fill the void with noise

khushal lives for the silent moments, for as a trickster he requires these moments to set his stage of trumping another.  he thrives and grows in it , because in the silence there is a wide breadth of festering meats he can lock his teeth into , and become more awful and more cunning then he was before .  in it he  learns more about people than he would if they actually spoke . for when people are perceiving a moment of being alone they betray way more and more easily things about them they would be too ashamed to otherwise  .   it is used to grow attached to a person ,  to unfold them and sit a hand through their insides as though he were always there and driving them to new depraved heights.

02.  MAGNOLIA :    describe your muse’s relationship with nature   &   the natural world .  

nature as it is a ever-changing multitude of things becomes to him what he needs it to be . be it  a plaything ,  a safe-house  or a weapon , it was drawn out to mirror him in his entirety .  though khushal as himself tends to relay on nature to be a foundation of his work.  nature is fickle ,  the trickster is such as well  and so they relay on each other to be used to , be it impish  and angry ( nature by khushal ,  )  or taking and reseting creation and time ( khushal by nature . )  i think to go back out to the idea of mirrors, khushal played or rather so took over and become the other world that zindagi made and so he was apart of nature and so even more than what i have mentioned nature and khushal actually belong to each other and are a cycle of one another and the qualities of change and manipulation on themselves and with each other.

@case01​   +      the other world is menace you try to hold in your hands but always slips his roots in you instead,

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THE SUALA BIM   -         translating into the seven vexations .  are those creatures born out of the filth of humanity .  these being are the lesser gods  more focused around the concepts of doubt and ruin ,  greed and gluttony  ,  and lastly rage and compulsion.  these seven can become a single god -  one most terrifying but that usually ends with one dying or melding into another as they don’t have the ability like the focal gods to hold themselves in world as they were not created out of themselves but out of that which was created by the larger gods.  so they fear the god of creation , but they also study and learn more and more of him by the day and that is one of the reasons azmat is  so keen on finding ‘ the ends “ and forming his union with them but they are currently lost .

the lesser gods tend to branch out , into what is known as the ulat din  or the roots of havoc and they run rampant  and they start to grow out heathens and wars, coups and destruction and even lesser versions of themselves  . there has been mention of a man though who is less compelled by the lesser gods but is actually on the same power current as them. but he also draws from his line of gods  and that makes him a formidable foe .

begum kalsoom is the head of them by being the goddess of the cursers and her second command is her lover currently in a deep slumber bibi pasha who is the god of heathens and wars.   kalsoom targeted zindaagi for his complicated birth and abilities and  grew in favor of his mother who was a saint of death and pushed into selling him off to her people who worked to kill him unsuccessfully as he kept healing  as to bring strength back into pasha.

the sula bim are four women and three men, they reproduce by feeding off the immoral actions of man . both the men and women can have children ,  yet if produced between two of them they are even more powerful.  they eat the vice  and then allow it to set in their wombs and then be passed out as a inky substance that will then go on itself to find a face to keep .    the children of the suala bim are know as the  fetoori bam or the threaded undoings.  there powers consist of  variations of the seven ,  not as strong but can be trained to become a threat.   both use abilities that deal with  afflictions, shadows ,  seduction ,  word play ,  iron and fire.  it is different then how people attuned to the larger gods would use  powers around these themes as they are safety measures and after effects that the sula bim and the fetoori bam have to deal with because   they are the worst  of this world  and that is careless and gluttonous.

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❥     𝐁𝐎𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐋 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒    [   𝚆𝙾𝚁𝙳 𝙿𝚁𝙾𝙼𝙿𝚃𝚂    ]   .

headcanon prompts with questions based on plants   &   what they represent in flower language .  happy roleplaying !!  ♡

abatina :   is there anything in life your muse has changed their mind about over time   (   due to becoming more educated on the topic ,   certain experiences  ,   etc .   ) ,    or that they   would   change their mind about under certain circumstances ?  

acanthus :   is your muse deceptive ,   or willing to lie or deceive to achieve certain means ?   why or why not ?   

aloe :   how does your muse handle grief ?

amaryllis :   what is something or someone that your muse takes pride in ?   how do they express that pride ?   

anemone :   how does your muse view the world ;   as a cruel   &   unforgiving place ,   a land full of wonders ,   or something in - between ?  where does that world view come from   (   what experiences ,   life lessons ,   etc .   ) ?  

angelica :   where does your muse draw inspiration in life ?   what motivates them ?

apple blossom :   how does your muse go about expressing or not expressing their sexuality ?  

bachelor’s button :   does your muse actively seek romantic companionship ,   or cherish the liberties of being single ? 

basil :   does your muse have a love - hate relationship with anyone or anything ?

bay tree :   does your muse seek glory   &   accolades ,   or do they favour a simpler ,   more personal life ?  

begonia :   how cautious is your muse ?   are they prone to noticing red flags ,   or paranoid to the point of untrusting most everyone ?   why or why not ?  

belladonna :   how does your muse respond to silence ?   do they take comfort in soundlessness ,   or seek to fill the void with noise ?   

bluebell :   does your muse learn from their past ,   or are they prone to repeating the same mistakes ?  

carnation :   what is your muse’s relationship with their gender ?   how do they express or not express this relationship ?  

chamomile :   what is your muse likely to take away from a painful experience ?   are they one to be haunted by adversity ,   or to use what they’ve gone through to become stronger ?  

chrysanthemum :   how does your muse express romantic love ?  how do they feel about love as a concept ?  

daffodil :   is your muse one to be loyal in relationships ,   or are they likely to quickly move from one bond to another ?

daisy :   did your muse ever feel as though their innocence had been lost ?   what moment in their life could be described as the end of their innocence ?  

edelweiss :   what was the bravest moment in your muse’s life ?  are they known to be courageous from then on ?  

fern :   does your muse believe in magic or cosmic forces ,   or are they more likely to think their life is ultimately a matter of their own control ?  

forget - me - not :   has your muse ever forgotten something that is or was important to them ?   are they afraid of forgetting things like that ?  

gardenia :   is your muse one to confess romantic feelings early on ,   or to conceal them for long periods of time ?  

gladiolus :   describe a moment from your muse’s life that they will never forget .

goldenrod :   does your muse believe in luck or fortune ?  why or why not ?   where do they believe these things come from ?  

heliotrope :   does your muse believe in soulmates ?

hibiscus :   how does your muse view the gentler ,   daintier things in life ?   as things worth preserving   &   caring for ,   or things only bound to wither   &   disappear ?  

holly :   how strong is your muse’s sense of intuition ?  are they aware of it ?   do they ever fear that it is only paranoia ?  

hollyhock :   how strong is your muse’s sense of ambition ?  what’s something they strive for in life ?  

hyacinth :   is your muse athletic ?   does it come naturally to them ,   or have they had to work for their physique and/or skill ?  

hydrangea :   how much does your muse value communication in their relationships with others ?  are they prone to being misunderstood ?

iris :   if your muse could convey one last message to someone they have lost or left behind ,   what would it be ?  

ivy :   what are your muse’s views on marriage ?   do they believe it is something strictly for love ,   or an institution rooted in business   &   social benefits ?   do they desire or have they desired to be married ?

lavender :   how easy is it to gain your muse’s trust ?  once their trust is broken ,   how might one go about mending it ?  

lilac :   what was your muse’s childhood like ?   how has their upbringing affected them as they’ve aged ? 

lily :   how does your muse view their mother ?  

lotus :   has your muse ever felt as though they’ve been reborn ?  have they ever desired the feeling of a fresh start ,   or a better understanding of themself and/or the world around them ?  

magnolia :   describe your muse’s relationship with nature   &   the natural world .  

marigold :   is your muse prone to jealousy ?  how might they handle envious feelings ?  

mint :   does your muse view themself as virtuous   &   moral ?  what do these words mean to them ?

nasturtium :   describe your muse’s relationship with their birthplace ,   or homeland .  

oak :   who would your muse consider the strongest person they know ?  

pansy :   does your muse often reflect on their own actions ?   do they ever think a lot about the past ,   and what they could have done differently ?

parsley :   describe a holiday your muse enjoys ,   and why they enjoy it .

peony :   what would a   ‘  happy life  ’   look like in your muse’s eyes ?

poppy :   what comforts your muse ?

rhododendron :   is your muse receptive to warnings   &   advice given by others ?

rose :   how much does your muse value other people ?   do they wish to have many friends ,   lovers ,   and/or associates ?   are they an easy person to love ?

sage :   what is your muse’s legacy ?   what do they want to be remembered for   &   what might they actually be remembered for ?  

salvia :   is your muse possessive over people or things that matter a lot to them ?  how do they express that possessiveness ,   or lack thereof ? 

snapdragon :   is your muse merciful ?  why or why not ?

southernwood :   how seriously does your muse take themself ?   do they prefer a solemn   &   intellectual atmosphere or do they delight in jokes   &   banter ?  

sunflower :   what brings your muse the most joy in life ?  

tulip :   how does your muse view people in general ?  

violet :   how does your muse respond to betrayal ?

willow :   how does your muse handle sadness   &   depression ?

zinnia :   how has the loss of fallen comrades and/or loved ones affected your muse ?   has it taught them anything or given them any new perspectives ?

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How am I to protect my wax built castles of love from the devouring heat of your fires?

THE COLOR OF POMEGRANATES (1969) dir. Sergei Parajanov

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‘  i  can  bear  ugliness.  i  find  the  one  thing  i  cannot  live  with  is  death.  ’ for zindagi?

IN      YOUR      MOUTH      THE      MOON      SITS      ,       WATCHING      YOUR      TONGUE       LIKE      A      PROPHET      WOULD      A      FLOCK.                    ___                                                               ____                                                                      `.       i             want      to      laugh      ,       to      fold      her      declaration      into      thin      pages      lost      to      time.       but      instead      i      stay      festering      ,            holding      a      maggot      swarmed      carcass      in      place      of      a      body.      .      dying      and      then      finding      myself      forced      back      into      the      bitter      waters      of      existing.               ʷʰᵃᵗ      ⁱˢ      ᵐᵒʳᵉ      ᵘᵍˡʸ      ᵗʰᵃⁿ      ᵃ      ˡⁱᶠᵉ      ᶠᵒʳᶜᵉᵈ      ﹖       there      is      something      inside      of      me      that      LURCHES      ONTO      HER     TONE .       ,       a      bumbling      child      left      to      the      wolves      and      a      man      breaking      fast      on      a      world      too      wide      to      actually      offer      any      comfort.          ❝       𝒔𝒐      𝒚𝒐𝒖’𝒅      rather      sit      in      a      world      so      horrific      it      turns      you      haphazard       than      let      death      wash      you      out      to      comfort       ?              ❞      i       chew      my      lips      ,           observing       her      as      i      would      the      night      .       something      strange      ,       surely      not      hopeful      but      wholly      made      of      star      strings      and      the      vehement      declaration      that      she      was      living      measures      above      i      was.       if      she      could      live      through      all      the      ugly      things      of      the      world      then      surely      she      was     GREATER       THAN          I            had      ever      been      .             i      feel      cut      -       left      without      bearings      and      without      self      understanding      ,       ˢʷᵉᵃᵗⁱⁿᵍ      ᵗʰʳᵒᵘᵍʰ      ˡⁱᵛᵉˢ      ˡⁱᵏᵉ      ᵃ      ᵍᵒᵃᵗ      ᵒⁿ      ᵗʰᵉ      ᶜʰᵒᵖᵖⁱⁿᵍ      ᵇˡᵒᶜᵏ.       she      was      leaving      i      more      pulled      apart      than      a      flood      would      land.

@chaoshe & zindagi  +.   weary are the immortal .

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'𝚃𝙰𝙺𝙴 𝙼𝚈 𝙷𝙰𝙽𝙳' 𝙿𝚁𝙾𝙼𝙿𝚃𝚂.

i got mushy and started thinking about like. touches?? but in particular the meaning behind holding hands. so here we are! as always, sender is the person sending the meme, receiver is the person receiving it, and you can just add "+ REVERSE" to switch the roles about! as always, let me know if i've missed any good ones!

[ LEAD ] : sender takes receiver by the hand to guide them to a specific location.

[ DRAG ] : sender grabs the receiver by the hand to aggressively and forcibly drag them to another location.

[ PULL ] : sender takes receiver by the hand to help them to their feet after they've fallen or been knocked over.

[ HASTE ] : in order to move quickly through dangerous territory, sender grabs receiver's hand to bring them to safety.

[ SAVE ] : saving their life in the process, sender grabs receiver's hands to either yank them out of immediate danger, or to pull them to safety.

[ REASSURANCE ] : noticing the receiver is upset, sender gently takes their hand to reassure them and provide them with a sense of comfort.

[ JUST BECAUSE ] : sender holds receiver's hand, just because they can.

[ STOP ] : sender catches receiver's hand to stop them from walking away from them.

[ ATTENTION ] : to get receiver's attention, or to guide it elsewhere, sender hastily takes their hand.

[ FEAR ] : sender, out of instinctive fear, grabs receiver's hand for comfort.

[ TOGETHER ] : in a gesture intended to prove to the receiver that they're no longer alone, sender takes their hand and holds it firmly.

[ LOVE ] : while out together in a romantic setting, sender quietly holds receiver's hand as they're standing together.

[ DISPLAY ] : during the process of an undercover mission/a situation where their identities need to be protected, sender holds receiver's hand to give the impression that they're in a romantic relationship.

[ SUPPORT ] : following a massive emotional blow, sender takes receiver's hand and holds it in an effort to provide emotional support.

[ STEADY ] : noticing the receiver stumbling or losing their balance, sender takes their hand in an effort to physically steady them.

[ NOT ALONE ] : during a moment of intense distress for the sender, they wordlessly reaches out and takes receiver's hand, both as a gesture of gratitude for being with them, and a gesture of self-comfort.

[ COLD ] : after the receiver complains of the cold, sender takes both of their hands in theirs and holds them gently under the guise of warming them up.

[ STILL ] : following a massive shock/stress/trauma, receiver's hands are trembling from the distress of it all. sender, seeing this, gently reaches out to cover and hold their hands, both as a comfort and as a way of calming them with their presence.