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is it just me or is it a common thing for pwaspd to when they feel stress it’s only physical and mentally i really don’t care, like sometimes i can feel my body get tense and hear my heart beating and then i start to get annoyed because my body doesn’t feel like mine and is not aligned with my mind. it’s like my nervous system isn’t compatible with my physical being because i can feel my body being loud but my head is so calm

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Francisco de Goya, The Monk, c. 1819-1822

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you have to let yourself be a weird woman or you will not survive

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photographer: chloe.jd model: the_lovewitch__

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running back in time to stop fourteen year old me from having that "hoe phase"

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what if i take knife and i put it through my skull til it break through and runs into my brain and that doesn’t stop the thoughts

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when you search npd, the only thing you get is uneducated videos about how to deal with narcissists, how to protect yourself from them, how to destroy them, how to change them, and similar rhetorics. i don’t honestly care or feel any specific emotion because of it but i do think it’s somewhat disappointing yet expected that when one might be looking for help or understanding they are only met with hate and antagonasing. pwnpd are sick and victims of a situation that causes their symptoms.

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I would dare say a significant increase of those with antisocial personality disorder would be open about with therapists if majority of therapists were like "so what is impacting you the most with it, i've heard for a lot that chronic boredom is a huge issue"

Instead its.

"So im going to try to make you have standard morality, guilt, shame, affective empathy" at best

And at worst "im not going to work on any other issue you have cause i'll be too afraid you are manipulating me"

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for pwaspd, do you believe in love ? like the concept and actual feeling of it, not obsession or dedication or sympathy. a raw spiritual and chemical between individuals. i think i do in sense that i want it to exist, i have no way of knowing wether it’s real or not and i can’t feel it either ( or at least i would guess )