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envyfilled · 3 months ago

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I want to be someone’s favourite PLEASE

Please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please

#bpd vent #bpd stuff #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #borderline problems #borderline personality disorder #♡ envy musings ♡

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envyfilled · 3 months ago

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she’s a 10 but doesn’t know how to regulate her emotions and goes from super obsessed to completely cold

#♡ envy musings ♡#bpd musings #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actual bpd

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envyfilled · 4 months ago

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I'm so tired of wanting, so tired of working, of loving so deep it scares me and no one ever ever loves me the same. I want to be wanted. Won't someone chase me? Please, please, please chase me instead.

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#♡ envy musings ♡#bpd things #bpd musings #actually bpd

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envyfilled · 5 months ago

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i cant stand the thought of anyone else occupying your mind

#♡ envy loves/hates ♡#♡ envy musings ♡#yancore #bpd vent #actually bpd #actual bpd #bpd thoughts #yandere musings #bpd musings #yan musings

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envyfilled · 6 months ago

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I wish I was with you instead of constantly thinking about you

#♡ envy musings ♡#bpd musings #actual bpd #bpd thoughts #actually bpd

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envyfilled · 6 months ago

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Wanna come over & nap with me?

#♡ envy musings ♡#the way i do this tho #especially with my fp #sometimes i get lucky and he joins me and i get a cuddly nap b4 work

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envyfilled · 7 months ago

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#♡ Envy Musings ♡#♡ Envy Craves ♡

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envyfilled · 7 months ago

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Ou no Kemono✧ The King’s Beast, ch. 40

#♡ Envy Musings ♡

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envyfilled · 9 months ago

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Where's my stalker to come and kidnap me in order to help and protect me from this overly stressful world? Make me your darling already.

#♡ envy musings ♡#bpd musings #actual bpd #yancore #yandere musings #yan musings #stalker mention #kidnapping mention #darling musings #yandere darling #♡ Envy Desires ♡

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envyfilled · 9 months ago

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I crave it.

The mutual obsession.

The feeling of loving and being loved in return.

I want our worlds to revolve around each other, my dearest how I long to be yours…

#♡ Envy Musings ♡

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envyfilled · 10 months ago

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It's too much. ITS TOO MUCH. ITS TOO FUCKING MUCH. I WANT TO CLAW AT MY ARMS AND TEAR AT MY SKIN. the white noise is too loud. I can't fucking THINK.

#♡ envy musings ♡#bpd thoughts #actually bpd #bpd musings #bpd vent #actual bpd #self harm mention #suicidial ideation #depression #self mutalition #depression vent

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envyfilled · 10 months ago

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Everything feels like white noise, it's so hard to focus, it's so hard to care and yet I care too much. I'm so fucking tired of it all, can't the world just swallow me whole? Or can someone hammer nails into my head and stop these thoughts?

#♡ envy musings ♡#bpd thoughts #actually bpd #bpd musings #bpd vent #suicidal ideation #suicidal thoughts #bpd mood swings #actual bpd

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envyfilled · 10 months ago

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I wish I was the darling instead of the yan, i wish he stalked me, I wish he snuck a secret camera and watched my every move, I wish he let me hear how obsessed he is, I wish..

#♡ envy musings ♡

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envyfilled · 11 months ago

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being self aware with bpd sucks. it's like watching your house burn down and not being able to do a damn thing about it

#when i realize im splitting and cant seem to stop it #when i know im being irrational but my brain continues to scream that im unloved unwanted etc #when i begin to self isolate and want to self sabotage and can barely restrain myself and instead push and push #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #♡ Envy Musings ♡

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envyfilled · 11 months ago

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bpd girls are dangerous because she disappears for a week and when you talk again she changed so drastically as if she'd been through 3 different wars, witnessed horrors beyond human comprehension, died in the last, got into hell where she was tortured for a time period which seemed like a thousand years then escaped and climbed up from hell just to resurrect but in reality it was just her being alone in her room with her own thoughts for a week

#♡ Envy Musings ♡#how im about to be after this work week #and after lowkey self isolating from my fp

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envyfilled · 11 months ago

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i would literally give anything for them to be as obsessed with me as i am with them please for once in my life i'll do anything i just need this so bad

#♡ Envy Musings ♡

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envyfilled · 11 months ago

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"you know me so well." of course I do. you're my favorite thing

#♡ Envy Loves/Hates ♡#this is actually both sad and funny #i got him white chocolate for vday #and he asked me why I did later #asked if it was by chance or did i remember #and of course i told him i remembered he loves sweet things #not regular chocolate #but white and fruity #and he seemed mildly shocked #made me sad because darling do you expect so little from me?#♡ Envy Musings ♡

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