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CICO works (with help from Contrave)

I'm never doing a fad diet again. Over the course of the past 5 months, I've slowly, but surely, lost a little over 30 lbs. How? CICO and contrave.

Contrave has changed my life. I know that sounds a little dramatic, but it's true. I can't believe it took me so long to get started on it. I'd had an almost-full bottle (120 pills) that Mom let me have last year when I visited for Christmas. She had gotten them prescribed because she wanted to try them out, but couldn't tolerate the side effects (she said they made her really irritable 😒).

Anyway, I was curious but skeptical. Contrave contains bupropion (antidepressant) and naltrexone (opioid antagonist), and not a single stimulant - or anything else that's been well-studied for weight loss. I'm not one to bother with OTC diet pills (they're pretty much all the same anyway) because they're unregulated and unproven, but I have been on phentermine a few times. Unfortunately, phentermine treatment is limited to 12 weeks at a time, and the awesome appetite suppressant effects diminishes quite a bit after the first few weeks, anyway.

I had a general idea of how contrave could work (background info: I have a formal education in human anatomy & physiology, biochemistry, introductory pharmacology, and human pathophysiology):

1. Naltrexone blocks endogenous opioids from attaching to opiate receptors, an action which mediates a dopamine response (dopamine is fundamental to the brain's reward center and the development of addiction). By blocking these receptors, one could theoretically reduce or eliminate the biochemical process that reinforces addictive behavior. This has already been extensively researched as a treatment for alcoholism.

2. Bupropion is an NE (aka adrenaline) and dopamine reuptake inhibitor. This means that bupropion prevents the "stop" of NE and dopamine activity, which leads to a whole bunch of other effects. Bupropion is chemically related to amphetamines, which explains this effect on certain neurotransmitters, but it also stimulates the release of 2 other molecules, alpha MSH and AGRP, which are involved in a lot of autonomic processes in the body, including regulation of appetite and energy expenditure. Most research that exists has focused on the psychological effects of bupropion as it is normally used to treat depression and to help people quit smoking.

So here's the interesting part:

Those 2 other molecules that are stimulated by bupropion? They each play a vital role in explaining how bupropion could be effective for weight loss:

a) alpha MSH does a lot of things, including appetite reduction and increases in energy expenditure (metabolism). Theoretically then, you could take just bupropion for weight loss right? Well, no. Like nearly every physiological process in our bodies, the cells that release a-MSH have a self-limiting feature to stop the whole process from going on indefinitely. Otherwise, humans could run out of energy needed to live.

b) This limiting feature works because cells release AGRP at the same time as a-MSH. AGRP's only function is to attach back to the cell that released it. When enough AGRP has attached, a signal is sent inside the cell telling it to stop producing both a-MSH and AGRP.

This basically means that no matter how much bupropion you take, its weight loss effects are going to be limited by your body's natural processes.

So back to my point, how does contrave work, exactly? I've already explained how it can help reduce appetite and increases metabolism via release of a-MSH, and how this process is self-limited by the concurrent release of AGRP. Theoretically, if we could find a way to eliminate or block AGRP without affecting a-MSH, then the potential of bupropion for weight control could be significant.

Well, here's the kicker... AGRP IS A TYPE OF BETA ENDORPHIN!

It's an endogenous opioid! This means that the sites AGRP attach to on a cell can be blocked by naltrexone without limiting a-MSH!

FYI, I didn't know any of this stuff until this past weekend, when I basically gave myself a mini neurochemistry lesson using articles available on PubMed. And sorry, I didn't bookmark any of them to use as references here.

Back to the story -

When I began contrave, I wasn't expecting much of anything. The bottle sat in my kitchen for a few months before I gave it a go, and even then it wasn't for weight loss. My psych was planning on possibly adding bupropion to my regimen anyway, so I figured I may as well try it out. Here's how things went:

Side effects are minimal due to the titration (slow increase) in dose that is prescribed to most people. The only thing I noticed was a short period of GI discomfort (nausea mostly) a few hours after taking a pill, but this stopped happening after about a week. It's probably due to the opioid receptors found in intestinal walls (something new I learned from my weekend of "research" lol) which affect intestinal motility. This is why opioids cause constipation, while opioid withdrawal produces nausea and diarrhea.

Price: you can go to the contrave website and get connected to a teledoctor who can write you a Rx (I used this service when I ran out of the bottle my mom had given me; consultation was $45). You can choose to have it sent to a local pharmacy, or use their preferred mail pharmacy, which charges $99 total to ship you a month's worth of medication. I chose this option because retail pharmacy prices are much higher. Total price: $144.00 first month, $99 monthly afterwards.

Insurance: most plans do not cover weight loss medications; mine certainly doesn't. The teledoctors they use also do not accept any insurance.

Regimen: you titrate up every week, starting with 1 pill/day during the first week (90mg bupropion+8mg naltrexone) until you get to 4 pills a day (360mg bupropion + 32mg naltrexone, all extended release).

Weight loss: at first, I had almost no faith that contrave would be effective for weight loss. I started off eating a 1200 cal/day (loosely tracked) and working out 1x a week. I'm still doing that, actually. I should also add that I used to crash diet a lot, often restricting myself to 500 cal a day, so I honestly didn't believe that staying under 1200 cal a day would actually do anything. Because of this irrational belief, I avoided the scale a lot. At some point - when I was up to 2-3 pills/day - I began to notice that I could go long periods of time without wanting or needing food. Even when I was physically hungry, eating felt like more of a chore. A few weeks after that started happening, some coworkers began commenting on my weight loss, which totally surprised me. I finally got the courage to weigh myself, and I was DOWN. 15. POUNDS. This all over the course of about 3 months.

Obviously, I was very encouraged by that, so I decided to continue with it. I'm basically doing the same now as I was then - 1200 cal/day (loosely) plus 1-2 days/week intense workouts (mostly CrossFit). It's now been 5 months and I'm down 32.6 lbs, to be exact.

Contrave has changed my life. It's like my brain has been reset; the damage done by all those years of starving and bingeing has been reversed. I have a normal relationship with food now: I eat when I'm hungry and stop when I'm satiated. I prepare nearly every meal I eat, which has eliminated almost all unhealthy, overprocessed foods from my diet. I'm trying to up my activity level, but I'm extremely busy with a full time job and another degree that I'm pursuing, leaving me pretty sleep-deprived during the weekdays. But weight loss is mostly diet, anyway.

I am more hopeful now than ever that I can achieve lasting weight loss. And the best part is that there's really no reason I can't be on contrave indefinitely, or for at least a few years. Bupropion is a medication that's already taken on a long term basis without issue. Naltrexone can damage the liver so it is typically not used long term; however, this effect has mostly been observed in people taking much higher doses of naltrexone (300mg+). Contrave contains a much smaller, extended release dose (32mg in 4 pills) that is even less than the dose used to treat alcoholism (50mg).

I'll update again when I remember to, lol. Hopefully I'll be down another 30 lbs 😁

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Day 22

So the side effects took about a week to go away and now they really don't bother me at all. A couple low key things I've noticed (which may contribute to topiramate's weight loss effects) are the pins and needles sensation in my heels and the change in sensation in my tongue. The pins and needles thing is different from having your leg fall asleep - it's the part that comes at the end, after the tickling stops and it's just a flurry of random, shooting pain; it hurts, but it's mostly annoying. The tongue thing, on the other hand, is just weird. Like, carbonated drinks burn my tongue, or they feel that way. Waxy or over-processed foods leave a nasty aftertaste. Interesting, anyway...

I'm only down 6 lbs all these 3 weeks. I started working out again 2 weeks ago but got sidetracked last week with a bit of excessive partying, then came down with a cold or something earlier this week. I've also just been diagnosed with an ulcer, which is just ridiculous and totally my fault. The next 4 weeks without alcohol ought to be really good for me if I can make it. I've been so miserable lately and the zantac hasn't been able to control the pain anymore.

Anyways, I'm still on track for HealthyWage, considering my wager is only 7.08 lb/month, but everyone knows weight loss slows, so this is really not ok... Month 2 needs to step up...

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Day 4, pt 2

So back to current life, which is peachy keen for the most part, minus my weight and the fact that I drink a little more than I'd like to. So I've decided to do something about all that. As I stated before, I started all this on May 23rd (Day 1), but the idea all began when I was scrolling FB and came across an article from the penny hoarder about HealthyWage. It's an app that basically lets you bet against yourself to lose weight. You choose an amount of weight and length of time (for example, I decided on 85 lbs in 12 months) and $$ you're willing to bet each month that you'll make it (I'm doing $50/month). If you lose the weight, you get back your money plus much more (I'll get back around $1600) but if you don't, you lose your money.

So this seems like a great plan for me because competition has worked for me in the past. Last year, several of the women at my company held a weight loss competition for 3 months, and I won (even though I gained about half the weight back).

Also, the day before, I saw a new doctor for a weight loss program. He prescribed phentermine (which I've been on before and like) and topamax (which I'm familiar with but have never tried). I've been reading up on studies as well as patient reviews, and it seems very promising. I've been on the combo for 4 days now and can't really say if it's all that different from phentermine alone. I will say that I took the full dose (100mg) topamax the first day, and the side effects were horrendous. I can't believe he started me out on that strength without titrating me up, and I can't believe I let myself start that high when I already know it's a high dose to start on (was a pharmacy technician for 5 years when I was younger). Anyway, been cutting the pills in half and taking them in am and pm. Not so bad now although like I said, I'm not sure it's doing anything more than phentermine does for me as an appetite suppressant (which works great). Reading the studies, it's unclear whether it does anything else. I suppose it's far too early to tell, anyway.

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Day 4

So I'm starting this journal on day 4 because I didn't think of this until last night, and I didn't get around to doing anything about it until just now. "This" I'm referring to is what will (hopefully) be a successful health transformation over the course of the next 12 months. I began on May 23, 2018, weighing in at 222.6 lbs. I'm 5'5", 31 years old, happily single and (very happily) childless, and while this is not my first foray into the struggles of diet and weight loss, it is the first time I am considering the impact that my weight could have on my health in the future.

THE BACKGROUND

I was not overweight for most of my life; until I was 21, I ranged from a normal to slightly below-normal BMI - the result of years of bulimia and exercise addiction. At the age of 21, I began to drink heavily and put on weight rapidly. Soon, I ballooned to 170 lbs. While I was certainly unhappy with the amount I weighed, something else was happening that overshadowed all else by a long shot - I was experiencing my first manic episode. My level of grandiosity was so extreme that while my weight was unsatisfactory, it could hardly affect my euphoric and extreme sense of being. I spent weeks sleepless and on walking on air, drinking and eating excessively and go up to 185. Inevitably, it all came crashing down, and I spent the next 6 months in one of the worst suicidal depressions I've ever experienced.

Life went on like this for a few years until, at the age of 23, I began the first of a series of several psychiatric hospitalizations during which I was diagnosed with (duh) bipolar I disorder. It would take several years and many trials on the med-go-round before I would finally stick to my meds, but let's back track a little because this journal is specifically about my weight/health...

Back to 2009/2010... I'm 22... I'm hypomanic and on a weight loss kick, fueled by a resurgence of bulimia. It's back, and it's worse than ever. I spend weeks at a time starving myself below 600 calories a day and working out at the gym, building up slowly at this time, maybe 3 days a week. I'm down to 160 lbs by my 23rd birthday, near the spring of 2010. I can only take so much restriction, though, and before long, I crack.

The pattern is familiar, but different from my teenage years - this time, I have my own money! I go from one restaurant to the next - order from one and while you're waiting, use their bathroom to purge what you ate at the last place. The cycle goes on like this for 3-5 times, until you're exhausted and out of cash.

By the time of my first hospitalization in the summer of 2010, I was down to 150, and by my 24th birthday in 2011, I would be down to 130 lbs. I would even run my first half-marathon in January 2011! But my inability to take my psychiatric issues seriously, combined with relationship issues I was having, led to a series of psych relapses and repeated weight gains/losses.

Eventually, I started doing heroin at the age of 25. Yes, heroin. And no, it did not make me thin, which is totally fucking ridiculous because everyone I knew got skinny on that drug except me! I hovered around 165 lbs. Well, I used for about 3 years. My bf and I lived this sort of romanticized Kurt & Courtney existence, and then he passed away very suddenly of sepsis in 2015. It was an absolute shock and heartbreak; he is still the love of my life and the reason I am clean to this day.

Well, I didn't get clean the day he passed. I wish I could say I did; I tried, but couldn't make it past 3 days before the sickness became overwhelming. Eventually it took another month before I'd reached my bottom without him and finally reached out for help, went to detox, left town, and started a new life. In the process, I have stayed clean and on my meds for over 3 years, and I've gained a lot of weight a new perspective on life - most importantly, I've accepted that I'm probably going to live into old age. You see, I always lived my life like I was going to die before 30. I starved and binged and purged knowing full well what it was doing to my bones and my esophagus because I figured I'd never live long enough to see the repercussions of osteoporosis or GERD.

I'm actually very lucky that, despite my weight and all the things I've done to my body, I have very few health issues. My last stats from my last labs (5/3/18):

Bp: 110/79

Fasting glucose: 87

A1c: 5.4

Total cholesterol: 176

LDL: 83

HDL: 81

Triglycerides: 60

ALT: 12

AST: 18

Only issue I have right now is low vitamin D, which is scary itself, being a female... But I do wonder if the other issues are coming...