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Air Himbo

Water Himbo

Earth Himbo

Fire Himbo

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how is it mario day and no one posted the essay

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I need you to understand that when I say "comments are appreciated!" I mean that I will reply to every one of them. I mean that an email with an ao3 notification has a higher priority than a message from my mother. I mean that I will have entire discussions in the comment section if you're up for it. Message me on tumblr and I will have the same discussions on an even more unhinged level. I will dissect entire personalities and ships and fictional political structures and worldbuilding with you. I will become your new best friend. You already ARE my new best friend. At the last battle, I would raise Anduril and say "For my ao3 readers" while a single tears rolls down my cheek, and dive into the fray. I would upload from beyond the grave if someone asked about the next chapter

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no you have to contribute to your fandom if you don't want it to die. most fandoms die because people say 'it's so sad watching the fandom die when the hype dies' without doing anything about it. I'm not saying you have to push out 100k word slow-burn fic, I'm not saying you have to make fan art or gif sets or edits or anything. I'm just saying we as a community should contribute to our fandom if we don't want it to die, and by contributing, I'm talking about giving kudos, commenting on your favorite fics, reblogging your favorite art and just talking about your favorite characters. that's enough to keep a fandom alive. that's the most effective way to keep a fandom alive in my humble opinion.

fandoms die because people stop talking about it, fandoms die because people stop engaging with fan content once the hype is gone. what I'm saying is, mainstream media's hype may be gone, but our fandom can stay alive and thriving if us as a community don't let it die.

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Hi, I’ve read your Obey me x Twst fic, and wanted to ask if you are still continuing it, if it is on hiatus or of it’s cancelled, I hope it does bother you that I am asking. Have a great day and thanks for taking the time to read this!

I'm continuing it actually, I'm finally managing to get back on my writing headspace after Solomare's announcement punched the plot bunnies outta me last year, I'm still on progress w the next chapter though cause it's been SO long so I gotta readjust.

Dw though, it doesn't bother me at all, readers are very welcome to ask questions, I hope you have a great day <3

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me every time I post something

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20 Ways to Show Extreme Fear in Your Writing

As I dive into researching signs of fear for my horror WIP, I wanted to share some of the most compelling and visceral reactions I’ve come across. Whether you’re writing a chilling scene or crafting a character’s panic, these 20 signs of fear can help bring tension and realism to your story.

Physical Reactions

Hyperventilating — sucking in air but never feeling like it’s enough

Chest tightens — feels like a weight or hands pressing down

Limbs shaking violently, knees buckling

Complete loss of muscle control — collapsing or unable to stand

Cold sweat soaking through clothes

Heart hammering so hard they feel it in their throat or head

Tunnel vision — the world narrowing down to one terrifying focal point

Ringing in the ears or sudden deafness, like the world drops away

Dizziness / feeling faint / vision blurring

Dry mouth — unable to speak or even scream

Uncontrollable Behavior

Screaming / sobbing / gasping — involuntary vocal outbursts

Panic run — bolting without thinking, tripping over everything

Clawing at their own skin / chest / throat — like trying to escape their body

Begging / pleading out loud even if no one’s there

Repeating words or phrases — “No, no, no” / “This isn’t happening”

Hiding instinctively — diving under tables, closets, or corners

Desperate grabbing — reaching for someone, anything solid

Loss of bladder or bowel control (for extreme terror)

Total mental shutdown — frozen, slack-jawed, staring blankly

Memory blackout — later can’t recall what happened during the worst moment

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While I disagree with some of the statements of anon (eg. I think those four years did change a lil bit) I do find it weird that if SJ is indeed abusing every talented discipline he comes across, why did no one else appear in that sham trial? What, are you saying they're all dead? How did he get away w that? Also, how in the world is it that one smile and some attention is all it took for LBH to fall head over heels? It just doesn't make sense to me.

I agree with the 'Why is it that when other characters do it, its okay but when its SJ suddenly its not' (Doesnt make it right, but still, the double standard), LQG literally neglects and beats the sht out his own disciples but he's always portrayed as righteous and honorable. (I also don't get how some SJ haters very confidently use SY's statements as "proof" that SJ is evil and deserves to be tortured and mutilated when it's a well known fact that SY is an unreliable narrator. An unreliable narrator with a personal grudge on top of that? Yeah I'd say that guy isn't fit to take 'undisputable proof' from)

I'm also confused on why alot of ppl have SY portrayed as some Mary sue holy mother full of kindness, like no. He's just 'nice' to some people because he likes them (Also to save himself). He's literally an internet troll, no internet troll I've seen is that good and holy irl.

It also puts me off that he claims SJ's disciples as his own when he rlly only cares about LBH, its all abt LBH, that man isn't that kind. So like, let him be a menace, let him be a troll, Airplane's message in the novel that bloody revenge is hollow legit just flew over his head and he jumped on the LBH-wagon that torturing and mutilating ppl is cool when he was still SY. (I can never call SY as SQQ sadly, he didn't earn that name, he didn't work for it, nor did its original owner consent to it being passed over to SY, it just dont sit right with me.)

This is not hate to SY, it's just that fandom perception and portrayals of him sometimes throws me off the kilter, add in the double standard. (I'm not even gonna touch the issue w LBH and his obsession with his Shizun💀)

This is part 2 of 'allegations' against SJ

"Oh, SJ is a child abuser who abused talented disciples." Okay... Just name three disciples he abused other than LBH. Or give me one statement about it given by the great lord Airplane shooting towards the sky. Do you have any? No, right? It came from an unreliable shit called Shen Yuan who, from his hcs, had always believed SJ abused talented disciples. If SJ did abuse some unnamed disciples, then why didn't they come to testify against him? It was only LBG who cried to others about how he was uuuuuuuu..... abused by his master.... 😭 Then again, isn't this another way to manipulate people? I'm not saying this isn't canon. But isn't this exaggerating more than what actually happened? Even your YQY 'who has always been biased towards SJ' claimed that his treatment towards LBH was wrong. No 'xyz/abc/lmn' disciple, only LBH.

And okay, maybe he did, in modern terms, abuse his disciples but in ancient China, it is fucking normal. There are so many novels in which whipping their disciples is a method of discipline. The perfect example is in MXTX's 2nd book MDZS. Didn't LQR whip his disciples? Isn't LWJ's back full of whip scars? Then how come SJ whipping LBH or his disciples is abuse?

Even in SVSSS, LQG abandoned his disciples, and when he comes back, he beat them black and blue until they all needed to end up at QCP. Hell, even your 'Holy mother of God SY' has abandoned and abused his—no, no, no, not his but SJ's disciples mentally. I'll never call them SY's disciples. They have to deal with BZP regularly. They have to pay for the damages caused by BZP from their own allowances. And what did SY do? He was annoyed by it and continued to coddle LBH. He has the audacity to claim himself as SQQ PL of QJP. Then shouldn't he take responsibility for the Peak and their disciples? No, his only priority has always been LBH—only to save his own ass, might I add.

Also, 'Holy mother of God SY' directly abused some BZP disciples. He was 'punishing' them using their Shifu as bait. He made LQG beat up his own disciples only because they were abusing LBH, no MF, no NYY or any other QJP disciple. Only because they were abusing LBH."

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Look I love unconditional devotion love stories as much as the next person, but there's really something so deliciously raw about conditional devotion.

I have served you and I have loved you for decades, but I will not give up my principles for you. You cut out part of my heart and took it with you down that path that you insist on walking, but you walk it alone. Even when the bleeding, gaping hole you left in my chest kills me, I will not follow you.

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let's say that you died and were replaced by an impostor who lied so convincingly in its portrayal of the real you that it genuinely believes itself to be you. would that be fucked up or what?

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Real. Let him be a menace in fics pls I wanna see it so bad😭

I love Shen Yuan as much as the next guy, but I think we in the fandom spaces give him a little too much credit sometimes. He's not Shen Jiu levels of absolute bastard, but he's also not great. And this is not me criticizing him!! I just think more people should love him for being the little brat that he is rather than the heroic, universally-kind saint that he decidedly is not.

He was a full-time internet troll whose main hobby outside reading web novels was going on rants in the comments. He uses slurs. Did we all just forget about the slurs? He did not grow out of that, or see the error of his message-board-harassment ways, he just lost his Internet connection. (He probably would have gotten points for being in character if he'd kept it up, though.)

He bends over backwards to protect Binghe, but he doesn't go to those lengths for literally anyone else, ever. He neglects his other students outright in favor of focusing solely on Binghe. He's not great with the disciples, he's just better comparatively enough to make you think he is.

He's amiable enough to build friendships as Shen Qingqiu, but he's not Miss Fucking Congeniality. He's just polite, and passively friendly in super normal ways. "Be nice to martial siblings," and "Don't kill that snake, it's not bothering anyone," are very normal levels of decency, and he gets SO MUCH CREDIT for it, mostly because the expectations for him were set so damn low by Shen Jiu.

I think my main evidence of "Shen Yuan is an asshole, actually" is how he continues to treat Shang Qinghua after finding out they're transmigrators together. Shang Qinghua is just as doomed by the narrative as he is, just as controlled and manipulated by the System as he is, but he's so fucking mean to Shang Qinghua about it, even though he couldn't have possibly known they would end up transmigrated and certainly wasn't responsible for putting them there. He has no empathy whatsoever for the fact that Shang Qinghua was forced to make his magnum opus into porn-riddled slop because he would otherwise have literally starved; spoiled rich boy meets his friend's "I would have starved!" explanation with a very [image of Paris Hilton wearing a shirt that says "Stop Being Poor"] energy. And he just never stops being so fucking mean all the time, about everything, to his best friend. I would not be friends with Shen Yuan if that's how I could expect him to treat me.

(side note that will get its own post: I also think the portrayal of Shang Qinghua throughout SVSSS is an example of Shen Yuan's unreliable narration.)

All this to say, he's a sheltered, spoiled rich boy with layers on layers of issues, who still managed to be exponentially better at his job than the guy who'd earned it in the first place.

And maybe that's what's fun to consider, as least for me, is that his goodness is assumed purely on the comparison between him and Shen Jiu; he was meant to be the Scum Villain, found guilty of all sorts of heinous acts, and therefore he's lauded as a perfect sweet baby angel because he settles for just being a little bit of a bitch, instead.

(Maybe the larger takeaway can be that PIDW is a horrible, wretched, unkind world, and therefore the bare minimum of kindness counts as being truly saint-like. 🤔 But that's also a different post, I think.)

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As far as speculation goes for what actually happened in the Ling Xi Caves in the PIDW-verse, one of the more well known theories is that the scene where Liu Qingge stabs himself in Shen Yuan's dreamscape IS the PIDW canon. And he did this in a moment of clarity while deviating so he could stop himself from killing Shen Jiu.

SO-

If we're running with this, doesn't that mean that not one, but TWO peak lords died for Shen Jiu? Died trying to save him?

No wonder Shen Jiu was absolutely devastated when he saw Yue Qingyuan's broken sword and after whatever happened in the Ling Xi Caves. Even Shang Qinghua said that Shen Jiu would "abandon himself to despair", and that he'll never be free of it for the rest of his life.

Looks like Luo Bingge isn't the only one from PIDW with a harem, he totally gets it from his shizun shdgjhs

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one of the hardest things to learn as a depressed former Gifted Kid™ is that half-assed is better than nothing. take the 50%, 40%, even 20% job. scrubbing your face is better than not taking a shower at all. picking up your clothes is better than never cleaning. nibbling on some bread is better than starving.

DO THINGS HALFWAY. NOW YOU’RE 100% BETTER OFF THAN YOU WERE BEFORE.