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@taylornation the afterglow is where I am

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@taylornation the afterglow is where I am

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@taylornation the afterglow is where I am

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Please make a two part album with lover on one side and midnights on the other.

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Tik Tik boom is my brain right now.

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I always struggled with this video because it felt so right and I didn't know why.

Then I thought it was just the characters.

Then I thought it was from you .

Then I was scared.

And then I was at peice

https://youtu.be/tollGa3S0o8

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I know you have a bunch of cats but can we get a corgi as well. You can pick it out

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I turned on night time mode for everything on my phone. EVERYTHING.

Mwhahaha

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Wait

Why are people so adamant that the adnments of the constitution are something we have to follow word by word.

It is literally Admendments to the original constitution since it wasn't perfect.

We are called the American experiment and that's what I love about our country.

We are set up to change with the times. That is what the founding fathers set up. A guideline for our future.

They never could have known how the world would look today. As long as we keep their original intent behind each of the 10 Admendments in the bill of rights that's what they would have wanted.

We can never know how the founding fathers would have felt about gun control.

What matters is that we give people the right to own some sort of base level gun but beyond that it is up to us.

Their intent that we have the right to protect ourselves with at least a very hard to use gun.

What we are allowed to have beyond that is up to each and every current American to decide because this is our country.

We are the American experiment and we decide what our future holds. The founding fathers just gave us a guide to help us on that journey.

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it's like. I used to think my autism didn't really include the need for routine but what I've found is that when it's a Planned divergence in routine that's fine (going on trips etc) and when I can Choose to divert my routine bc I know I can handle it that's also fine (like deciding to go out for drinks or deciding to go to a movie or deciding to change dinner plans). but when Other People or Circumstances change my routine without prior warning that's when my brain goes absolutely fucking insane.

and I feel like that's not talked about enough bc I've always seen "needs routine" represented as someone who is unwilling to divert from their routine when like. no it's absolutely fine just as long as I'm the one deciding when and how to divert it or I've been given plenty of advance warning that it'll be changing.

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Rant

Autism is a disability. I have autism. A disability. It is very frustrating that certain things are harder for me. It effects almost everything in my day to day life. People call me high functioning due to the fact that I can pass as handling things for periods of time by pushing myself to a breaking point. Their are things that are harder for me and I get frustrated. People around me knowing that I was diagnosed with autism are upset and annoyed that I am bothering them by not doing things they think shouldn't be that hard. I am annoyed that I can't do these things regularly. I am annoyed I can't do these things regularly and need help because I have a DISABILITY. **People keep reminding me that I am 26 and should try not to be a bother because they are letting me live with them. I have a disability that started from birth that is causing me problems I need help with why shouldn't a parent help?**

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When I do the things that they want me to do they get annoyed that I don't do it regularly, or point out that see you can do it. That causes me to never want to do it because if I do it something bad will happen. They don't say anything if I don't do the stuff but are passive aggressive about it

If I ask for things to be different so it is easier for me it is shot down because it inconveniences them by changing the way things currently work.

(Actual example is that I have a hard time taking out recycling because it is too overwhelming trying to figure out how to take it from being all over the counter to the recycling bin outside. I said we should get a bin in the closet next to the trashcan so I can just pick it up and take it out. My step-dad said no.)

Right now everything in my life I put on crisis mode. All I did was the basics of brush teeth,put on Deodorant and purfume, eat, work, and sleep. Sometimes I would add in some extra things but I was barely even changing my clothes let alone wash them. I never smelled bad but I don't really sweat or get things dirty.

I shut off my emotions on things and just accepted that I would be upset and hid in my room to avoid conflict with my step-dad which my mom told me was probably for the best.

I took some ADHD meds wrong accidentally and went into hyperdrive and started dealing with everything all at once so I could work on it later when I was lower energy.

I forgot why I had stopped trying as it is too distressing to handle without support and the fact that any ideas I have to fix things have to either not effect anyone else in the house in anyway or will get shot down or complain about is so dishearting. No matter the amount of effort I put in will fix the situation I am in and it hurts to keep getting reminded that I could do these things if I lived on my own but I can't afford it and should be greatful my parents are letting me live with them.

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I love parts of how my brain works due to ADHD and Autism but sometimes the combo is debilitating. I thrive on routine and structure and get very freaked out if something changes in the way it was supposed to be. However if I forgot that it was supposed to be a certain way because I get too excited about a new task or shiny object I completely rush though what was going on to engage with the shiny. Until I realize I have messed everything up and I have no idea how to regain my footing.

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I am looking for a university that has support for students who got diagnosed with disabilities in college and are on academic probation from it. It is looking like the university I am at is not going to help and it's not like I can hit a reset button because I didn't have the right accommodations. Any help would be appreciated. I don't know where to look at this point.

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i think we should reclaim the phrase “autism won today” from those weird moms and instead use it whenever we decide to buy that fidget toy we’ve been wanting or engage in our special interest(s) a little too much™️ or literally anything else positive about the autistic experience

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Autism doesn't stop once you become an adult.

I was recently diagnosed with Autism and I have been looking for resources and places in the area that help with it. For people assigned female at birth it is more difficult to diagnose (For reasons I will go into on another post) so I was diagnosed as an adult. Now going through these resources and shops it is mostly about kids. Even when I search specifically for Autsim apps for adults it is mainly children's stuff. Autism isn't something that just goes away. It is great to have ample amount or resources for children to help with their Autism but what happens once they become an adult? What happens to the Autistic people who don't get diagnosed till adulthood? I am too old to get some of the supports that could really help me learn how to handle my brain better. Maybe instead of just focusing on kids focus on people in the first x years of their diagnosis as well as kids? Fund more supports for adults. This is not to say it is bad to support kids but it is important to not ignore the fact that they will need support as adults and that support might look diffrent.