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fuck you go kill yourself. im being treated like property. im being given no privacy and she fucking threatened me more. fuck this i wanna just cancel my psych appointment (purely to get antidepressants. gonna lie to them)

im so gonna cut again out of spite. like 2 weeks clean again. fuck you bitch. you made me relapse. you're the cause of my problems. ableist, sanist, threatening me with involuntary admission. this is bullshit and i can only imagine how much worse itd be if my anxiety was worse. fuck you

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heh..

venting about suicidal ideation? no, its just spoilers for my death

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ive started vocal stimming mostly with sui/sh ideation lol. i should get more vocal stims as versatile

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idea: nipples that rotate indefitely like knobs

i find nipple play too fiddly and unergonomic. this'd fix that, especially with really big puffy nipples so they're easy to hold

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maid, please cum in my womb while rubbing my soft estrogenised girlcock

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transage + intellectual disability. im like literally a child. identity matches, neurocognitive ability matches, only thing that doesnt is this stupid fucking body i hate this thing

is it unethical to have sex with me? like, chrono age is adult but like im not functionally distinct from a child in any way which kinda raises philosophical questions

some people would be more horrified by the implications of "no, it's not unethical" tbh...

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please autistic girl with fat balls and fuckass bangs grinding it inside me please

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puppy[redacted] bouncing on it while infodumping marxism

actually, no, fuck that. fuck this shit

puppyloli bouncing on it while ranting about how much it hates censorship

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WHAT

THIS IS ABOUT ME

OMG FIRST TIME I FIND SOMEONE TALKING ABOUT ME WITHOUT IT BEING DIRECTED AT ME

so cool. amazing. holy fuff. this is going on main blog

that last rb was from a radqueer if u care

uh oh ncvts

isnt mora

lly pure enough for anon sorry i dont chheck eve

y blogg initeravt withs for i doiñjt fuvkig flcare if tge posts not rq imrwlared i dont know what you people think i am because i thinyyoull be sorely disappointed

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"act your age" lol shut the fuck up and go kill yourself already. ageist shithead you'd look nice at the end of a rope

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okay so

i think i recently saw a post relevant to this

i strained really hard to remember the contents, and that worked, but now i've forgot again

I FOUND IT AFTER SEARCHING MORE I FOUND IT ACSAHSG

i'll copy this into a reblog ← and thus i did

finally, we move onto my actual point, which now seems disappointingly short to this preamble:

the sexual liberation of children cannot happen without their nonsexual liberation. trying will just get children raped

sexual abuse is just another type of abuse. all abuse needs to be stopped

child/adult sexual relations will tend toward abuse as long as children are an oppressed class. this happened with women

im unsure about this. is just ramblings and unformed opinions, but here

due to the legally and societally created power disparities between the classes of child and adult, children can't consent. it shall be considered false/invalid consent due to reasonable assumption of implicit coersion this is not an inherent quality of children, but a product of the conditions they exist under

this also seems adjacent to theory about power disparities with proletariat/bourgeoisie probably

whtv seems reasonable. gon think about it more. im such a smart puppy

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some smut fic. big sis name abbrev j, my name abbrev m

uhh, tw for me wearing a diaper ig? is for urinary incontinence and other leakies mostly. not age reasons

some exposition: we share a room. we have a den (mostly mine) and a bed (mostly hers) and the bed is pretty small

me laying on bed, tired ouppy

big sis walks in, wearing only a dirty t-shirt and a condom. that shirt has a pocket on it for some reason. kinda weird, but not unprecedented. she's got her phone in there and it pulls the fabric weirdly

j: get off the bed. im gonna fap

m: nuu. just fap next to mee

j: i cant fit here well. especially when you're laying across it

m: mmfm fuck u.. bothering puppy

she gets flustered at her own thoughts of taking her frustration out on me, throbbing while she lets out a few cute noises under her breath

finally, she actually sits down. inconveniently little space

my legs get lifted up. im getting wet under my diaper

she just pushes them to the side, hesitant since she didnt plan what she was gonna do when she grabbed them

m: aa >-<

i squeak in complaint, discomforted and inconvenienced

she now has enough space. she's making herself comfortable, leaning against the bedframe's other end

after getting her phone out, she gets to work. i shift and squirm around on the bed, trying to get comfy with my reduced space

i'm poking and making noises at her. a few loads in, she's not really giving me enough attention so i stop bothering her

she goes to clean up. i instantly take over the whole bed. we cuddle when she comes back

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you have a different aesthetic so i hate you go kill yourself

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cutting to spite them fuck you go kill yourself. your "treatments" make me feel worse, your judgement and pathologisation of my coping methods makes me ashamed of my scars, and you cant seriously fucking think your threats of involuntary admission are helping me

i got bored of cutting, like 2 weeks clean just cause i meh i dont wanna, then you make me feel horrible about it and threaten me

you made me relapse. this is your fucking fault. i was 2 weeks clean

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why does none of it ever get better

why does it consistently get worse and worse

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i hate whatever obsession i have with maintaining high post quality. shut up brain let me be happy

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im gonna fucking kill myself why is everything bad