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The truth is stranger than fiction…#self sabotage #fuck it

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I don’t know what I am doing here, my website is not up yet and the frustration is becoming too much to bear. The pain is the one constant in my life, some days I literally cannot manage standing. My body waging a war against itself, my sciatic screaming bloody murder, muscles in my lower back, groin and legs in a constant state of contraction and my hips, knees and ankles being pushed out of alignment… 2 years and I remain a prisoner, did I receive a life sentence? Or is this a death sentence? This is where I exist… A hostage. Yesterday was my birthday and my boyfriend left for work and I spent the day alone thinking about all the things I did before this happened to me. The things I took for granted… spending time with my grand daughters, the sun shining down on my face, going outside, Pilates, grocery shopping, cooking, baking , cleaning, and making love… How much more could my relationship endure? How much more could I endure? Then……. In what can only be described as divine intervention. I wasn’t looking but there it was , a research organization that studies chronic back pain and knowledge based pain relief. Well, I am willing to believe in these claims after reading WHY I am experiencing this pain! It requires an investment , buying books. I have ordered 4 of the 10 and am waiting anxiously for them to arrive! Pray for strength, patience and faith. I have no where to go but up. I will post any changes in my pain once I receive the books.

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I know there’s a way to smoke away this pain

While prescriptions eat away at my soul

Nobody is to blame, I am not sane

Nobody is safe around my soul

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I can’t remember music before these rough rider lyrical genius’s. You will not appreciate the dope ass beats til you know the lyrics…. Dark but real, they have no aspirations to be main stream, for them it’s all about the music. Much love and respect. Xoxo

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It’s Amateur night but I am Feeling the calming effect that art has on me….Namaste

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This is how you feel when you find out someone you trust has been lying to you and when confronted with evidence, they double down and will not confess… #

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The work goes on and Haven’t even opened my shop yet… So much to be done and too few qualified persons to assist me. Looking at the beginning of the new year, days away from my blog being set up and I am ready to go! I will post pillows as I am getting them photographed. Have a great day !