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homicidal ideation going crazy like STOP FUCKING LAUGHING OR I'M ACTUALLY GOING TO FUCKING KILL YOU YOU'RE SO FUCKING ANNOYING

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real. the reason it's a fucking disorder is i do it unhealthily and it damages me and others. we are not the same.

One thing that really annoys me is that when I say something that's a symptom of one of my personality disorders and then someone without one says "but I do that too, it's normal!" Okay well have you considered that I do it to a unhealthy degree to the point it's damaging myself and possibly others (depending on the symptom). Have you considered that all of us relate more to certain behaviors tied to personality disorders but it is only considered a trait/symptom when it's extreme. Like yes everyone compares themselves somehow but with my npd I do it 24/7 and am very hostile/immediately assume the person thinks they're better than me and I HAVE to find reasons why I'm better than said person.

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LMFAO SCHRÖDINGER'S VICTIM💀💀

npd culture is finding the concept of "narc abuse" hilarious, because I'm a narcissist who was abused by another narcissist. Am I Schrödinger's victim now? 💀

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slsjdkshkdkf found these

im a kitsuvamp btw. i totally didn't make it up. huhehehe

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Y E S .

Looking at ableist articles about narcissist/narcissistic abuse and laughing just for the mood to drop when I get to the "How to make a narcissist miserable" section and remember that I'm horribly dehumanized and demonized for a disorder that I didn't choose to have.

Purposefully hurting narcissists, as an example thru ignoring, is really bad, it makes YOU a bad person.

Npd often forms thru exstreme neglect (emotional and/or physical) during childhood. Emotional neglect can often take the form of being ignored by caretakers. So it's very likely that if you ignore a narcissist you'll trigger their trauma.

Also, no, your egoistic ex is not a narcissist, your emotionally abusive parent is not a narcissist, your whatever "narcissist" is not a narcissist UNLESS they are diagnosed with Narcissistic personality disorder. And even if they are, it doesn't make it "narcissistic abuse". "Narcissistic abuse" is as real as "Depression abuse", which is non existent.

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shut up. shut the fuck up. you're contradicting yourself. shut the actual fuck up right now. i know you're talking about me,too. shut up. you're annoying, bitch. i don't care and nobody else does either. shut the actual fuck up, you're spouting nonsense. nobody cares. hush,be silent. annoying ass bitch. yes, nobody likes you. rot in a fucking corner.

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genuinely can you shut the fuck up? you hate me,you probably deserve your suffering.

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another unfriendly reminder: you can be neurodivergent and still be ableist.

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unfriendly reminder that hating on me won't suddenly change me and cure my mental illnesses. it'll only mildly annoy me at best,if i bring myself to care.

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you "support mentally ill disabled people" until you see me as out of touch with reality.

you "support mentally ill disabled people" until I spend hours plucking out my hair, and now I'm covered in scabs.

you "support mentally ill disabled people" until I threaten you when I'm upset.

you "support mentally ill disabled people" until I can't even make myself as simple as toast.

you "support mentally ill disabled people" until I smell terrible because I haven't showered in so long.

you "support mentally ill disabled people" until even once I do shower, I still smell bad because I don't have the skills, strength, nor the willpower to clean myself properly.

you "support mentally ill disabled people" until I yell at you and NEED you not to yell back.

you "support mentally ill disabled people" until I throw hard objects against my wall.

you "support mentally ill disabled people" until I'm semi-incontinent.

you "support mentally ill disabled people" until I'm homicidal.

you "support mentally ill disabled people" until I feel no remorse.

you "support mentally ill disabled people" until I bite.

you "support mentally ill disabled people" until I feel no empathy.

you "support mentally ill disabled people" until I try to hit you with my cane during an episode or meltdown.

you "support mentally ill disabled people" until I throw my AAC at you during an episode or meltdown.

At that point I'm either gross, or a bad person.

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you like me?? for my personality?? the same thing they named my disorder after...????

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it's true. whenever someone says something i mildly dislike i transform like in those gacha videos. i start floating and pop out wings and horns and my eyes turn black and i start chanting in lilim.

HELP THE TIKTOK ABLEISTS ARE SAYING NARCS EYES CAN STRAIGHT UP GO BLACK⁉️⁉️⁉️

bro they think we're mythical fucking demons im done😭😭😭

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literally me

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To people who are kind for selfish reasons, I love you.

To people who are kind because it makes you look good, I love you.

To people who are kind because you get supply out of it, I love you.

If every kind thing you do is against your nature and the way you are wired, I love you. I see you. Your effort is noted and I’m proud of you.

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yes im an evil vampire i have no heart grrr fear me pathetic mortals

uhh???

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if past me was obsessed with himself because he looked awesome if he saw me now he'd be on his knees worshipping me

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looks like some people are butthurt because they understand they'll never be as perfect as i am 🎀