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Things have been kinda difficult lately I'm self harming almost every day now... but if there's one thing keeping me going it's my sisters dog 🐕 teddy... he just makes me super happy and I love spending time with him... he's almost 1 in September! I just can't believe my sister has had him almost a year already... crazy how that time flys!!!....

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So a lot has changed since I was last on here, I'm still in a mental health care home, my mental health is all over the place atm... one good thing that's happened is that I changed the the way I take my testosterone, I'm now after a long battle back on injections 💉 rather than applying the gel every day!

My sh is still really bad, I had to get stitches the other weekend, 😔 I'm just struggling a lot recently....

I had the court case, it went to court twice! Because the first time the jury couldn't come to a consensus... so I decided to take it back to court... but this time it came back not guilty... and tbh I still haven't got my head around that... I'm very good at masking my feelings, and it's still yet to hit me... 😒

Anyway I think that's everything... Will try and post more often if I can...

Stay strong 💪

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Life update:

My mental health is really bad atm and I'm struggling like a lot....

The voices are also bad telling me to harm myself in different ways and saying if I don't that they will hurt my friends and family...

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Self harming is no joke..

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why sleep when you can stay up late every night being sad then feel like shit the next day 

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You never realize how lonely you are until it’s the end of the day and you got a bunch of things to talk about and no one to talk to.

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This little bottle of testosterone has literally saved my life.. I honestly don't think I would be here if I didn't get testosterone when I did...

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Struggling with my mental health atm...

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Got my comfortable pjs on and I'm about to watch some Emmerdale! 😂

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NHS waiting times suck.. especially around mental health..

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It just really fucking sucks when you have so much you need to talk about and absolutely no one to talk to...

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I’m just laying here, crying my eyes out and I genuinely don’t have a good reason for it

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Is meh a mood because honestly that's how I'm feeling...

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