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Dear Journal

I decided to go back for the plushie that the Lament was coming from. Thankfully, it was pretty easy to cleanse it, and now I have some more Plant Essence to use. I'll try to post the finished Plushie, when I can!

P.S: This streaming thing is starting to get to me. Lot of effort, but not a lot of payoff. Just gotta keep pushing, I guess~

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Episode 2: We're getting that platinum!

Continuing with some more Neon White! We'll see if we can beat this game today, but I don't have high hopes. Still, we'll clear as much as we can!

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To anyone that might be looking

I know this isn't my private thoughts, but calling it a journal helps with the flow of things. I'll try to post on here more often, but it all depends on what I can talk about, and my own drawing ability.

For some reason, the photo function on my device doesn't work here, so you'll have to rely on that, or how I describe things. I can talk more about my Resonance, the Laments, or my world in general! My Ask Box is always open!

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Dear Journal,

As I was patrolling, today, I saw an odd-looking Lament. Well, all Laments look kind of odd, but this one had such an odd covering. Almost like it was trying to use it as a lure? I had to draw it, since it seemed oddly...lethargic. Either that, or some sort of curiosity. Never saw one like it, so decided to make sure I remember it!

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RoR2 New DLC, giving it a try!

Trying out the new DLC, seeing if it's worth the wait, or if the storm shouldn't have been seeked. Let's go!

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Dear Journal,

I've been trying to think of ways to mix things up with my streaming, and connecting with more people. Some ideas have been language streams, or attempting a Zatsudan, but I feel like they don't fit my content. Might need to ask others what to do.

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I've been getting that call of the void, but just for my Vtubing stuff. Like, I just want to swipe everything off the table, and just start from square 1. I know it wouldn't work, but it's such a tempting thought, some days.

Trying to advertise yourself on so many sites, and getting near zero results, except from my usuals (and always happy for those), is so disheartening. I got a new model debut, and I'm going that will get interest, but... It's hard to try to get yourself out there genuinely.

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Playing Nine Sols over on Twitch!

Been looking forward to this game for a long while, so can't wait to give it a try!

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💚TIME TO PLAY WITH MYSELF!🐭

Today, we're gunna look into a very underlooked game! A game about clones helping you fight monsters! Maybe just the first, but maybe it'll be a double feature, let's gooo!!!

The two games are Lysfanga: The Time Shift Warrior, and Timemelters!

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🐭I'M LATE, BUT MORE ENDER LILIES!💚

Episode 3 of Ender Lilies, I'm a bit tired, but we got this! We'll beat this game, even if I crash on stream! Let's goooo!

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Rant Post about Vtubing sheesh, especially advertising

With that out of the way, I'm Emiko Choroi, a Vtuber who loves horror, Mystery, Metroidvania's, RPG's, and many other types of games. Been streaming for a while, and I just feel like I've hit a full roadblock.

As a streamer in general, it just feels like all the sites, even Discords, are working against me. Twitter has weird rules about what gets pushed, Bluesky is a confusing mess, Reddit has all sorts of strict rules (depending on the subreddit), and I'm still figuring out how Tumblr works.

To put it simply? I'm tired. I want to keep going, and pushing myself harder, trying to find more stuff to show, to try and be more engaging, but when it feels like dumb luck when a small group of people show, just to instantly leave? It feels like I'm doing something wrong. It feels like there are people that just know what to do, and I just don't get it! I just need help. A Manager, a company, someone to help push things, just something!

If anyone reads this, thank you. If nothing else, it feels good to have a place where I can just vent.

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How the hell does someone make a Vtuber model?

I am not sure if I want to, but I kinda want to attempt making my own model. I have zero artistic ability, and my main motivations are to realize my own dreams, and my lack of money!

Like, everything is SO expensive about a model, for good reason, but it's all beyond my reach, so I want to try! I just need to figure out how!

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💚WHO'S READY FOR A SAD GAME!🐭

Since Ender Magnolia's was announced, we're gunna be playing Ender Lilies! Was gunna be something different, but plans changed, so let's goooo!!!

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Guys idk if you knew this but uhhhhh

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