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Whoa, I am totally freaking out. When it comes to be Friday, which is 3 days from now, I'll be revealing something huge to the whole world. I knew April was going to be a big month but holy crap, I didn't expect I'd be doing this. I'm nervous, I'm scared, I have no idea how people will react, and I'm hoping that by doing this, I'll be opening myself up to the world rather than keeping this secret. It's a big one.

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I cannot wait until next month when I’ll be doing my next REAL photoshoot after this wedding. Next I’ll be doing senior type photography for one of my best friends 21st birthday. That’s a big number and definitely something to celebrate! If all goes well, I’ll also be doing some family portraits. I can’t wait 💋

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I seriously have the cutest puppy ever. Even now, a year later she still looks the same lol I think all doggies are precious and deserve good, warm, loving homes. I love my Bentley Boo & Bella Blue. I also claim my parents' dogs as my own as well. They're all so adorable and I wouldn't take any of them back. Love on your babies as much as you can- they have such short little lives on this earth 💋

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Normal moms are boring💕

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✖️Tonight I want to talk a little bit about internal illness, whether it be mental or physical and I encourage anyone and everyone to share your own experiences and comments about this issue✖️ For me, living a normal day to day life is a struggle. Some days are a lot better than others, and some are much worse. I have the type of illnesses that greatly hinder my quality of life, but I don't wear a poster around my neck saying so and nobody would ever guess. I don't look sick. Not at all. I smile a lot. That's one thing I refuse to let these illnesses take from me. Granted many times the smile is forced, but I do so anyway as much as I can. So, what are my own ailments? Well to start, I've had rheumatoid arthritis since I was 7 years old. It was supposed to totally debilitate me, but by the grace of God, it didn't. I was granted a wish by the MAKE A WISH foundation at age 12. Next, I've battled anxiety and depression since age 11. Been on every kind of medication imaginable for it too. Then later in life came PTSD, Bipolar disorder, Borderline personality disorder.. I was just a bundle of joy! But physically, I also developed fibromyalgia and it's a large possibility that I have lupus- but my tests are always sketchy. So why on earth am I revealing this? To let people know that a normal looking girl with a smile may be hiding a lot of pain deep inside. And chances are, like me, that people judge this normal looking person- male or female- and believe that there's nothing wrong with them. And that dear people can hurt the worst of all. I know that there are many blogs on tumblr that deal with medical, mental or emotional issues and they have been great at educating myself and others. Just remember guys, everyone is fighting their own battle. That girl you made fun of for crying 'for no apparent reason' probably has a very good reason. The guy you called a fag? He may be going through personal things you could never imagine and he may take his own life because of your words. It doesn't make him weak, it makes him tired of the fight and he's helpless enough to believe that life isn't worth living. So give people a chance. Be a smile to them, an ear to listen. Don't be just another bitch or asshole walking around. The world has enough of them.

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You know how people have a few select prized possessions that they would grab in case of a fire or emergency? Well this little pile of goodies are among those things for me. And a few others not pictured, but I keep it all in one general spot. I have literally hauled this crap all over the country lol it makes you realize that the things you want to save the most are things where a memory is attached. Everything else is just material. 💋

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I N F I N I T E

It’s what you shoot , it’s how you shoot it. Only the fearless need apply. #shee

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Image by KEVIN SHEE. www.kevinsheephotography.com Instagram: @sheeshotme

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H E A L T H Y ⭕️✖️E A T I N G

For the past 3 days, I have eaten nothing but fruit, vegetables, and fish. So after eating so healthily how do I feel? I'm going to die. That is how I feel. I want an In N Out burger with a pot of macaroni and cheese, and a batch ginormous Cinnabon cinnamon rolls. And a cupcake.

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I’ve found myself day dreaming more than usual lately. Perhaps it’s because of the anxiety I feel about certain events about to take place and the role I play in them. Day dreaming is my way of escape- the simple act of letting my mind wonder wherever it truly wants to go is freeing. 
It’s not just anxiety I feel at the moment, it’s excitement and curiosity. Next month is going to be a very busy month, even more so than my usual day to day busy life. I’ll be traveling up to Portland and then from Portland to Seattle. And I have no actual plans. Maybe that’s part of my anxiousness.. The unknown. Usually when I am getting ready to take a trip, everything is carefully calculated. But not this time. Not this trip. I do not know what will happen. Stay tuned to find out 💋 PS- what do you guys do for anxiety? Do you have active methods to get through it, or wait and let it pass?

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Since I posted the ipad, I figured I would share a little iPhone love too. I think the 5s is badass with the finger print scanner but that feature wasn't enough for me to turn down this candy colored green one. It was true love at first sight. And I'm so happy with it. It's sleek, playful, colorful and everything I love about technology

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Seriously, I'm not even sure how I used to function without an ipad. I waited and waited until they finally came out with a mini2 with retina display. And saved up for it in the mean time. Now since I got it last year, I don't put it down lol I got it for the available apps that I needed for school and it's been a life saver.

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J U S T✖️B R E A T H E I used to want to have this tattoo changed or covered up with something. I got it during the start of what would be the hardest 5 years of my life. A true, honest to god nightmare. But with time I have come to embrace this tat. It tells a story. And while each of my tattoos represents something going on in my life.. People, events, etc- this one has the most intense story attached. One that I can't deny. So rather than look at it as a reminder of bad times, I look at it as a reminder that eventually, all bad times evolve and get better. And from better to good again.

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Flash back Friday! All my babies on my Christmas cards :) best Christmas cards ever

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Fitness doesn’t have to be drag! I’ve been walking with one of my best friends lately and through her, I’ve found a lot of motivation. I’ve always been what people consider to be skinny or slim but never toned. For the first time in my life ever, I have an ass lol my friend is lifting up to 205 lbs and I’ve been determined lately to be stronger, develop muscle and not be the weakling I’ve been most of my life. There’s confidence in strength. What do you do to enhance your own esteem? My favorites are working out and getting my hair done. And shopping lol it doesn’t have to be a lot of money either. A simple new shirt and pants from ROSS is enough to make my day and motivate me to stay in shape. 💋