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Hope I did the right thing..

So I walked out of my job today. I'm in desperate need of money, but this new job just disgusted me. I've been working in animal care over the past year. I started a job in a kennels position at a boarding facility about a week ago.

I had never had a job make me so uncomfortable and piss me off so much. First off, there was just a huge high-school vibe. If you weren't part of the clique, these people would probably end up talking crap about you. There was also a strict no phones rule, but if you can't trust people with their phones, how are you going to trust them around dogs?

However, that wasn't my main issue, the talking shit was just the last straw. The owners thought it would be an amazing idea to use bleach and fabuloso around these dogs. And not in any small quantity. There are much safer products that are specifically made to be used around animals. But no, let's go with fucking bleach. I was completely disgusted with their indifference about using the stuff.

I dunno, maybe I'm overreacting. Maybe I screwed myself over by leaving a job when I really need the money. But it just felt wrong being there. And who the hell is going to listen to the new guy? I've tried talking to management at old jobs about issues and nothing gets done. Why would this be any different?

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The past couple of days, my tarot readings have pretty much been telling me that I need to not worry as much, to enjoy my time alone and be creative. Usually followed by mentions of things changing in the future. I'm assuming this is because of the prayers I've sent to my gods, asking help in finding a job. I know they mean well and I should just trust them, keep putting in the work and applications on my end. Yet I still just can't help but worry about the future. I guess I can just be happy in the fact hat Artemis and Hermes have been patient with my constant anxiety lol

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It's making sense now

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Start of a Journey

So, the other day after just a string of bad ones, I decided to reach out for a little help. Spiritual help that is. Over the past few days, I've begun to work with Artemis and Hermes (Though I think he might be here more for the laughs, haha), and I have to say it's been very interesting so far. I've been so worried about screwing things up, Artemis (through tarot) pretty much just had to tell me to stop and keep doing what I'm doing.

I'm not sure how often I will post, but I thought it might be an interesting thing to start doing. Sort of track my journey of spiritual growth and exploration so I can look back on it some time in the future. Maybe even make a friend or two. But who knows, life is weird, the internet is weird, I'm weird.

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Left Tumblr a long time ago, but I guess I'm back now. Please accept this picture of my baby girl, Pixel