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Lee Pace as Thranduil in The Hobbit: The Desolation of Smaug (2013)

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You're right, telling people it's easy to stop hating themselves is nothing like telling people it's easy to stop being depressed. Now time to take a look at the symptoms of depression and what they include, one sec,

Friend, I know it’s easier to believe we are helpless against our fucked-up brain chemistry but the choice not to indulge in things like stepping onto a scale, picking apart your own face in the mirror, or voicing aloud your physical insecurities is in your hands. “Stop actively spending time electing to dwell on and verbally express your negative self-image” is a different statement than “Stop feeling involuntary emotions or thinking involuntary thoughts”

In general, if your knee-jerk reaction is “no way, I can’t do that” to someone asking you to reduce an action that is self-harming, maybe take a moment to figure out what the actual obstacles are instead of jumping to “you’re claiming I can simply stop being depressed”.

You can’t magically fix the urge to attach your self-worth to your weight. You can make the choice to put away your bathroom scale.

You can’t immediately unlearn years of societal conditioning that has told you that appearance is all that matters. You can uninstall TikTok or Instagram or your other social media of choice.

You can physically cover your mirror if the urge to look is overwhelming.

You can bite your tongue when you find yourself about to say derogatory things about your appearance.

You can pick a pet topic and make a game of thinking or saying something about that every time you start to think about your own body.

My self-image sucks. I don’t enjoy the way I look, and I automatically see things I don’t like in pictures of myself. So I simply…. Don’t look. Choose not to spend time thinking about it.

Not a single person in my life would benefit from listening to me talk about my double chin or saggy boobs or grey hairs.

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More fishes!

(Spotted gar in two sizes + a deep sea fangly fish / anglerfish, angling rod to be added post-firings)

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was born with a special elf disease that makes me like elves forever

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Finrod and a camera, Inktober day 27 Camera

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make me choose @jodieliker asked: Xenk when he’s hot/badass or Xenk when he’s funny/literal/overly serious

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I was rereading bits of the Lay of Leithian over breakfast (like you do) and today it stood out that when Finrod is at his best in the battle with Sauron, it's when he brings in the dual visions of home: the home he has built in exile and the home of memory in Valinor:

The chanting swelled, Felagund fought, And all the magic and might he brought of Elvenesse into his words. Softly in the gloom they heard the birds Singing afar in Nargothrond, The sighing of the Sea beyond, Beyond the western world, on sand, On sand of pearls in Elvenland.

The Silmarillion: Chapter 19 "Of Beren and Lúthien" (emphasis mine)

But! While one of these is what we expect - Nargothrond, the home built of his longing and vision - the home in memory is not Tirion. It's Alqualondë, with its sand of pearls beside the sighing Sea.

In Finrod's moment of greatest trial, caught in a battle he knows he can never win, he sings a vision not of Tirion and its dynastic power, but of Alqualondë where Finarfin fled for peace and where presumably his son found the same.

Faced with a conflict of power, he reaches for peace.

And by doing this, he turns his immediate defeat into something hollow - while Sauron is said to have mastery here in their duel, it is Finrod who ultimately triumphs. For in the Leithian, the Release from Bondage, victory is achieved through sacrifice and not through power: Huan's sacrifice of loyalty and life, Beren's sacrifice of his body (Erchamion) and his life as well, and the overarching sacrifice of Lúthien's own life and fate, which both serves as their own personal triumph and lays the foundations for the victory and redemption of the Three Kindreds at the end of the Age. And Finrod's sacrifice is key among these - laying down his power, his authority, and his life both for Beren individually and also for the Edain as a whole.

Sauron's power may dominate and subjugate, but it is through Finrod's peace that hope grows to fruition and gil estel rises.

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me @ my mutuals

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i sound old but we should have more respect for the text of the silmarillion :) like don’t just take out the idea of nerdanel’s sexy biceps. it’s been written by a man who really liked texts :)) not saying you must also like texts. it’s fine (and im saying this sincerely) if you only like fingon’s 14 karat bobby pins!! but you should be able to recognise and willing to admit and ready to mention that the text itself is good fucking literature. no more “it’s unfinished” “chris tolkien didn’t even like it” “haha elf phone book” “i’ve read it on tolkien gateway that somewhere in the HoME there’s a gayer version of this sentence” stop joking about how it’s bad. like we do know that it has literary value far far far far far far far beyond providing lexical information about our elves of choice right? :(

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I’ve got more to say on this, actually

I see a lot of post about bug and how he’s Just Like Any Other Animal and I’m not OUT of agreemence but at the same time we can’t pretend this is just a Training of Society to react differently to insect than to mammal because one of these things has the same general inskelement as us and one of these things has variable numbers of eyes and goo on the inside so it’s not exactly rocket brain surgery to say that maybe our cavemen brain doesn’t Get It quite so instinctively at something which is basically aliens. You know

And also when it comes to all of the other outdoor (and indoor) friends like, lizard, snake, birb, other birb, mouse, rat, coyote, possum man, squirrel

When they’re in seeing of you their first instinct is usually one of awayment and if you want to do an interaction on them you have to Pursue or follow Social Rituals (peanut)

But the thing about Bug is that they go about their business hardly in perceivance of us at all or else they are thinking about *this mountain is doing a moving* (ladybug) or *this guy is Threat Upon My Family and I must do unto him an Envenomnation* (wasp) but mostly they’re just thinking *Oh I havest so much Bug Thing to Do* which lest you think the offensivement of this is one of ego it is NOT

It’s just that being in Shower the situation is one of water which as we all know is an substance of HOMOGENIZING NATURE and so when millipede chooses This Shower Wall upon which to do his business of Getting In the Way and Slowly Dying, he enters the zone of the water and as such he becomes in SHARING SAME SPACE OF MY NAKED BODY,,, which is not a Want I’m having at any time

Mouse has the courtesy to be in private when he does chewing and destroyage of my personal belonging, poop upon the garage, etc

Bug has the courtesy of:

Die on kitchen sink

Crawl on my children

Walk very very close to my feet while I’m vulnerable on toilet

Drown in my gamer girl bath water

CRAWL IN MY EAR WHILE I SLEEP AND BITE ME (DEROGATORY) (ENVENOMOUSLY) (AND STING) UPON MY ONE AND ONLY LEFT EARDRUM,,, FIRE ANT

They should invent a millipede that isn’t In Shower

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They should invent a millipede that isn’t In Shower

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Watch this guy who just played Portal for the first time absolutely lose his mind at the end credits song

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SOON.

so here's the first teaser i'm posting of my pieces for THAUC 2024 lol the crop top will be explained in due time

this one goes out to bishkebab

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Finrod in his usual ‘blah-blah’ nerdy mode

I imagine he just sits down by someone and casually starts talking about something like, the problem how do orcs even reproduce, or are there even orc women, and the other one’s all like 'but i’m trying to eat here’

maybe that’s why he’s a forever alone ;c also he’s dressed as a cabbage