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16 hours before we start playing and now I also realised it's very much just Durge (completely by accident I swear)+Gojo. I'm quickly trying to come up with a few changes just to be more original but ughhhh.

When I was adding the 'Durge' backstory, I was even like "Haha, I'm so creative, now it's no longer just Gojo" 😭

This is the second time I accidentally created my favourite character in d&d (first was Xari, who is very much Daenerys-coded) 💀

You know how I made that Gojo wannabe dnd character... Well since he's human, I wanted an item that gives you darkvision. And well... There are Goggles of Night. Literally described as dark lenses. It really is Gojo just possessed by an evil demigod 😂

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You know how I made that Gojo wannabe dnd character... Well since he's human, I wanted an item that gives you darkvision. And well... There are Goggles of Night. Literally described as dark lenses. It really is Gojo just possessed by an evil demigod 😂

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Got an allergic reaction to iodine-based contrast substance they gave me for my CT today. I returned home and went to sleep, and when I woke up a few hours later, my skin was itching so badly, but I thought it was just my mind playing tricks on me. Well 16 hours later and it's still itching to the point of me not being able to sleep. And the antihistamines I found at our house are both expired, one for 6 years, the other for 3 years 😭 I took the 3 years expired because the itchy skin is driving me insane

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Creating my new D&D character to be basically resurrected Gojo without the DM finding out xD

So far the only difference is that the character has black hair and yellow eyes (the opposite of Gojo lol xDD) I'm even recreating the sorcerers vs curse users struggle (in a creative way) 💀

Oh right and he's monk and not sorcerer since monk in D&D is basically JJK sorcerer

My only problem is that I don't know if I'm going to be in another murder hobo party or if they'll be good aligned. Lowkey think I should make him evil just to have him truly be the opposite of the real Gojo xD

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Yesterday the wall socket that we connect our large fridge to had literal sparks coming out of it, and today I happened to find out our other fridge (on a different floor) had the cable slowly burning from the outside, there was the burning rubber smell everywhere and the cable was all black, and it's so lucky I noticed and investigated in time before anything worse happened. But now I'm paranoid something like this could happen again anywhere in the house 😭

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My most brilliant improvised idea was to start using pads on my wounds. I don't have bandages and other first aid crap, but the pads do what they're meant to do.

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Finally playing the Mikawa Flower Festival event and...

This is so sweet, Scara sent them blueprints from some of the clans that he eradicated in the past when he was all about vengeance.

He really embraced the redemption arc.

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I'm getting rid of one piece of furniture in my room so I'm going through the stuff in there and I found letters from my mum from 2007/8 when I was at the traumatising summer camp. There are 3 things that surprised me.

1) We only had one old Nokia phone with us (me & my brother) that we shared, and we had to try our best to not let it die (=3 weeks without charging)

2) My parents still weren't divorced at 2008

And, this one is the most heartbreaking:

3) My mum mentioned in one of the letters how she's always dreamt of having a naturally self-cleaning pond for swimming in our backyard and that she's hoping to save up for it.

Guess what... 18 years later and she still doesn't have that pond, even though she's talking about it so often how she'd love to have it. But due to the horrible inflation that got much worse during covid, she has nowhere near enough money for it.

And she's getting old, retiring in a few years, and she's getting paid just a little above minimum wage, and I'm so scared that she'll never have this long-term dream come true.

I really wish I could help her out with this. I really wish I had the money... This is so unfair, and it hurts me so much, because she's been keeping this family above water basically on her own, and she sacrificed her life for the sake of her children, and I can't even repay her for it.

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𝙈𝙔 𝙊𝙉𝙇𝙔 𝙂𝙄𝙍𝙇!

Desc: They make sure you understand that you're the only girl for them!

Characters: Gojo, Geto, Nanami, Toji.

Warnings: insecurity, fluff, profanity.

Comments are appreciated! ｡⁠◕⁠‿⁠◕⁠｡

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Day 2 of trying to prove to Amazon that I'm the fucking card owner. Sent them more private info than I'm comfortable to send on the internet. Like we can see how often data breaches happen (even to big companies like Amazon), I don't want my identity stolen. WHY. DO. YOU. NEED. IT. WITH. UNREDACTED. INFORMATION.

Hate this so much, maybe it wasn't worth it to switch to amazon coins for Love Nikki purchases after all... Even if it saves me hundreds of dollars (since they don't have a set currency conversion that's adding one fifth extra for no reason other than Google being money hungry and liking to be predatory toward countries with much weaker economies)

I literally cry and have panic attacks over it (and doesn't help that I found out my ID is no longer valid and I can't get a new one during holidays), AND I CAN'T EVEN CONTACT CUSTOMER SUPPORT TO ASK WHAT THE HELL DO THEY NEED ALL OF THIS FOR AND WHAT WILL THEY DO WITH IT AFTERWARDS. I feel so powerless, I'm confused and have so many questions but there's no email I could send them to. Can't even find anything online, and what people think about this system Amazon has (other than a few old Reddit posts)

I want this to end, why do they only send the email AFTER another 24 hours, this is so damn stressful I can't 😭😭😭

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I'm just now realising how much I lacked empathy all the way until like 15 years old. How death meant nothing to me. I guess it's the childhood experience everyone goes through but it's so strange to retrospectively see it. Funny how you can gain empathy only by living, since before that, you have nothing to relate to.

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Just remembered how I got the best score in the entire school for some math competition, and how I only enjoyed that fact because I got a much better score than the new girlfriend of my ex. (I was still upset because they got together only two months after I had to break up with him, and this math competition happened 2-3 months later)

I've never shown animosity towards her because I'm not that shitty, but this was a nice victory for me - except that nobody knew that this was why I was pleased with the results, and they'll never know (they probably forgot about it already too lol)

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Just remembered how I got the best score in the entire school for some math competition, and how I only enjoyed that fact because I got a much better score than the new girlfriend of my ex. (I was still upset because they got together only two months after I had to break up with him, and this math competition happened 2-3 months later)

I've never shown animosity towards her because I'm not that shitty, but this was a nice victory for me - except that nobody knew that this was why I was pleased with the results, and they'll never know (they probably forgot about it already too lol)

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Damn it, there are only two episodes in Buffy that scared me as a child so much that I still remember them clearly and feel the same fear, and of course I get to them whenever I'm about to go to sleep 😭 I keep telling myself how I'm all grown up now but no, these things are ingrained and twisted in my memory forever 💀

But I'm already 10 minutes in and I cannot continue binging Angel until I catch up with these few episodes :(

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.. Probably should've gone to therapy today when i have almost daily breakdowns and when my trauma prevents me from getting help for a potentially serious health problem

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SLIDES ANOTHER ARES DRAWING ON THE TL TO DISTRACT FROM MY PAIN

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NOOOO WHY DID LOVE NIKKI HAVE SUCH A BIG BEAUTIFUL UPDATE WITH RECHARGE BONUSES, I'M FUCKING BROKE AND GOOGLES'S ADDED EXTRA 7€ FOR THE PURCHASES WOULDN'T HELP

Oh how i wish i was rich and could get a bit of serotonin from this 😭