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[beezymyh]

I’m acc stressing out.. I decided to only weigh my self every Sunday but I just can’t go on with the day without knowing how much I weigh 😭

[beezymyh]

Anyone got any good November diets?? Help a girl out 😭

[beezymyh]

Yes I know it’s unhealthy

Yes I know it’s not working how I want it to

Yes I know it’s ruining my social life

Yes I know it’s killing me

Yes I know it’s ruined my life

Yes I know it’s an endless cycle

Yes I know I will never view food the same

Yes I know my mind is playing tricks on me

Yes I know I’m not ‘fat’

I KNOW.

I KNOW.

I KNOW.

I’m more than self aware at how this is ruining me, but I. cant. stop.

I cant let years of suffering be all for nothing.

[beezymyh]

I nearly just shit myself.. my pelvic floor muscles have become so weak 😓 is it the pelvic floor muscles?? I can barely hold my pee in either.. like wtf I’m not even skinny yet 😭

[beezymyh]

Tommorow is the start of November, a new month - the month where you say no! This is your sign to start no food November 💕

[beezymyh]

I’ve been eating at maintenance for the past few days to hela my metabolism or whatever and I can officially say that it has been restored, but I am back!! :)

[beezymyh]

Since Halloween is coming up, I present to you the true thinspo - Emily from corpse bride 💕 <3

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Also does anyone want to do a water fast with me!??? Since my mother is going to be away for a while so I’ll have no one pressuring me to eat 💕

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Erm so I kind of binged kind of didn’t? I mean it was not a lot of food but it was junk food and I feel very guilty so I was going to drink loads of water and then purge. I had some green tea and I can’t get of the fucking toilet 😭 I can’t tell if I should be happy or sad 😔 I don’t know what to do with my life..

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Im apart of this €d group chat on snapchat and im encouraging all these people to be more healthier and eat more when I don’t even follow my own advice myself.. 😭

[beezymyh]

Starting a 7 day water fast 💕

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[beezymyh]

you’re automatically 100% prettier when you’re skinny.

even if you aren’t the best looking, being thin is is the least you could do.

[beezymyh]

I kinda broke my fast..

I decided to have some chocolate snacks and a banana milkshake last night and I’ve been actively vomiting and shitting myself since 4 am. This is fucking torture. But at least I won’t be able to eat anything for a while cuz my stomach can’t handle any food at the moment. ( just to clarify I’m lactose intolerant and my digestive system is so fucked)

I actually hate my fucking pathetic life 😞

[beezymyh]

Im starting a 14 day water fast 💕 ( I’m starting to go insane).

[beezymyh]

We have different priorities here clearly✨🤩

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Me after binging on dairy, knowing I’m lactose intolerant so I will just end up shitting it all out.. 😓