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Rating: Explicit

Archive Warnings: Graphic Depictions of Violence ;; Rape/Non-Con ;; Underage

Category: M/M

Fandom: Kuroshitsuji | Black Butler

Relationship: Sebastian Michaelis/Ciel Phantomhive

Characters: Sebastian Michaelis ;; Ciel Phantomhive ;; John Wayne Gacy

Additional Tags: Sexual Assault ;; Sexual Abuse ;; Childhood Sexual Abuse ;; Childhood Trauma ;; Trauma ;; Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD ;; Recovery ;; Rape Recovery ;; Fucked Up

Language: English

Stats: Published:2020-05-12Updated:2020-05-12Words:1558Chapters:1/?Hits:5

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Spectacle of Misery

Littlest_Phantomhive

Summary:

*DISCLAIMER: I am not glorifying or romanticizing what this person did in any way, shape, or form. I mean no disrespect to those affected by this person and hope they are well. This work is simply a form of venting for me and I'm posting it for anyone else who may relate to it in some way, or if they simply want to read it just because.

Inspired by both a dream I had, and the song "Pogo's Playland" by the Vocaloid creator, MOROS; vocals by Fukase.

Listen to the song here: https://youtu.be/q4poD0j0HXQ

I have never been as disappointed in myself for doing something as much as I am for writing this. I'm terrible. I'm sorry.

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matching icons pt. 1.

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matching icons pt. 2.

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matching icons pt. 3.

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matching icons final.

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I headcanon that Ciel wears very high-heeled shoes when dancing with Sebastian.

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Sebaciel Maleficent Au

Where everything is the same, except that sebastian is gay and was secretly dating Human Vincent, whom he was madly in love with. But the latter betrayed his lover’s trust and in order to become the next king he had to cut off Sebastian’s wings as a proof that he had killed him. Both broken hearted and betrayed, Sebastian turns from a good fairy to a demon, consumed by pain and revenge after hearing the news of Vincent’s wedding to princess Rachel and their awated baby, he decides to curse newborn Ciel. Over the years Sebastian had kept an eye on Ciel and watched him grow, as the three good faries, Meyrin, Bard and Finny took care of him. He secretly protected him from harm, and without noticing he started to like the little boy. When he reached his 13s Ciel started to wonder about the secret dark icy world that was behind the woods, so he decided to discover it himself. There he met Sebastian, or his “Fairy godfather” as he’d like to call him. Ciel told Sebastian that he’s grateful for he has been there watching over him his whole life. The demon was not expecting Ciel to be that sweet and to consider him as his protector,but he did not mind it, actually without admitting it he was liking it. As days passed, Sebastian was growing fond of the boy, and from trying to destroy his life he was actually trying to undo the spell. That is when Ciel met princess Elizabeth,who fell for his charms instantly. Sebastian did not like her at first but thought maybe she is his Last hope. As the fairytale claimed, a true love’s kiss may undo the spell. But that’s how Sebastian cursed Ciel, because to him true love does not exist, for that is what Vincent taught him. Upon his 16th birthday, Ciel learned he was cursed by his fairy godfather, both sad and disappointed he heads to his father’s castle only to be welcomed coldly because “he looks like his dead mother”.He was locked in his room, when the spell started to hypnotize him. Meanwhile Sebastian kidnapped lizzy and headed to the castle but it was too late. There layed, a cursed Ciel, drifting in a long sleep that seemed like death. While lizzy was trying to kiss Ciel, Sebastian wondered, if this works then it means she is his true love! And that thought did not appeal to him one bit. Unfortunately, it did not work! Sebastian was left with sleeping Ciel, crying and admitting that he had stolen what was left of his dark heart. And without thinking he leaned in and gave him a sweet kiss. Then immediately left the room because guards where looking for him everywhere. when Ciel woke up he found lizzy and thought she was the one that saved him. So he decided to marry his so called true love. But something inside of him was telling him that all of this is wrong, he does not love lizzy in a romantic way, it is sebastian who he loves, also when he was bewitched , he felt sebastian’s lips against his, he heard his apology and he felt his regret! But maybe all of this is just an illusion, after all he was enchanted and he can not deny that Sebastian was the one that cursed him and caused his father’s death too. The day of the wedding, Sebastian decided to confront Ciel with the truth. While guests gathered to celebrate the young king and his bride Sebastian, the most feared demon in all the kingdom made his appearance. He sarcastically greeted the guests then looked at Ciel and told him he belongs to him. He told him that he was the one that saved him. Ciel asked him why he did not stay by his side when he woke up, so, the demon told him that Elizabeth was the one that called for the guards. That is why he had to run. But Vincent, insisted on chasing him so he fell from a broken window and died, as he ran after Sebastian who turned into a crow and flew away. Now that everything made sense, Ciel hugged his lover and theykissed again, but this time he was awake and could feel everything. Ciel found Sebastian’s wings in his father’s old dusty room and gave them back to his partner, both they unified the kingdom of humans and this of fairies. Of course we have to mention that they lived happily ever after or it wouldn’t be a fairytale would it. This is my gay fairy tale, for true love does indeed exist, in various forms.

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Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh You’re my daddy!  (￢ ω ￢)

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Ciel spent the night with Sebastian. Ciel actually felt extremely guilty about taking Sebastian's bed and leaving him to sleep on the floor.

A few days later, Ciel went over to Sebastian with a red face, tightly balled-up fists, and head bowed to ask him for drinks. Sebastian found it very endearing (although he wouldn't admit it aloud to Ciel) and agreed.

They got pretty tipsy in Sebastian's apartment, confessed to each other, and kissed. They didn't remember it in the morning though.

(Saw a post somewhere about it uwu).

Mainly Sebaciel Divergent AU Headcanons

(Our Ciel's name starts off as Noël in this AU. Also note that I've only watched the first movie.)

When it was time to choose factions, Ciel chose to go in Erudite as he was raised in and Noël chose to go in Dauntless (though his results were inconclusive). Sieglinde also chose to go to Erudite, and Lizzy went to Amity (though she was torn between that and Abnegation).

When Noël entered, he told Sebastian (who greeted him at the bottom of the jump) that his name was Ciel. He soon made friends with Alois and Soma.

Ciel and Alois were both physically weak and Soma was very kind for someone who was Dauntless, so they were the lowest three and the highest risk of being factionless.

Soma could pick up very easily that Ciel was Divergent, but he didn't care because they were friends. However, he worried greatly for his safety and vowed that he would keep him safe.

Claude and Bardroy were the "leaders" of Dauntless, along with Sebastian. Claude was the toughest and coldest of them, Bardroy was the most helpful (with tips, learning, and such), and Sebastian was the most motivating (but quite shut off).

Soma, being the oldest of the three, was the first to start improving, followed by Ciel. Alois didn't know how to keep his mouth shut, so he got a few dozen black eyes and was pushed off the ledge two or three (or twenty or thirty) times. He barely caught up, but he did it. They all passed and made it into Dauntless.

Soma got a nilgiri pipit (bird) tattoo on his upper back spanning from shoulder to shoulder, Alois got a bluebell on his inner left wrist, and Ciel got a broken rope on his left hand (ring finger).

One day, during a fight, Ciel had an asthma attack and got beaten pretty badly before Claude told his fighting partner to quit. Sebastian took Ciel to his room to recover, covering every injury with either an ointment, a bandage of sorts, or both.

(I'll try to do more if I come up with them but they kiss at some point anyways.)

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(Saw a post somewhere about it uwu).

Mainly Sebaciel Divergent AU Headcanons

(Our Ciel's name starts off as Noël in this AU. Also note that I've only watched the first movie.)

When it was time to choose factions, Ciel chose to go in Erudite as he was raised in and Noël chose to go in Dauntless (though his results were inconclusive). Sieglinde also chose to go to Erudite, and Lizzy went to Amity (though she was torn between that and Abnegation).

When Noël entered, he told Sebastian (who greeted him at the bottom of the jump) that his name was Ciel. He soon made friends with Alois and Soma.

Ciel and Alois were both physically weak and Soma was very kind for someone who was Dauntless, so they were the lowest three and the highest risk of being factionless.

Soma could pick up very easily that Ciel was Divergent, but he didn't care because they were friends. However, he worried greatly for his safety and vowed that he would keep him safe.

Claude and Bardroy were the "leaders" of Dauntless, along with Sebastian. Claude was the toughest and coldest of them, Bardroy was the most helpful (with tips, learning, and such), and Sebastian was the most motivating (but quite shut off).

Soma, being the oldest of the three, was the first to start improving, followed by Ciel. Alois didn't know how to keep his mouth shut, so he got a few dozen black eyes and was pushed off the ledge two or three (or twenty or thirty) times. He barely caught up, but he did it. They all passed and made it into Dauntless.

Soma got a nilgiri pipit (bird) tattoo on his upper back spanning from shoulder to shoulder, Alois got a bluebell on his inner left wrist, and Ciel got a broken rope on his left hand (ring finger).

One day, during a fight, Ciel had an asthma attack and got beaten pretty badly before Claude told his fighting partner to quit. Sebastian took Ciel to his room to recover, covering every injury with either an ointment, a bandage of sorts, or both.

(I'll try to do more if I come up with them but they kiss at some point anyways.)

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Kuroshitsuji Omegaverse AU where everyone is Mormon.

I think it'd be cute.

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anyway heres a list of why yana either ships or at least approves of sebaciel:

- she’s a bl artist. 

- that one art piece released with that ciel figure thats literally porn (you know what im talking about. hopefully.)

- read/watch the corset scene and tell me its not blatant implication of sebaciel

- shes a grown adult who writes a very fucked up manga including child abuse, rape (at least it was implied for when ciel was with the cult, though im not sure if it was ever directly stated), and literal murder why would she not be okay with people shipping a kid and his demon butler???

antis come into this fandom like “how dare you ship sebaciel” when the author of the series almost definitely would at the very least support it. write the nsfw-looking scenes off as bait if you want, but even as bait, its still a very blatant show of a minor put into a seemingly sexual situation, which… sounds pretty against what antis are for anyway. cielizzy is canon, and even if it was “acceptable incest” at the time, adult/minor relationships were also acceptable back then, so really the only “bad” part of time-period-compliant sebaciel would be the mlm aspect of it. 

yana is an author who writes fucked up shit. we are a fandom that enjoys fucked up shit, and we produce our own fucked up shit. if you came into the kuro fandom expecting cutesy sfw vanilla fics with zero conflict, then im starting to wonder if we read the same manga here.

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My babies ;v;

I’m so proud of this!

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a little warm up drawing

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Ughhhhh I need some more/newer ciel x grell and ciel x william content. 😭 You guys know any? Art or fan fiction, either way, I just need a lil sumin sumin.

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