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guys guys guys! I passed my goal weight today :), I weighed myself today bc I haven’t recently and I weigh 121 now!!! my old goal weight was 125 and now I weigh 121 YAYAYAY!!!!

sw 137.2

cw 121

gw 115

ugw 10

height 5’9

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destroying myself mentally bc of how obsessed you look physically >>

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I’m so sick of my brain, I’m sick of this disorder, I feel so disconnected, I’m obsessed, am I ever gonna be skinny enough? i keep losing weight but it’s just not enough, I just feel fatter, I want someone to notice, someone to ask if I’m okay, someone to ask if I’m eating enough, when am I gonna be that skinny? and will I even notice when I get there?

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in a constant cycle of not eating for days then finally eating a meal and feeling guilty and crying regretting it

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hey guys sorry I’ve been gone, I just got distracted by school and fell deep into my ed, I’ve been skipping eating for days, but I’m back now, and I’m so close to my goal weight so that’s good I guess, all my pants are too big and I know I’ve lost weight but I just feel fatter now. i weighed my self a few days ago and haven’t now but I think I’m the same or less.

cw 126.2

gw 125

ugw 110

height 5’9

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guys I failed my fast last night :(, I was doing so good and didn’t eat anything and then at like 11 at night I got drunk with my friends and ate a ton of veggie straws 🥲🥲 also I haven’t had a chance to weigh my self bc the scales in my parents bathroom and my dad works from home

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hey guys I’m gonna try and fast today, any tips?

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guys omg today was my boyfriends and I 7 month anniversary and national girl friends day. i literally have the best boyfriend in the world. he got me the charlotte tilbury highlighter AND blush. and he got me olapex hair oil AND my favorite nars afterglow lipstick that I just ran out of. like what that was so sweet. anyways we got sushi and gelato, but I only took like 2 bites of the gelato and we split the sushi so I should be under 600 cals for today.

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I’m so happy I tried on a pair of 24 waist jeans and they were TOO BIG!!!!!!! i didn’t get to weigh myself tho :(, but all I had to eat today was sautéed zucchini, mushroom and grape tomatoes and now I’m making tea, I’ve only had 100 cals today and I’m not even hungry!

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i woke up and lost 3 pounds this is the happiest day of my life

cw. 134.2

gw. 125

ugw. 115

height 5’9

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I’m gonna be my goal weight my september.

i was getting close to my gw and then I got a boyfriend😀. and now I’m healthy again, i feel like I wasted all that work for nothing and I miss being skinny. i want to be bella hadid skinny. so today I’m starting back! also my old account got banned so I made a new one!

cw. 137.2

gw. 125

ugw. 115

height. 5’9

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my mutuals and i praying that july will be the month we miraculously lose 30 lbs:

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the feminine urge to completely destroy your health for beauty standards