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I'm on vacation and dad away from most of my splitting/bpd triggers

Thing is the trigger keeps messaging me and it's so hard not to give in and let my mood swings go wild.

I think it will hit me full force when I return but I can enjoy some peace and quiet for now

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I'm back from the dead....

I think I've recovered (ed) to the point where it doesnt cause me major issues anymore.

I could say I'm happy but at the same time not really

I try not to think about it too much and end up relapsing .

In other news my mother figured out I sh and she called it "slaughtering ones self" the phrase makes me want to gag and it's never going to leave my mind

That's al yall

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I fucked up I fucked up I fucked up

I think a bloody bandaid I had on fell and is currently somewhere in my roommates room and I cant enter to take it cause hes asleep.....

I looked for it everywhere it's not in my bed or the bathroom. It has to be in his room

HOW DO I SAVE MY ASS FROM THIS SHIT

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repeat with me,

i am not going to b1nge this weekend

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Something I swear some ed people on this site dont get is how hard it is to loose weight when you work physically demanding jobs.

Like I'd appreciate not fainting during my shift so that means having to eat semi properly for the day.

Also the service industry is the only one I have experience in. The amount of food that's around me all the time is sickening.

Loosing weight is some much harder now than half a year ago.....

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Weekends are very hard as always

This week I'll be seeing a lot of friends which includes a lot of food. I'll try to give excuses but where its impossible to skip it all together I'll try to omad the calories

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If I can’t be pretty at least let me be skinny.

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Proud of myself today!

Ate 405 cals did 10 min hiit and 10 min thigh workout aaaanddddd resisted crazy cravings all day

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U guys am I the only one who gets like absolutely mad when someone offers me food, like are you trying to ruin me??

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god I hate re-losing weight

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49.7

I need to be at least 47 by mid june

Cant believe I was 45 and blew it off

My greatest downfall fr

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Anyone wanna be ana moots ? 18+ only

💕💖💕💖💕💖

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When you get the urge to purge but you just ate spicy and sour dinner so you know it wont be pleasant or easy >:(

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I'm keeping up so far but I'm flying home soon and it will be extremely hard to count calories and avoid food in general. I'll try to be more active and maybe omad or eat whenever I'm monitored only

I'm back at the beginning

50 kg

I was 45

I feel disgusting and every time I start loosing weight I gain it back

I know ive lost my motivation so I'll try to post updates here to keep myself in check

Saw some crazy thinspo irl and made me loose my mind

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I'm back at the beginning

50 kg

I was 45

I feel disgusting and every time I start loosing weight I gain it back

I know ive lost my motivation so I'll try to post updates here to keep myself in check

Saw some crazy thinspo irl and made me loose my mind

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Broke my record with a 41 hour fast woooo

Loosing weight isn't as easy as it was for some reason plus there is the issue with holiday dinners etc

I'm at 47.4 when two days ago I was 47.1.......

Like how do I keep gaining I onad every fucking day.

At least purging has gotten easier but I'm not super great at it yet,I dont think it has helped me at all so far,but it does make me feel a bit better.

Edit now I'm 47.9 wtf