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Diary Entry 4!

a more lighthearted entry but still, as always, TW: Eating Disorder

Its been awhile! a lot has happened haha. First off, I went on omegle for the first time in years. not expecting to have any decent conversations but i was surprised! I met a girl and we talked for 2 hours, I’ve never had someone on there talk with me for more than 5 minutes without asking for nudes lmfao we hit it off pretty well^^ we’re now friends on twitter and talk like every day. I have a crush on her already but shes too old for me :( being young and gay is so annoying, every time i like a girl they’re either straight or gay but too old. oh well, shes still cute and ill have a crush on her from afar haha. the timezones are hard to get used to though. In other not so great news, my ed is really fucking me up. we went out to eat (against my will lmao) and everything on the menu was over 1000 calories!! the fucking salad was 750!? what was in that salad i dont understand. i saw something on the menu for 2,900 calories, it was just an appetizer!!! i ended up getting the lowest calorie item which was about 510 calories. I almost cried looking at the menu, i started to shake. i really hate this. its so frustrating :( anyway, until next time -Astraea  

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White Diamond, to Steven and the Gems, when she comes back to Earth to attempt to move in with Steven, only to see that everything’s in shambles

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Diary entry 3 that isnt really a diary entry just my thoughts on the SU movie

hi~ its been awhile! 

had a crappy day and my mental health is at a all time low lol but at least i got to watch the steven universe movie! Instead of ranting about my emo thoughts im gonna tell you my thoughts on the movie uwu. First of all, Pink diamond/stevens mom/rose whatever you wanna call her, is a lil bitch lmfao every villain in this show is bc of her doing some stupid shit like??? m’am??? what did you g a i n. I actually really like spinel, I relate to her a lot and feel like im one of the only people who dont think shes crazy (going off of the reactions i saw on twt) shes just traumatized clearly. I might of cried during her song sequence with steven in the garden :( spinel deserved better 100000% this is now a spinel stan acc unfollow me now (not like anyones actually following lmfao) anyway! pearl having to regain her memories by watching the person she love disappear for a second time is kind of rude and i felt v attacked. pearl is my favorite of the gems not that its relevant but i felt like saying that sjfkslf this is long and im rambling sorry, In conclusion, I loved the movie a lot and ill probably rewatch it again to really absorb everything lol but rebecca is a genius and i cant wait to see more of her work! was it ever confirmed for a season 6 or is this the end? (its over isnt it- isnt it overrrr) (sorry i told you pearl is my fav sfjskld ik all the words to that song and “ do it for her”) anyway! bye for a bit ill probably rant in a few days -Astraea

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Diary Entry 2!

TW// ED + Depression! 

Today has been a really... crappy day honestly lmao It started out okay and then everything just went to shit :( but thats a normal occurrence for me I suppose lol (online diaries are weird, i can use text slang that normally i wouldnt use if i were to actually write this out on paper lmao) I’m fasting atm but i had to break the fast because of a family dinner event for someones birthday :(( we had to go out to eat and its really hard to pretend to eat then sigh. I feel like shit but when do i ever actually feel good? I found out something interesting though! I always have had a strong reaction to certain sounds (chewing, slurping, flying insects ect) and they cause me anger or panic attacks. I thought i was just crazy but turns out this is a real thing and I could have Misophonia. apparently its slightly rare. good to know Im not going insane I guess haha. anyway ill end this here this is pretty much just rambling and nothing important. if anyones reading this I hope you have a good day! -Astraea

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About me!

                                              Name: Astraea (Αστραεα)

                                              Age: 16

                                              Bday: October 31st

                                              Pronouns: She/They

                                              Lesbian still dealing with comphet

Likes☺: kpop, anime, girls, animals, science, reading, drawing, traveling, stingrays, my best friend, snakes, tea, video games, and steven universe

Dislikes ⍨: crowds, loud noises, myself, mirrors, bugs, textures of certain foods, marshmallows, allergies, summer, school, algebra, politics, trump, trump supporters lmao, and much more. 

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Diary(?) Entry 1!

I decided to make a blog/online diary since I dont really have anyone to vent to. I’ll start off with a little about me I guess, then later on in a different “entry” ill actually vent. I wont disclose my real name so I created an alias (I think thats the right word lmao) so please call me Astraea! This was my grandmothers name. anyway, I am 16, I currently live in the states, and I’m multiracial. I dont think theres much left to say since i plan on doing a formal about. not like anyone cares or will actually ever read this. Bye for now! -Astraea 

I forgot to mention! some of the stuff ill put in my entries will be kinda triggering so ill always make sure to put a tw when needed^^