apearlogist-forever

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Yubo is so bad for my ego

[apearlogist-forever]

me if it was Christmas: merry Christmas!

[apearlogist-forever]

Sue Sylvester is a BITCH!

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soup

why don’t restaurants sell chicken noodle soup more often. it’s like objectively the best soup everyone loves chicken noodle soup and it’s not hard to make either.

[apearlogist-forever]

tw for intrusive (?) thoughts just a bit of a thing i changed my username (or url or whatever) to apearlogist-forever because my previous one was attracting the wrong crowd iykwim…

already i am beginning to loathe it, and going into this i knew this would happen but i went about it anyway.

the problem is that i liked the name apearlogist (referring to the film Pearl which currently occupies my mind with frequency). but of course it kind of is generic and predictable so it was already chosen. so i added -forever to it. knowing that this isn’t going to last forever. I already feel reluctant to refer to myself as a Pearl Apologist because Am I??? will i regret this? is this misleading? is this how i want to be seen? the truth is that i do have empathy for her at the moment; the writing and acting both made her very forgivable and even slightly (SLIGHTLY.) relatable. but i really doubt i’ll commit to any philosophy or belief or mere opinion based upon emotion forever, let alone one like this.

what if some day i’ll face some sort of punishment for lying to others? this terrifies me! we do not know what happens after death (a big part of why Pearl definitely does make me deeply upset and uncomfortable, but also intrigued) and what if it’s worse than we imagined?! all i have is my affirmations from tiktok and the religion i was raised with and will most likely continue to struggle with for years to come (i won’t say forever though!!).

anyway, that was just my two cents on a topic that not even my internal monologue asked about. having this documented in writing at least may serve me justice in this little unjust world my anxiety created.

[apearlogist-forever]

me: fuck i can’t find This Thing! where is it!!!

me a few days later: fuck I can’t find This Other Thing! where is it!!!

me a few minutes later: there’s This Thing!! it was hidden in plain sight! silly me! i am going to be responsible this time and put it somewhere more memorable so i don’t lose it again. me a week later: fuck i can’t find This Thing! where is it!!!!

[apearlogist-forever]

feeling unpopular luckily the sex bots boosting my follow count on every social media exponentially always have my back

[apearlogist-forever]

Old men think the By The Seaside ringtone is HILARIOUS.

[apearlogist-forever]

sometimes i’ll type in my passcode manually instead of using face id because i feel a little bit bad for my keyboard

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one day im gonna find an abandoned warehouse filled with an endless supply white tshirts and black shorts. and that’s all i’ll really ever wear again. i wont ever have to do the laundry again. I will have won.

[apearlogist-forever]

7×8=56 is sooo underrated

[apearlogist-forever]

I would be so popular if there were more she/theys at my school They love me

[apearlogist-forever]

do you ever see someone and think what a waste of attractiveness like i could do so much more if i had your appearance.

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i want to go on a date at ikea so badly. that is what my high school years are missing. imagine holding hands as you navigate the furniture store labyrinth. and share a few meatballs at the end

[apearlogist-forever]

the words slay and yas are overused and unfunny unless i am the one saying them

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i will not hesitate to Make my own texting acronyms and expect everyone to know what they mean.

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Do you ever look at someone and think There is no way that person exists at home. That person has no siblings but is not an only child. That person has no parents but is not an orphan. That person has no home but is not homeless. That person simply spawns during the day and ceases to exist each night.