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Sometimes (ok a lot of times) I like to watch Modern Marvels. The episodes are usually a little out of date but the one I saw the other day on the Netflix dvd mailing system really took the cake. Modern Marvels indeed.

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I don’t know where else I can say this but it’s fucking killing me so I’ll just say here I guess:

I can’t help but mutter wtf every time I see a news article about imminent (or already happening, depending on the source) famine in Gaza and then immediately see the next news article denouncing pro-Palestinian protestors as antisemitic. I just don’t see how protesting the pointless deaths of innocent Palestinians at the hands of a frankly unhinged Israeli government’s irrational pursuits of eradicating Hamas is antisemitism. This has nothing to do with Israel being a Jewish state; it has everything to do with Palestinians being exterminated in the name of fighting terrorism or whatever. My beef is with the people in power that are failing their responsibility, not Judaism. I don’t like that the media seems to ignore the facts that are inconvenient to the narrative they are pushing.

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I really love randomly dropping into this site and letting my inner 14 year old take the reins for awhile

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Ever since I saw that post about the pigeons being an abandoned domesticated species, I can’t see them doing pigeon things without being a little bit sad at how humans have done them. I admire their resilience, and at the same time wish it wasn’t necessary.

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My problems are still polished to a smooth sheen but I’m a firm believer in the sunk cost fallacy, so I’m sticking with my current psychotherapist for now. It’d be a lot of work to bring someone else up to speed now.

Had a real shit time at therapy today. I’ve been seeing the same counselor for five years now, I’m starting to think it’s time for a change. Everything expires, right? It’s like all I’ve done in the last half a decade is polish my problems until they’re nice and shiny and easy to see. I’m tired y’all.

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TRAUMA WORK IS GRIEF WORK

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Oh fuck lol

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Had a real shit time at therapy today. I’ve been seeing the same counselor for five years now, I’m starting to think it’s time for a change. Everything expires, right? It’s like all I’ve done in the last half a decade is polish my problems until they’re nice and shiny and easy to see. I’m tired y’all.

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I sure get paid a lot to do fuck all

I'm not complaining, don't get me wrong. But I make up some pretty stupid shit for my job in Corporate America and I think it's extremely funny but I have no one to share it with because fucking Corporate America has fucking laid off all my fucking work friends.

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Proper boundaries

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Rage can’t burn forever.

But I’m real good at banking embers.

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I’m watching Friends, because it always makes me laugh and I thought it would be a fun way to remember Matthew Perry. So I turn on a random episode, The One Where Mr. Heckles Dies (in retrospect the title should’ve tipped me off), and goddamn it it’s just not as funny now when Chandler cracks that he’s gonna die alone like Mr. Heckles. It was funny, and I feel like both Matthew Perry the person and Chandler Bing the character would have appreciated the morbid humor, but it still felt just a little too soon.

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This Toot.

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