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What have I been doing with my life?

A few minutes ago I was watching a few videos from this off grid family who lives a very different life then what we are used to. Homesteading, according to Wikipedia homesteading “is a lifestyle of self-sufficiency. It is characterized by subsistence agriculture, home preservation of food, and may also involve the small scale production of textiles, clothing, and craftwork for household use or sale.”. It amaze me how much work they put in their daily life and how much they love what they do. I am not saying I will stop living this life of mine and start homesteading, It sounds amazing but knowing the person that I am, I want to travel and enjoy this amazing and beautiful world God has given us. But I am not saying I will not try this lifestyle someday, one day I will want to settle down and live in the woods and keep enjoying this world. But the major part of this lifestyle is not the gardening, the animals, agriculture and whatever other things you do in this lifestyle, the mayor part is DOING IT! We have been so lazy, we have grown in a environment that makes us lazy and the bad thing about being lazy for years is changing it, not impossible but not easy (I know, because I am lazy too). Now we let a “dish washer” clean our dishes?? I never understood why people buy this kind of stuff. There are things that makes our life easier but some that just make us lazier.

And I get a lot of us work hours on a regular job to make money to afford living in a apartment and that is not that easy, I know. I used to work overtime on a retail store, to pay apartment, insurance, gas, food, my phone. And later lost it all, and had to start all over again, took me 4 months to get a job when I got to Puerto Rico and then they didn’t need me anymore after 3 months, found another job for 3 months and then the hurricane happen, not just 1 but 2. Didn’t have a job for about 10 months. Falling into depression, anxiety, madness. And about 3 months ago I got my old job back as a violin teacher (I was a violin teacher when I was 16 until I was 19), thanks mom and dad. Now I am making plans to move back to the state next year and to get the life that I want, because if you don’t love what you do then find something else to do until you find what you love. This time I will not get into a debt and pay for apartment, I am thinking of getting a travel trailer, because I don’t want to waste money on a apartment this time.

If you want something go for it but don’t sit waiting for it to get to you, stop being lazy, work hard. Good things don’t magically appeared at your door, good things happen to the one who works. Also bring peace and love to your life, love yourself and your neighbor. Don’t hold grudges, enjoy your life as much as you can and help others because the feeling of knowing that today you just helped someone is just the best feeling ever. Work hard for what you want and start doing things around the house to start getting that laziness out, like cooking your own dinner instead of going out, believe it or not, a lot of us don’t cook because we don’t want to wait, we don’t want to be in the kitchen for a few minutes preparing a meal, because going to a drive thru is a lot easier. Clean out your closet, your dirty pile of clothes, make it a habit every week. Doing things like this helps in a lot of ways, maintaining a clean house, your body in movement always. Reasons why there wasn’t a lot of obese people in the old days is because they literally lived a lifestyle like “homesteading”.

Watching their videos made me realize that I am too lazy and that I give my attention to things that don’t matter like watching Netflix all day or being on YouTube or posting stupid stuff on Facebook or Twitter. Attaching myself to objects and getting a new gadget because I think I need it or because it will make me feel good.

Find what you love, love what you do. God bless you!

I NEED A CHANGE.

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“Then a few months ago I found myself talking to the tree. An entire conversation, just me and a tree. And on the climb down I felt like crying. Why didn’t I have someone real to talk to? Why didn’t I have a best friend like everyone else seemed to? Sure, there were kids I knew at school, but none of them were close friends. They’d have no interest in climbing the tree. In smelling the sunshine.” •Juliana •Flipped •Page 38-9 - Wendelin Van Draanen

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Lol this part made me laugh 😂

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“You wanna be a big cop in a small town? Fuck off up the model village.”

Hot Fuzz (2007) dir. Edgar Wright

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Lonely hours…

Bones cracking Mind racing, Open getaway, where I might not be trace. Oblivion I stand, vanish I can’t Feeling confine but not forced.

Bone cracking Mind racing, Here I am, on this aggravating loop Grief I feel with no way to turn Oh, dear friend of mine Haven’t you got enough?

Evening my darlings. This is a “poem” I been thinking of. I believe in depression, which is something I believe I had, or still got. Lonely Hours is basically when you are free of any work, where you basically got nothing to do then to think, there, is where we get out mind racing. Bones cracking, cuss I used to be on my bed for long hours, thinking, depress and feeling confine. I can stand and go take a walk or hang out, but I wanted to stay there, thinking, feeling sad and been angry with my self, with my life. And after I didn’t know of what to think, of what to feel depress of, I stated again, having the same thoughts. Just like a loop.

Sorry if my English is not good, still trying. Oblivion Little Girl send help

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when you tryna chill but your siblings love annoyin you

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Bookworms be like...

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Job searching today 💕✨

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“Love me love me Say that you love me Fool me fool me Go on and fool me Love me love me Pretend that you love me Leave me leave me Just say that you need me” 😂 💕 I actually DIY this pants. I cut them and bleached it ��🏽

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“Don’t look at me that way”

I love this song. I just can’t get enough.

I heard this song a few years ago and I just found it again.

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Portland, Oregon

My niece Scarlett is missing. She’s 14 years old and has serious medical conditions and has been without her medication for at least 3 days. She was last thought to be in the NW metro area. Please share!

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I don’t miss you.

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🇫🇷 (at Le Marais)

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“Take me”

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Sancocho 💕 It was really good ✨