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[alphathebluewolf]

Took Memo to collage because I couldn't leave him behind. I've become so attached, I can't sleep without him and he comforts me by my side. Including, the fact he helps me relax and de-stress from workload or family drama❤️

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Tw: SH

I don't wanna look crazy or stupid but, I turned one of my 4 year old plushies into a ESSA.

I've realised I'm not okay and I was clean for 3 months but began SH again because of my anxiousness, hate on my body and the life at home making me feel depressed. (Just today my mum saw my scars on my shoulders to elbow and did nothing. She doesn't realise my stomach to legs though...)

I just want to question, do I need verification for a ESSA or no?

I can't have a real life pet because of money and time. Not even a hamster because it takes to much work and we live in a small flat. Plus my dad is so mentally unwell, he can't do anything to help the family but give more stress.

Thank you for reading.

(By the way, my ESSA is a Pembroke Welsh Corgi and his name is Memo. I've pampered him and gave him lots of attention.)

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Haven't been active here much, because I'm focusing on my collage course. Right now, I'm finally chill because the assignment I have now finished in just a day.

Thank god I have more time to go to the park and other areas with more forest to feel like a wolf again, the sweet feeling of my paws in the grass and soft dirt, than being stuck in my room stressing about my future 🙌

[alphathebluewolf]

HAPPY NEW YEAR MY FELLOW BRITISH THERIANS ❤❤❤❤

AWOOOO! AR-AWOO!

🐺❤🎆

[alphathebluewolf]

My birthday is tomorrow, but on a Sunday...

Ain't nowhere gonna be open the Sunday 29th 😭😭💀

[alphathebluewolf]

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! ❤

Sadly didn't get any snow in the UK 🥲

🌲🌱🐺🌲🌿

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Me fr

My bitch ass trynna reconnect with nature after finals

[alphathebluewolf]

That's exactly the point. After so much dehumanization from primary to secondary school, I was ashamed to be human and rather die and wake up as my theriotype.

It's almost surprising to me to see so many therians say that their animal-ness was caused by being dehumanized by humans.( /not negative btw) I'm sorry they made you feel bad :( I just can't relate I'm just kinda like this

[alphathebluewolf]

TW: Vent, mention of harm, species dysphoria

I've finally finished the days of college and now relaxing for Christmas and my birthday before revising for my exam. However, I cannot help but link back to all the urges I got through the past years. In the span of three months in awakening I'd get phantom tail shifts (even rare ear/head shifts I get randomly).

When I was young (during primary and near secondary), I'd always wish like hell that I was a wolf because I'd be running free and out of worry from being bullied and emotionally abused to exhaustion and making me self-harm at 9 years old. Even now, having the thoughts and dreams of being on fours, smelling, hearing, sight; it makes me deeply feel like a wolf and I can't escape it. I need to be a sensible girl for my family and those close. Even if I tried my best to, it will still be there like a chain strangling my neck. Whispering to me that I'm never going to be a perfect, normal daughter. Only a wolf/abomination. I'm trying not to fall into self-harm and depression again.

I hope someone understands. Thank you for reading.

🌿🍃🐺🌲🌱

[alphathebluewolf]

My theriotype

everyone post pics of yourselves!! i wanna see :D i’ll start:

[alphathebluewolf]

I'm so tired rn...

I'm having so much phantom tail shifts. Yesterday or last week in college, the shift was so hard I genuinely thought I had a tail and looked behind me....

[alphathebluewolf]

I'm celebrating Therianthopy day by howling at the moon this evening when the moon comes up.

I've been waiting 3 weeks for this...

🐺🌕⭐

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Made this for fun bc I was bored❤

Also, my theriotype btw...

[alphathebluewolf]

FIRST HANDMADE TAIL!🐺💖

AAAAAHHH!

Just completed my first wool tail and I really need a better brush. Either way it's so fluffy, soft and massive!

[alphathebluewolf]

Bruh...

This evening when returning back home on Halloween, I subconsciously quietly howled at what I thought was the moon but a damn plane in the sky....

God help me, no wonder I have little friends.

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New profile picture. Soon releasing the process of how I drew it.