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Can you do Vanitas and Noé with an s/o whose affection and touch starved

as someone who suffers from affection/touch deficiency, i felt this request way too much 🥹 vani is under the cut

requests are open, if anyone is interested!

Noé Archiviste

↠ Noé is more than happy to indulge you in your touchy-ness! May it be holding hands, playing with your hair or praising you for simple things. He's naturally affectionate, so it's a perfect match.

↠ Thinks it's cute how easily your face warms up whenever he snuggles with you on the couch. When you hide your face in his chest out of embarrassment but still ask for more? Noé can die happy now.

↠ He's definitely surprised when you tell him how rarely people give you a hug. How could anyone not hug you? Are they okay? Do they have tomatoes on their eyes?

↠ Noé keeps his affection limited in public. He'll still hold your hand and give you headpats, but this is as far as he's willing to go. Things such as kissing are for behind closed doors, plus! it makes Noé feel shy.

↠ If you ever wanna fluster the vampire, just rest your hand on his thigh at the dinner table. Mans can and will hit his knee against the table.

↠ "[Name]! N-not here, okay?!"

↠ Although Noé likes showering you with affection, he definitely needs some himself given what happened in his childhood. Just hug him at random times.

↠ A sucker for around-the-waist hugs and kisses on the cheek.

↠ Murr might just get a little jealous over how easily you won over Noé's heart.

Vanitas

↠ At first, Vanitas is a bit careful; maybe even cautious. He's never been in a relationship and for him to accept his feelings towards you was one hell of a ride. As much as he wants to put his hands on your body, he silently fears he'll get you involved into ugly things that are not for your pretty eyes.

↠ Fast forward and Vanitas is a little shit about it. He loves the pout on your lips when he playfully denies you a kiss and has that smug smirk on his lips.

↠ "I dooon't know if you deserve a kiss after you refused to share your piece of cake with me~"

↠ Is quick to cup your pouting face and plant a silly kiss on your lips. "Fear not, mon chérie! For you shall be forgiven for your sins!"

↠ Vanitas is too dramatic about it.

↠ As much as Vanitas likes goofing around with you, he definitely has his more vulnerable and lovely moments with you!

↠ Behind closed doors, away from prying eyes, he likes hugging your back to his chest, your body resting between his legs as you read your book. Vanitas always rests his chin on your shoulder, twirls a strand of your hair and plants kisses on your neck/shoulder.

↠ "Mon amour, are you reading again? Ah, so studious, aren't you?~"

↠ Indulges you in whatever you like. Holding hands, spooning, kissing, praising. You name it, Vanitas will grant you your wish whenever he can. He's just deeply in love with the smile you gift him and that sparkle in your eyes.

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It was raining heavily in Mondstadt on the night that Kaeya Alberich received his Vision.

(familial/not ship)

tried to animate Kaeya’s vision story bc this scene would Not leave my mind…

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Untimely Obligations - Cyno x f!reader

Summary: Cyno tells you a joke to cheer you up, momentarily forgetting you use any opportunity to flirt with him. That tends to make things a little more difficult for him. He needs to wrap up this investigation soon.

Genre: Fluff, humor, flirting, banter, pre-relationship, a smidge of hurt/comfort

Words: 1.3k

I just wanted to see Cyno with a slightly flirty reader but still somehow show that they suited each other lol. This was the result.

"There is a substance in the world that a person can hold, but the longer he holds it, the more it disappears," Cyno tells you. "What is it?"

You sit across the table from Cyno, staring back at him while your expression remains unchanged. You don't give him an answer.

He sighs before he continues. "It's ice," he says. When you don't utter a word, he gives further explanation. "The ice melts in your hand, changing back to its liquid form."

Your eyes don't move, but he raises his brow when he notices you slightly biting your lip. Perhaps you're still confused.

"It's still water, but it cannot be called ice anymore, which is why you can claim it has disappeared."

He continues to elaborate on the joke, but when he starts getting into the nuances of properties of water, you burst out into laughter.

"I'm sorry," you tell him. "I couldn't hold it in anymore."

Oh? Was this joke successful? Cyno continues to cross his arms as you attempt to calm down from your laughter.

"I didn't want to laugh. I wanted you to keep going."

"And why is that?"

"You're just really cute when you do that," you say with a grin. "Besides, I like hearing your voice."

He lets out a scoff and picks up his spoon. His rice is getting cold.

"Anyway, was that supposed to be a joke or a riddle? Because there's a difference you know."

"I thought it was hilarious," he says. "Imagine a child holding an ice cube and then panicking it has disappeared five minutes later."

"You should have explained it that way then," you laugh.

He crosses his arms and clicks his tongue. Fine. One of his jokes will land someday. Besides, he only told the joke because you seemed sad, so he was at least successful in lightening the mood. Why did someone have to come and ask about your sister? He should've known better.

You slip him a piece of paper and he peeks under it to read your note. It's a lead to the investigation he's currently working on. He looks up at you and you have a large and expectant grin on your face.

"Well? Aren't you going to say anything?" you ask him.

He doesn't reply.

"You know. Something like, 'You're so awesome, sweetheart. What ever would I do without you?'"

You never miss an opportunity to flirt with him. He puts the piece of paper away before crossing his arms again. "Excellent work," he tells you. This will help the investigation move more quickly.

"Aww... You're no fun," you pout. "This is an alternative way you can humour me."

He quickly asks another favour of you, and you're a little miffed he didn't play along.

"Yes, I can do that," you tell him. "Her daughter frequents the tavern and I can casually ask how her family is doing. I'm bound to find a few clues from that."

You continue to eat your wrap as Cyno takes more from his plate. This case needs to be wrapped up quickly. He shouldn't have involved you in this first place.

"But why didn't you ask Lambad for help instead? He knows his customers better than I do," you say. "I've only been here for a year."

He pauses from eating and places his spoon down. Looking into your eyes, he simply says, "I trust you."

It was years ago, but he still remembers both the painful yet determined look in your eyes. He was in charge of the investigation involving your sister, and yet you told him exactly where she was hiding. It turned into a painful memory for him, seeing you so heartbroken by your sister's crimes. He couldn't help but secretly keep an eye on you over the years.

"You wouldn't betray your own convictions," he tells you. "You're not so easily swayed by your emotions nor by others."

You widen your eyes, surprised that he made that observation about you.

"Oh?" you ask. "Have I captured your interest then?"

He sighs. He should really get to the bottom of his current case. "How have things been at the tavern?" he asks, changing the topic.

"Nothing too eventful. Just the same old thing. Gossiping people, students, merchants, the occasional traveler from another nation, more gossiping people…," you explain.

There's a twinkle in your eye before you continue. "Besides, if anyone starts to cause any trouble, I just casually mention that you've been coming here fairly frequently."

He has been coming to Lambad's tavern fairly often to take a break even though he'd typically prefer solitude.

"It's nice having a certain strong and handsome guy around," you tell him with a teasing grin.

Your comment catches him off-guard, causing his cheeks to heat up as well. He's been putting up a wall between you, but every so often, you pull a fast one on him.

Footsteps approach from the stairs. Cyno grabs his polearm.

"Cyno, wait." You take his hand.

He releases his breath when the person is in sight.

"It's only Lambad," you explain.

"I just brought up some more food as requested," he says. Cyno glances at you because he didn't order anymore.

"It's for you," you mouth the words to him.

"Anyway," Lambad turns to you, "your break is almost over. You only have five minutes left to flirt with Cyno here."

Cyno widens his eyes. Just how many people knew about your feelings for him? Although, he really shouldn't be surprised by the way you act around him.

"Should I tone it down?" you ask in almost a whisper. Cyno sits back in his seat after Lambad left you two alone again on the second floor.

Cyno raises his brow, not understanding your question.

"With the flirting," you explain. "Does it bother you that much to have other people know I like you?"

You must have read his expression. He can't deny it's been a source of stress for him.

You hold your wrap in front of you. "Well... Then again, I'd probably tarnish your reputation as the great Mahamatra," you say with lowered eyes before taking another bite of your food.

He watches your face and does not detect any lie from you. You truly believed your own words. "There's no need for you to dissociate with me," he says. "With your character, you wouldn't damage my reputation at all."

You choke on your food and he hands you some water. You're almost a bit bashful at his compliment. But when you see he has gone quiet, a smirk tugs on your lips.

"Does this mean I can keep flirting with you?"

He scoffs. Of course you took this as permission to lavish your feelings on him.

"You know... You've never told me to stop," you tell him with a grin sneaking onto your lips.

He thinks back to past interactions with you and sighs. He knows the reason why he has never asked you to stop flirting with him.

"Are you actually secretly interested in me?" you say with a wink.

Cyno rubs his temple. "I do think you need to stop flirting with me."

"What? Well... I…," you lower your eyes. "I think… I'll need some time to adjust, so…"

"Just stop until I wrap up this investigation." He grabs his polearm and leaves the table. "I've involved you too much with this case," he says. "I need to make sure you're safe first."

He already promised himself to look for you once the right people were behind bars. It's only right for you to get a clear answer from him soon.

"Oh… I see…," you say in a lowered voice. "Alright, I'll stop until…"

Cyno steps down the stairs and heads towards the door.

"Wait! What?!?!?!"

He places a hand on his forehead. Maybe he shouldn't have mentioned that yet, but it's true. He wants you to stay by his side and keep flirting with him in the future.

He just needs to ensure your safety is secured first.

I hope you liked it. :) I have some other fics too so please check out the rest of my blog.

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i really just needed an excuse to talk about tattooed!kazuha yes it’s another modern au drabble

“What does this one mean?”

You were sitting next to your -currently shirtless- boyfriend, Kazuha, tracing your finger over his inked shoulder blade, following the trail of black forming a downward triangle with wings. Always fascinated by the art on his body, you had often admired the tattoos but never really asked about them. 

“Hmm, my friend Venti came up with the design for it, actually. We got drunk with a couple of friends one night and spontaneously decided to get tattoos together,” he chuckled. You could already imagine what friends he was talking about, raising a questioning eyebrow when you remembered a particularly stoic fellow. “Well, with varying degrees of enthusiasm, of course. But you know how Venti can be when he set his mind to something, especially when drunk. Besides, Xiao doesn´t hate us as much as he´d like everyone to believe.”

Now it was your time to laugh, vivid memories of the teal-haired man dragging his four drunk friends through the streets, desperately trying to prevent them from doing something stupid. Despite not wanting to accept it, he was the mom friend of the group and he´d be damned if anything happened to either of them.

“So what about this one?” Running your fingers up his arm, you followed what appeared to be a gust of wind carrying maple leaves up to meet the previously discussed art, forming an elegant sleeve.

“Ah, this one. It reminds me of home.” He let out a blissful sigh, crimson eyes softening at the mere mention. “In the town where I grew up, every autumn, the maple leaves would turn a deep vermillion and blanket entire streets in a thick layer of colour. It was quite the sight to behold, one I am still very fond of. One day, I hope I can experience this miracle again, with you by my side.”

The thought alone made your heart leap with joy and you offered a smile as genuine as his words. “I´d love to go with you, I´m quite interested to see where you grew up.”

“Great, it´s a promise then.” Kazuha intertwined his hands with yours, running his lithe fingers over the back of your hand as he noticed your gaze drift to the tattoo spanning his spine. “No questions about that one?”

“Well, I mean I do but…” Very hesitantly, you extended a hand towards it, although stopping before you could make contact with the mark. It was only when your boyfriend slightly turned his torso to grant you easier access to his back that your fingers touched the black lines. Mapping out the artwork, your eyes followed your digits on their path to forming a katana which was seemingly struck by lightning. “It seems different from the others. There´s such a seriousness to it, I don´t know how to ask about it.”

“It´s okay, I don´t mind. You are correct, though, when you say it´s more serious than the others. I got it to honour the loss of a dear friend.” His words seemed to send an electric current up your arm and down your own spine, goosebumps rising in its wake. “He was always looking for a new challenge or a new adrenaline rush and we did a lot of stupid stuff together. Then, he became fascinated with the idea of scaling a mountain infamous for its increased risk of lightning strikes. Despite my warnings, when I came back from a trip out of town, I´m sure you can imagine what sort of news I received.”

Swiftly retreating your hand from his skin as if you had cut yourself on the blade, you sucked in a harsh breath. “Oh Kazuha, I´m so sorry. I didn´t know…”

“No, no, I told you it´s alright, didn´t I, my love? This took place a long time ago and I´ve made my peace with it.” Gently guiding your fingers back to his spine, he pressed your palm against the dark lines again. “I have no qualms talking about what happened. My friend made a choice and I have to respect it, no matter the outcome. Of course, at first, I resented him and that mountain. But after all this time, I do not want to hold on to these feelings of regret and questions of ‘what if’. Rather, I´d like to think back fondly on all the positive memories we created”

“You´re amazing, do you know that? I don´t think a lot of people have that kind of strength.”

“Maybe that´s true,” he admitted. “But I can´t help but think that you´re a vital part of that strength. Your presence comforts me and I feel at ease even when I´m vulnerable in front of you. With you, I don´t need to run or hide who I truly am; I am no longer a leaf simply blowing in the wind. More than anything, I want to share my life with you, no matter if it's the euphoric highs or the unfortunate tragedies. In the end, I know I´ll be okay because I have you to return to, in the knowledge that you´ll welcome me home with open arms. I´m very grateful for what you do for me, I hope you´ll never forget that.”

“How can you spin every conversation into complimenting me, hm?” Your tone was light despite the tears threatening to weigh down your lower lash line. In an effort to convey your emotions, you leaned forward to place a kiss right between his bare shoulder blades, lips lingering when you felt Kazuha relax even more into your touch. “That´s quite the high praise your showering me with. All the same, I hope you´ll never forget that I always have your back.”

“I´m torn between being exasperated at the pun or kissing you senseless for being so sweet.”  You burst out laughing, forehead leaning against Kazuha´s shaking shoulders.

“Why not both?” you replied cheekily.

“Hmm, I believe that can be arranged.”

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#to you who i loved the most — chapter 1

THE ONE WHO REMEMBERS — a genshin smau by blue

MASTERLIST

#TRIVIA

again, a/n means “assumed name” / “alias”

no, the time doesn’t matter lmao haha

i actually forgot to add y/n’s dump on the character list so yeah i’m adding it there

who is in y/n’s wallpaper? hahaha guess who

#NOTES

i was supposedly not posting today bc ive been so busy but yayyyy im glad i got to! also, the apps i used are not the ones i used before so like:((( yeah it’s not good quality but yeah i hope i was able to show off chapter one good at the very least!!

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Scaramouche: I want to kiss you. Y/N, not paying attention: What? Scaramouche: I said if you die, I wont miss you.

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: ̗̀➛ our sweet adorable… child? wait-

scaramouche x reader

fluff

794 words

note: scara referred to reader as the kid’s mom once but they/them pronouns still used. not really proofread hehe.

you didn’t know that having a kid around would allow you the opportunity to witness another side of scaramouche you thought you would never see.

scaramouche could only look at you with furrowed brows with his arms crossed on his chest. “the hell is that?” he scoffed.

“a… child?” you answered unsurely with a hint of ‘isn’t-it-obvious?’ tone, hugging the frame of the little girl closer to your body.

the young man clicked his tongue in annoyance, tapping his foot impatiently on the ground. “where did you get it?”

“she spawned from the sky— for archon’s sake, i have no idea either!” you snapped back and cleared your throat after. “but really, i was looking at the stalls in the market a while ago when she suddenly held my hand and tagged along. i tried asking where her parents are but she seems to not know and i’m guessing she’s around four years old?”

he scanned the girl in your grasp and the kid stared back innocently. she turned her body to his direction and stretched out her arms.

you chuckled and walked closer to scaramouche and he reluctantly held her. “what’s your name, little one?” he inquired warily.

“yuina!” she cheerfully answered, craning her neck to the side and gazed curiously at the red strings dangling from his hat.

yuina leaned forward and rested her chin on scaramouche’s shoulder and reached out to pull the string downward, causing him to throw his head back a bit and you stifled a laugh.

scaramouche groaned and immediately went to lecture her. yuina couldn’t help but pout sadly as her ears took in all his scolding.

“kunikuzushi.”

his head snaps towards you upon sensing the emphasis of threat in your voice. you irritatedly signaled him to look at yuina’s state and so he did.

scaramouche stared at her glossy eyes, red nose, and flushed cheeks while trying not to let out a sob.

his eyes widened slightly for a fraction of second before stuttering out an apology. “s-sorry. don’t cry, yuina. i’m not mad at you, hush now.” he gently pats her head before proceeding to wipe away her tears with his thumb.

“k-kuni…zuhi…?” she imitated but only jumbled her own words.

“you’ll get it right next time,” he sighed.

“kuni made my yuina upset? what should we do to get back at him?” you joked and squeezed her chubby cheeks softly.

“‘m hungry.” yuina cheekily smiled. with her simple gesture, both you and scaramouche were stunned for a moment with how cute she is.

“then let’s make kunikuzushi pay for our food!” you suggested and scaramouche could only let out a huff.

“yuina,” she pointed at herself and you two pay attention to what she was going to say next. “papa… mama…” she then pointed at scaramouche and then you.

“ridiculous. we are not your paren—mhmp!” you gently slapped his mouth shut and just nodded at her. “we can be your second mom and dad, yuina! we’ll take care of you.” you reassured and she let out a small ‘yay!’

he reached out in his pocket and fished out a chocolate candy. scaramouche unwraps it with one hand and brought it closer to yuina’s face.

she instinctively reaches for it but scaramouche brings his hand further away, making the child whine. “ah-ah-ah. if your hands get dirty, you might wipe it on my clothes. let me feed it to you instead.” he reasons out, voice uncharacteristically soft and gentle.

“how come you never feed me affectionately like that?” you shamelessly sputtered and he grimaced at your statement. “grow up, y/n.” he snarled, bringing back his attention to yuina as she gratefully munched on the treat.

“could be saying the same thing to you,” you whispered. “what?” he glared. “nothing!”

“don’t be like your mom, they’re always so mean to me.” he feigned hurt and yuina giggled before agreeing, scaramouche smiled in victory before insisting a high-five with her.

“why are you teaming up on me now, huh?” you playfully scrunched your nose disappointingly.

“let’s leave y/n now and we’ll buy you whatever you want to eat, yes? good.” he insisted.

yuina happily booped scaramouche’s nose. he stilled in shock and for once today, he breaks and smiles.

“feeling bold now, are we?” he teased and lowered his head a bit so that his nose could touch hers. being a witness of this tugged your heartstrings in the best way possible and you could just melt there and then at the sight.

you didn’t even notice that they were both looking at you expectantly. “are you just going to stare at us and not eat?” he sassed and you excitedly walked to his right side, your hand finding its way to hold his unoccupied hand.

perhaps it wouldn’t be too bad if you and scaramouche keep yuina for the rest of the day.

and if i suddenly kill yuina then what

just kidding hehe. scaramouche’s backstory was my main reason for writing this in one sitting and i hope you guys enjoyed it as much as i do!

i really really hope this was to your liking nakskkw rbs are greatly appreciated ty ily pls take care *smooches*

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Please, I beg you, gift us with some Cyno fluff headcanons where he comforts reader after finding them crying

–angst, comfort, fluff, slight protectiveness 

and bc i had a slight meltdown yesterday....

CYNO

He’s absolutely frantic whenever he sees you cry. 

The first time he did find you crying, however, he was frozen in place for several seconds after realizing that you were crying by yourself and he was debating whether it was right for him to burst in or not. Soon entering once the thought that you might’ve been harmed came to mind, now convinced that this must be because of a physical injury. 

But it’s not. It seems. 

When he does realize this, you had already seen him–which had taken you by a surprise. 

“C-Cyno? What…” he watches with crunched brows as you hurriedly wipe your tears away, frowning deeply upon the mere sight alone, “What are you doing here? I… I thought you’re… you’re busy?” 

He’ll be very guilty. Even if it clearly wasn’t his fault, he’ll feel a tug in his chest that makes him feel so–it was his fault for not being here by your side, for not noticing the tell-tale signs before your meltdown. 

But he doesn’t say sorry. Because right now, all he feels is rage. 

Who in the world did this to you? 

Even if your problem was mostly self-related, he’d be more inclined over the fact that someone else triggered it–if it was, he’d definitely take note of that name and… well, he’ll remember it if it ever comes up again or if they appear right in front of him. They shall be held responsible the moment you shed your tears for them. He’ll definitely look into them and if he could and they disobey/ed the law, he shall make sure they will be severely and rightfully punished. 

He’s not exactly the best at comforting someone… but his very first thought would be to crack a joke, And so he does. 

“What is 78% nitrogen, 21% oxygen, and 1% other gas that can pierce you?” 

You looked at him with a hint of confusion and sadness still lingering in your eyes, “W-what?” 

He mistook your question. Or he just accepted it on his own, “Atmosphere.” 

It took you a while to brush off the confusion in you, but it was not too long when you heaved out a scoff and weak chuckle, smiling ever so lightly, blinking with tears still staining your lashes and cheeks.

Despite deeming his joke successful, he lets out a nervous laugh and a “Was it… not funny? How about-” only to halt when you shook your head silently, shuffling only to wrap your hands his way, making him lean further into you, letting himself sit fully on the ground, right beside you. 

“Are.. are you feeling unwell?” Of course, you are, he’d think, “Would you… I mean, if you’d like to share it, only if you do, I shall be here to lend you my ear.” 

“Then… I’ll lend you for today… can I?” 

He couldn’t help but tighten his hold on you and let you situate yourself over his lap, your weight leaning into him with your head on his chest. 

“Of course. Whatever it is you wish for.” 

Would most likely be quite awkward, but he tries! He cracks jokes more often when he was still hugging you, and he would also tries to cook you up a nice meal! Well, after that, he’ll probably coax you into playing TCG–only if you want to! But he’s just doing this so he can distract you, and for him to intentionally lose every single time. And yep, even if he was quite obvious about it… it was the thought that counts anyway. 

But if you wish to just cuddle, then it’s cuddling that you’ll have.

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Jade Winged

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𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐊𝐘 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐄 — 𝐌𝐈𝐓𝐒𝐔𝐘𝐀 𝐓𝐀𝐊𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐈

"shit," you mumble to yourself at the unintentional scratch of lead marring the design you've been working on. your hand reaches for the softened rubber to correct your mistake.

no matter how many times you run the eraser back and forth over your indecisive lines, the pencil markings won't disappear. a frustrated huff pushes past your lips as you tear the page from the sketchbook you're borrowing from mitsuya. that bit makes you feel a little guilty for wasting so much of his paper but, when you think about it, this is all because of him anyway.

the parchment pokes at your palms as you crumple the piece of paper. you toss it into the growing pile of others just like it before rubbing your eyes with the heels of your palms.

"not going well?" you register mitsuya's familiar voice immediately as he rounds the furniture you're settled on. you can feel the couch dip with his added weight. hands warmed from the steam of a shower wrap around your ankles, gently pulling your legs so that your calves are resting on his thighs.

you uncover your eyes to look at mitsuya. his lavender hair is still damp from the shower, the fluffy ends brushing the top of his bare shoulders with each rise and fall of his chest. matching, droopy eyes bore into you but the lazy smile playing at his lips makes his stare less intimidating and persuades you to share your struggles. "no, it's not. maybe you should be the one doing this."

"that wasn't the deal." mitsuya laughs, letting his fingers run down from your knee to your foot and back up. the movement is almost graceful and despite how minuscule it is, the comfort behind it is palpable. "you're supposed to design it, i'm just in charge of making it."

you click your tongue at mitsuya's observation. "we made that deal when we were teenagers. shouldn't there be a statute of limitations on it?"

your attempt to nullify the agreement makes him snort. "you're the one who insisted—don't you remember?"

you do remember. even though it was years ago, you remember the moment like it was yesterday.

days like these are your favorite—the ones where your head rests comfortably in mitsuya's lap under the sakura tree you've claimed as yours, the ones when he isn't running off to meet with that gang of his. they're peaceful afternoons just for the two of you.

he shields your face from the gust of wind with his hand that lingers even after the cool breeze passes. his thumb caresses your cheekbone as he stares down at you. your eyes are trained up, watching the cherry blossoms fall from the branches and float down to the lush green grass beneath you. when you speak, you still aren't looking at him.

"you know how you said you're going to marry me?" your gaze follows another pink flower that the air carries from the sky to the ground. except the blossom doesn't come to lay in the grass with the others. instead, it lands on the vest of your school uniform.

mitsuya picks up the flower by its sepal, lightly twirling it between his pointer finger and thumb. "i do."

your eyes finally move to meet his wisteria ones. "did you mean it—like really mean it?"

"of course." there's no hesitation in his answer as he moves to tuck the blossom behind your ear. his fingers brush the stray hairs away from your face. you look like a painting—a work of art. he smiles down at you and it's almost as bright as the shining sun itself. "i want to be by your side for the rest of my life."

your heart skips a beat at mitsuya's declaration. you can't count the number of times you've heard him say it but you'll never get tired of hearing those words.

you grin happily at the thought that passes your mind. "that means it's only right for you to make the dress i design, right? i want a mitsuya takashi exclusive."

he chuckles at the added comment. you've always been so sure that he'll succeed in the fashion world. and who is he to tell his biggest supporter and the love of his life no? "i will make whatever your heart desires."

you extend your pinky, wiggling the finger as a smile stretches across your lips. "seal the deal with a pinky promise."

your demand draws a snort from mitsuya but he still does as you say. poking out his own pinky, he hooks his finger with yours before leaning down so that both of you can kiss your thumbs. after all, it doesn't count if you don't.

you toss your head back dramatically and let it hang from the arm of the couch. "i don't want my dress to look like shit, takashi," you punctuate your statement with a sigh.

mitsuya feels a little guilty smiling at your dejection. he supposes the stress from other wedding-related planning is bleeding into your dress designing and making the task more difficult than you imagined. he's still determined to make your dream dress but if there's anything he can do to take some of that weight off of your shoulders, he won't think twice about doing it.

he reaches out to squeeze one of your legs that's resting on his thighs. "i have an idea."

you quickly pull yourself up from the uncomfortable position to look at mitsuya. your vision is a little wobbly from the dizziness that swims in your head due to your sudden movement. as soon as mitsuya's figure is fixed in one place and you're seeing straight again, you raise your eyebrows in a gesture for him to present his idea.

"what if i," he picks up the sketchbook and pencil you abandoned when he joined you in the living room, "do all the drawing? tell me all the details and i'll put your thoughts on paper."

he's already started to outline the upper half of a mannequin on the clean page even before you've agreed to his new terms, terms that practically put all of the work on him. you huff out a laugh and nudge the pad of paper by jerking your leg. "you're willing to quash our deal because i'm incompetent?"

"no way." he lightly pinches the skin on your knee and chooses to ignore the whole "incompetent" thing because you're actually far from it. "it's still your design, i'm just sketching it out for you."

you press your lips together to keep a goofy grin from breaking out on your face. you know the pile of discarded pages and your show of theatrics must have concerned him; he wouldn't have made the offer otherwise. and it's just like mitsuya to go out of his way to find a loophole so that neither of you breaks the promise you made when you were high schoolers.

you wiggle your legs out from beneath the sketchbook and sit up on your knees, crawling to sit beside your fiancé. you run a hand through his soft lilac locks, planting a kiss on his cheek before nuzzling your head in the juncture between his neck and shoulder. "i can't wait to call you my husband."

thanks for reading! comments and reblogs are greatly appreciated!

[afchicken]

Repost of the request because it didn’t show up in the tags

Various Genshin Men x Reader no pronouns specified

Summary: how they show affection

Warnings: suggestion of drunkenness and possibly ooc characters

Main Masterlist

Albedo:

He loves everything about you, he doesn’t say it often, so he shows it

Through little doodles and sketches of you

Sometimes he just draws random objects that remind him of you and he slips it into your bag when you’re getting ready to travel

He knows his time may be limited, so he draws for you so you’ll remember him

Arataki Itto:

Every time he sees you he has a bright smile plasterd on his face

He runs up to you picks you up, spins you around and hugs you tightly into his chest

He likes giving you spontaneous hugs at sometimes the most inconvenient times

He hugs you quite tightly as well and refuses to let go for a while

Ayato:

He shows his affection by letting you have the last sip of his bubble tea

He was quite reluctant, so be grateful

But besides that, he likes to interlock your pinkies in a promise that you’ll love each other for eternity

Instead of holding hands, he interlocks your pinkies in public, a small gesture, but it makes him feel more safe

Childe/Tartaglia:

Money, he straight up just throws money at you /j

Childe shows his affection through spending time with you

He wasn’t able to spend much time with his family because of his occupation in the Fatui, so he likes spending as much time as he can with you

Even if he’s just siting down next to you, it’s enough for the two of you

Cyno:

He just lays on you

Cyno’s a busy man and he’s exhausted once the day is over

But he won’t lay on just anyone, it has to be you

Otherwise, he just sits on the floor pouting and refuses to rest until he at least sees you

After he’s seen you, he then proceeds to lay on you

Keep reading

[afchicken]

to have a family scaramouche x gn!spouse!reader... maybe a small bundle of joy too (MODERN AU AND PURE FLUFF FLUFF FLUFF)

the small baby sucked and attempted to bite into a toy with his teeth that haven't even grown in. once he realized it wasn't going to work, he flipped the toy upside down and was bound to chew on the other end before his father snatched it from him.

chubby, grabby hands reached for it, followed by quiet whines as scaramouche tutted, "come now, you should eat actual food."

to his surprise, the baby started biting on his own fingers instead and scaramouche panicked. "h-hey, don't do that, you'll hurt yourself!" he exclaimed, gently trying to tug his son's fingers from his mouth.

scaramouche picked up the child from his crib and sighed.

"your favourite parent is going to be here soon, rest assured, kuzushi." he deadpanned as soon as he saw his son's eyes light up. scaramouche jutted his chin in pride with a scoff, "well, i'll always be the better cook."

walking to the kitchen with the baby in his arms, he settled him into the high chair so he could open one of the cabinets, grabbing a jar labeled as baby food.

he popped out the cap and dipped a small spoon inside before making his way back to the fussy child, who began to whimper and cry. scaramouche pulled up a chair, "papa's little baby is hungry, hm?"

it's surprising, just how identical kuzushi is to his father. with big, round, violet eyes and long indigo hair that usually had to be tied back, the only thing he inherited from you in appearance would be your fascinating skin tone.

kuzushi already had his mouth wide open, making quiet sounds of, 'ah, ah', indicating he was indeed, hungry. scaramouche chuckled and fed him a spoonful of vegetable puree, which kuzushi ate up to his content.

"eat a lot so you'll grow big and strong just like your papa." scaramouche cooed as the baby giggled. the sound of the doorbell caused the both of them to glance at the entrance out of instinct.

scaramouche put down the jar of puree and rushed to open the front door. "my love," he sighed out with a grin. you smiled back at him, his heart fluttering in his chest.

"hello, darling! i trust kuzushi wasn't too much work." you greeted as scaramouche helped you bring the grocery bags inside. kuzushi leaned over his high chair, babbling incoherent words when he saw you.

you made your way to him in long strides, "and hello to you too, baby! mwah!" you kissed his rosy cheeks, your son giggling. scaramouche groaned and jokingly commented, "and nothing special for me after i took care of our demanding son?"

you laughed and caressed your husband's face, placing a lovely kiss against his frown. your mouth enveloped his so perfectly; scaramouche adored your kisses. his lips gradually curled up into a smile that was only meant for you and his son.

kuzushi suddenly shouted, knocking the puree jar off of the high chair table. scaramouche rolled his eyes, "looks like someone's jealous."

you grinned, relaxing in scaramouche's embrace and you kissed him one more time. "i love the both of you, there should be no competition between my favourite boys." you ruffled kuzushi's hair as he glared at his father.

kuzushi grabbed onto your shirt with a pout, striving to keep you with him. you nervously chuckled as scaramouche clung to your other side. the two threw dirty looks at each other.

"baby... he's two years old-"

"he's a mastermind."

© scaralvr.

[afchicken]

the boys as your roommate in college

parings: xiao, childe, & albedo x gn!reader

warnings/content: mostly fluff, mentions of injury (cuts & bruises)

-> xiao

being roommates with xiao was interesting to say the least. when you first met him, he literally never talked to you unless he had to.

if you didn't know any better, you could've swore you were living with a ghost. the only greetings you would exchange were good mornings and good nights

after two months of this nonsense, you decided enough was enough. when you came back from your long day of classes, you confidently approached xiao's door with your chest puffed and head held high. you knock firmly, trying to hold onto your faltering confidence.

"come in." the response was muffled through the door. you slowly unlock and push it open, peaking your head in first. the room was very dark. the curtains were closed and not a single light was on. well, except the blaring bright screen of xiao's monitor that was very focused on. you assumed he was gaming; it's all he ever does.

his eyes remained focus on his gaming, paying no mind to you. "um xiao, are you busy? i can come back later." you were just about to peep your head back out before xiao stopped you. "i'm not busy. what's up?" his attention still not on you.

you inhale deeply, walking into his room and closing the door behind you. here goes nothing. "i- uh, well. here's the thing; i really hate how we never talk even though we live under the same roof! i know nothing about you, your interests, your personal life, literally nothing! and i really wanna talk to you because you seem like a cool person but you're really giving me the impression you hate me." that came out a lot faster than intended.

xiao's cheeks were flaming. he removed his headset and paused his game, turning around in his chair so he was face to face with you. "um, i'm sorry." he softly confessed, avoiding your gaze. "i don't really get along with people. but we can be friends, or uh at least try. sorry for being a douche."

you were satisfied with his response. after that day, you invited xiao out to lunch all the time to study. you guys even began having weekly movie nights!

you soon found out that xiao actually has a twitch account with two hundred thousand subscribers. he invited you to join his stream onetime and his fans went absolutely insane.

comments like "are they your s/o???" "omg who's that xiao, they're so hot wtf??" "y'all have to be dating" flooded in and xiao couldn't hide his blushing. he couldn't deny the comments assumptions, he ended up developing a little crush on you.

but he wouldn't confess anytime soon, afraid of messing up the amazing relationship you two shared. (or really because he doesn't know how to confess)

-> childe

you were surprised this boy wasn't in a frat when you first met him. spoiler alert: he was.

when you had asked him why he wasn't living in the frat house, all he said was "the boys are too rowdy. i prefer my personal space."

you found that very hard to believe. he was out partying every weekend and had at least two girls on his side at all times.

"come on, come to the party with me! you never go." he pouted, bending over to rest his elbows on the kitchen counter with his  irresistible face resting on his palms. "for the hundredth time ajax, i don't feel like spending my lovely friday night surrounded by sweaty bodies & puking college students." you placed a lid on the pot of pasta you were cooking.

"ugh you're a party pooper." he dramatically groans & comes around to where your finished garlic bread was. "besides, it's not like you have anything else planned!" he says taking a big bite of the bread.

"well excuse you," you snatched the bread out of his hand, leaving you with a very sad childe. "i have a date with edward cullen!" "you've seen twilight a million times." "your point being?"

one night, childe didn't come home. you had assumed he was at another one of his hook ups or he had just crashed at scaramouche's. but the next morning, you saw childe sprawled across your couch with the nastiest cuts and bruises you have ever seen. there was an open first aid kit on the coffee table showing that he at least attempted to clean himself up.

"you idiot." you whispered to yourself. you shook him awake gently, not knowing what other injuries this dumbass might have. he stirred and let out a groan, "5 more minutes, promise."

you were not having it. "ajax you better wake your ass up right now or so help me god i will throw a vase at you." he sat up so quick you flinched a bit. your eyes scan his shirtless body, evaluating all of the injures. without thinking, you begin to trace the bruise on his right shoulder.

"what happened to you? and more importantly why didn't you wake me up?" you mumble, still fixated on the bruise. childe's cheeks heated up at the skin to skin contact. he never blushes. "uhm i didn't wanna bother you? waking you is basically asking for death." he teased lightly. you snap your gaze up to his. "ajax, i'm literally a pre-med student. what else is hurting?"

childe explained how he got into a physical fight because someone was insulting you. he of course wasn't having it, so he beat the other guy to a pulp. the guy wasn't as good of a fighter as childe was of course, but he managed to get a few hits in. after that day, you looked at childe in a new light. he protected your name and got hurt in the process; something that meant a lot to you.

slowly, childe started changing too. no more random hookups, no more partying every weekend (he even joined you on your rom-com movie nights), and no more recklessness. he realized that he wanted to be a better person for you. a better possible love interest for you. and before he knew it, he had fallen hopelessly in love with you.

-> albedo

being roommates with albedo was a surprise waiting for you everyday. his room was practically a science lab. at random times in the middle of the night, you'll occasionally hear a big bang from his room. this night, it was particularly very loud. rushing over in your sleepwear, you'd slam his room door open to see a puff of dark grey smoke coating the room.

you pull your shirt up over your nose and attempt to swat the smoke away with your hand. "cough cough, albedo? are you okay- cough." you could barely make out his figure in the thick smoke, but continue to walk towards him. before you could take another step, albedo bolts towards you, grabbing your wrist. he runs out of the room, dragging you with him. once you're out to safety, he shuts the door behind him.

"y/n! are you alright, let me see your eyes. can you breath fine?" he grabs you by the shoulders and brings your body very close to his. the lack of space between you is enough to make you forget everything. "i- um, i'm- i'm fine albedo. what happened? what was that?" you managed to speak. once he's sure you're alright, he pulls away a bit and loosens the grip on your shoulders. he looks at his bedroom door, "an experiment went wrong. i wasn't expecting the outcome to go wrong so horribly." he returns his eyes back to you with an apologetic smile. "i don't think it's safe for us to sleep here tonight."

after that incident, you and albedo both agreed that no more experiments should be tested in the dorm. (the RA may or may not have also banned him from it) you did feel bad for albedo, so you offered to assist him at the college laboratory on your free time. you were a biology major so it worked perfectly.

you guys had long nights full of laughter and fun in the lab. most nights security had to kick you guys out because you lost track of time.

overtime, albedo was sure that he developed romantic feelings for you. he's never felt this way about anyone before. he wants to confess, he truly does, but he just doesn't know how to go about it.

[afchicken]

Can I request a xiao fic/headcanon about what he'd react like if you didn't come home from a commission?

this was requested over 1.5 months ago and I finally got around to it now! sorry for the long wait!

Xiao's Reaction to You Returning Home Late

Fandom: Genshin Impact

Characters: Xiao x gn!Reader

Type/Genre: Bulleted headcanons, fluff?

Warnings: mentions of injury

A/N: Could've went an angst route but decided to have a lighter ending to balance out all the angst I've been writing <3

Tries to calm down by reasoning with himself, but can’t stop his fears from creeping into his thoughts.

Maybe you finished the commission late and found an inn to stay at for the night.

Or maybe you were still fighting, all alone in the night.

Even if you didn’t come home today, you’d be home in the next few days.

But what if you never returned?

You were fine. You knew that if you were in danger, all you had to do was call his name, and he’d be there by your side in a heartbeat.

But what if you were caught by surprise and was so injured you couldn’t even utter his name?

Paces around the inn, jaw clenched as he gripped his spear tightly in his hand.

Huai’an has to tell him to put it away, whispering that he’s scaring the guests.

Right when he’s convinced you’re hurt or worse, he sees you while Huai’an is scolding him.

You see a flash of green leaping from the balcony of the inn, and the next thing you know someone lunges at you, nearly knocking you off your feet.

Almost gives you a heart attack and you think you’re being attacked.

Doesn’t take you long to realize it’s your boyfriend. You laugh, asking him what was wrong.

He doesn’t respond for a while, too busy burying his face in the crook of your neck as he deeply inhales your scent.

“Don’t worry me like that again. Being away from you is...difficult for me.”

[afchicken]

the color of love is…

pairing: kaeya x gn!reader

summary: where kaeya accidentally drinks sucrose’s love potion, and you unfortunately happen to be the first person he sees. 14k

featuring: rivals to lovers, 2k backstory because i can’t write this trope without establishing one, drinking, minor violence, jealousy, misunderstandings, reader being the most oblivious person alive

Like any other night, Angel’s Share remained restlessly alive even after the neighboring houses had dimmed their lights and sunken into deep slumbers. The torch outside was blazing, quivering every time the drunken yells from inside shook the air. Tonight, the hollering was especially loud.

“Kaeya! Kaeya! Kaeya!” Adventurers, knights and citizens alike cheered as the disheveled captain tossed his head back, downed another shot, and slammed the glass onto the sticky table. The impact sent another one falling over the edge, and one of the spectators scrambled to catch it. 

“Your turn—” he hiccuped— “sweetheart.”

“Drop the name, asshole,” you slumped forward and grabbed a shot, finishing it in one gulp. The crowd erupted in awestruck cheers. One moment your head felt like it was being dragged to the bottom of the sea, and the other you were floating without gravity. Even in your state of disorientation, you refused to break eye contact with the figure in front of you.

You recalled in the back of your head how this was supposed to be a relaxing evening. You’d just spent the early afternoon in the laboratory helping Sucrose brew potions after potions, and your brain could’ve really used some loosening up. Turned out luck wasn’t on your side at all, for the moment you entered the tavern, the familiar face of Kaeya Alberich turned to you. There went your chances of getting a peaceful night.

Diluc happened to be absent today, off somewhere making deals with merchants. That’s the only reason why the two of you were even allowed to have a drinking contest in the first place, because god knows he’d kick you out before you could even start. 

However, this wasn’t a rare occurrence at all. Kaeya never missed an opportunity to drag you into contests that would surely result in a head-splitting hangover the following day. And you weren’t any better. All it took was a bit taunting for you to accept his declaration of war, like a moth to fire.

“Wre- wrestle.” You demanded, throwing your elbow onto the table. Unfazed, Kaeya clasped your hand tightly and— BAM , your knuckles hit the wood. More cheering.

“Fuck,” you murmured before drinking another shot.

Next to you were Venti (out for the count) and Rosaria (refused to participate in your ‘stupid game’). The latter had the heart to give your back a soothing pat as you suppressed the lump in your chest.

“Can one of you just give up? This is taking forever.” She said flatly.

“Sure,”

“No.”

You glared at Kaeya and his permanent shit-eating grin, “I’m gonna win this once and for all. I will ob… oble- ugh,”

“Obliterate?” Bruce suggested, having come down from upstairs for the show.

“Yea, that.” Your words came like waves, blurred and overlapping. “I’m the greatest wine-bubble in town.”

“Winebibber,” Rosaria said.

“Winebibble,” you nodded.

With an amused smirk Kaeya bowed his head to the side to get a good look at you. His hair, tousled after having his hands run through it for umpteen times, cascaded down like someone had just knocked over a cupful of night sky. “You’re tipsy already.”

You rolled your eyes at him. “I’m not. It’s your turn, asshole.”

The night dragged out, and another bottle was emptied. Charles watched from behind the bar, eyes grim with horror as you lined up the newly-filled tumblers in a horizontal line. You threw your satchel somewhere empty on the table, and the content flooded out. They were mostly miscellaneous samples Sucrose had given you as gifts of gratitude. You ignored the vials rolling around.

“Next one,” you sandwiched your face between your palms to keep it from spinning. By now his cape was already nowhere to be seen. “Blink and you lose.”

He scoffed. “You’ve never won before.”

“Try me.”

You narrowed your eyes in concentration, staring dead into Kaeya’s unmoving one. The air was thick with anticipation, all around you were heavy indrawn breaths as the crowd looked back and forth between you two.

After a tense beat where nothing moved, your mind started to wander. Lunch, bladework, dandelion seeds. Then you reckoned that, if you were to close your eyes, you could probably conjure an image of him that’s correct down to the very detail. You almost attempted right there until you remembered that you were in a staring contest. Perhaps you really were drunk.

A skilled reader of your expressions, Kaeya curled his lips when he realized that you were slipping away. Not only that, your lids were also fluttering, eyes begging for moisture.

Meanwhile Kaeya looked as unbothered as ever. Maybe he’d already blinked, you were just too drunk to notice it.

Moments before your body gave in, you gritted your teeth and kicked him under the table. It hit him right in the shin, and he doubled over in pain. His eye shut as he winced loudly. The crowd made a sound of mild surprise.

“You lost.”

“No, you cheated!” he said incredulously. He must’ve been so displeased, because as soon as his voice dropped, he split into two images. No matter how hard you blinked, he wouldn’t merge back into a singular Kaeya.

“I don’t care. There’s no rue- rule stating that I can’t disturb my opponent. Drink up,” you said, but your words sounded miles away. “Ah, ah, ah,” you made some random noises to make sure you were hearing correctly.

He looked like he still had a lot to say, but instead he clicked his tongue, snatched a glass and emptied it. You were still wondering about why there were two of him when he clicked his tongue. “What’s this? Tastes weird,”

Through the dizziness, you could still make out the color of the remaining liquid. Your heart sagged. Sweat gathered under your nose. “What d’you drink?”

“Something weird,” he repeated. “Ugh, it’s so sweet. Tastes like a…like a cloying love song,” whatever the hell that meant. “Why’s it pink?”

“Oh, hell no,” Rosaria muttered under her breath. You looked back and forth between the frowning man and the vial, the cogwheels in your head spinning and spinning and spinning until you realized what he’d just put inside his body.

You saw your bewildered reflection in Kaeya’s eye. The words formed in your throat but died on your tongue. You could tell the exact moment the potion took root.

He burped.

And then you passed out.

—

From the comfort of your slumber you were awakened by persistent knocks on the door. This morning, your body seemed hellbent on chastising you for the reckless intake of alcohol. Your head was screaming with murderous intent, and your throat felt like a desert that hadn't been touched by a single drop of water for eons. The ache in your limbs had you wonder whether you’d run through all of Mondstadt in your drunken state.

You lay unmoving in the position you'd woken up in, and contemplated staying like this forever. The sun was in your eyes, but the will to move had long left you. Events from last night eluded you. Trying to recall drunken memories was like looking for a seashell in a raging storm.

Another series of knocking. You promptly rolled out of the bed, the collision sending another wave of pain.

Death would be merciful in comparison.

Lisa was standing on the other side of the door, a basket hanging from her elbow. The sweet aroma of fresh bread enveloped you. “Mornin’, are you here to relieve me of my suffering?”

“As always,” she walked past with familiarity. “I heard about what happened last night.”

“Great, because I don’t remember a second of it,” you sat down at the dining table, watching her present the food in front of you. “All I know is that it’s probably that icy bastard’s fault.”

“If it’s any consolation, Kaeya called in sick today. You should probably do the same, because you look like you’ve been through hell and back,” Lisa pushed the toast toward you. The golden crust, the glorious sunny side up, and fresh jam stared back at you. A knot rose in your throat. 

“I wouldn’t be surprised if I actually did.” You turned away from the food. Perhaps your appetite would return a moment later. “Thank you for coming, by the way. Can you grab me the hangover cure?”

“You mean that large jar of suspicious brown substances?”

“Say what you want, but it works like a charm every time.”

The cure had been a recipe passed down from your ancestors. Evidently they were not exempt from the alcohol-loving nature of Mondstadters. 

Despite the strain on your back, you leaned in to get a peek inside the basket Lisa had been holding. Inside was another serving of toast. 

“Who’s the other toast for?” You asked.

“Make a guess?” She said from the kitchen.

Frankly, you’d known the answer before asking. “So you didn’t come especially for me after all? I’m hurt,”

Her airy chuckle echoed through the house. “Truth to be told, I was told by Jean to pay you two a visit. She knows how much you two like to torture yourselves for some childish glory.”

Your face scrunched up. “She’s not mad, is she?”

“Of course not,” she returned with a cup of ‘suspicious brown substance’ and pushed your bag out of the way. Her eyes caught on a piece of note. “What’s this?”

You grabbed the paper and squinted. Every word you read was a stab at your throbbing head.

you fucked up. big time. — Rosaria

“What’s that about?” Lisa chuckled. “Would you mind if I brought some of this cure for Kaeya?”

A mindless nod was all you could muster as you reread Rosaria’s note. The memory flooded up to you, albeit backward— her carrying your home, the slumping forward, the moment of astonishment shared between you and Kaeya, the drained vial…

“Oh no,” you shot up from your seat and snatched yesterday’s satchel, rummaging through the chaos inside. “Oh, no, no, no, please —“

Sucrose’s samples came clattering out one by one until you found, to your horror, a vacant one. 

Now Kaeya having drunk this specific concoction shouldn’t be a big deal. At least it wouldn’t kill him, Sucrose would never make something like that. In fact, these were mostly mild and experimental funsies, from truth potion to juice that makes you sound like a frog. But the reality wasn’t really better.

“What’s wrong?”

Your shoulders dropped. “Kaeya drank it. It’s a love potion.”

“Oh my,” Lisa’s hand hovered in front of her open jaw. 

“And considering its method of activation, I was the first person he made eye contact with.”

“…Which means he’s going to be head over heels for you?”

The broken wail you let loose could be heard from streets away.

“Okay,” you managed to calm yourself down before your neighbors could come and complain. “It’s not that bad. It might not even have worked, it was experimental after all. In fact it’s a favorable outcome, because now I can tell Sucrose whether her formula works,”

“Uh-huh,” Lisa cocked her eyebrow, not a bit convinced. “Are you going to tell him though?”

Your bravado faded as quickly as it’d come. “I don’t know. I don’t want to think right now.”

Tense silence draped over the room. Your head ran wild with tangled thoughts, most of which were imaginations of a very out of character Kaeya. All were enough to induce psychological horror.

“Alright, well…” Lisa tapped her finger against the table. “Since you don’t know for sure that it worked, maybe we should first confirm. When you see him again, look for signs he’s interested in you. I’ll help you out later, but I doubt I’ll get anything out of him,”

You nodded, temporarily incapable of giving a more animated response. 

“When are you going to see him?” She asked.

“Like tomorrow? We have a… we have to check out an area around Springvale. Stupid slimes have been going rampant lately.” The two of you as a team was nothing out of the norm. At the end of the day, you were still his second in command, as much as you hated to admit.

“Perfect. So when you’re out saving Mondstadt from perils, you can do some observations of your own. Just to let Sucrose know the effectiveness of her potion, of course,” she winked. “And if the potion really did work, you can just ask her for an antidote when you come back. Sounds good?”

In a lack of an alternative, you bobbed your head in agreement. Lisa shifted to ruffle your bed hair with a meaningful smile. Had you not been all up in your head, you might’ve even caught a hint of amusement in it. 

“Then I’ll leave you to it. I still have a drugged captain to visit after all.” 

Lisa excused herself and left you to ponder. The toast stared back at you, lonely and untouched. Once again your brain overheated from all the thinking, so you opted to take the cure and head back to bed instead.

—

If anyone were to ask about the origin of your rivalry, you would have to go way back to the first time you met each other, and without surprise, it was at the tavern.

Growing up, you had been known as nothing short of ambitious. Having had your vision bestowed upon you by the fair-minded hydro archon at the tender age of seven, there was only one noble aspiration you held: to become a knight of favonius. And surely enough, you were recruited during your fleeting adolescence.

As a new member, you made it your mission to get to know each and every knight. There was Godwin, who seemed to be so lovesick for Glory that he had no control over the words of love that spilled out of his mouth. There were also delightful minds like Jean, whose unerring determination sometimes put your own to shame.

As for the knights you couldn’t meet during the day, you decided that the tavern would be the optimal place for chance encounters. The smell of alcohol hit you the moment you stepped foot inside, chatters and laughter stacked upon each other. You gave Charles an acknowledging nod before looking around.

Here was your first impression of Kaeya Alberich: marked and distinctive. With his fancy outfit (an eyepatch? Fur collar? Why was the chest window even there?) and the sure way in which he carried himself, he stood out like a delicately-cut lapis in the crowd of sandstone. 

Even amidst the drunken hollers and chortles, his voice, smooth as silk, drew you closer. You cleared your throat behind him, and he whipped his head around—

His flowing hair hit you square in the face.

You shut your eyes, smiling solely out of courtesy.

“Oh, how terrible of me. I’m afraid I’m a bit tipsy,” his gaze focused on you. “Have we met before or am I just exceptionally fortunate tonight?” 

Second impression: a smooth talker, and an overly confident one at that. His voice was akin to waves lapping at the shore, gentle, but cold. Had the wind not been in his favor and carried it everywhere it went, you might’ve missed his words. 

“We’ve met, though we never introduced ourselves. I’m one of the newly recruited knights.” You gave your name.

“Kaeya Alberich. Pleasure to make your acquaintance.” He held out his gloved hand, a courteous gesture, and you shook it. “Which company are you under?”

“Calvary,” your voice was coated with pride you couldn’t suppress. “I hope to be captain one day.”

Something close to recognition dawned on Kaeya’s face. A few knights who had been listening in nodded meaningfully. It seemed that the term ‘calvary captain’ carried some sort of meaning to them.

At that time, the role of captain had been vacant long enough that people were starting to speculate about what might have caused the delay in a new assignment. You knew that the previous captain was Diluc Ragnvindr, born into noble status. You also knew that he was Kaeya’s brother. Other knowledge you held of him were all rumors and hearsays. 

His sudden withdrawal from the post had been one that shocked the city, but compared to the news of him leaving Mondstadt altogether, it caused mere ripples.

Regardless, the position was empty, and you had your sight set on it. 

“Captain, huh?” Kaeya pressed his lips to the side, long finger tapping the edge of the bar as the gears in his head turned. “To become one, you must possess the strongest will and the utmost loyalty. Not to mention outstanding combat skills and work efficiency. You sure you’re up for it?”

Your brows twitched, a barely concealed frown. “Sure I do. I’ve been training my whole life for this.”

“Your determination is admirable,” another knight said. “But I think the Grand Master already has a pick.”

Following his line of gaze, you realized that he was referring to Kaeya. 

“Nothing is set in stone yet, but it'd be nice to have competition; makes it all the more satisfying when I crush you." There was an attempt to give a wink, but due to his eyepatch, it just looked like he was blinking aggressively.

To define it as a declaration of war might be an exaggeration, but at that moment, his words inflamed a torch deep inside you. 

Following your initial meeting, the need to prove yourself would become your motivation for the next few months. After all, you would be nothing if not the best. During training, you often found yourself pitting against each other while others spectated with curiosity. You had your fair amount of wins, but they were always outnumbered by your losses. 

It stung to admit, but Kaeya was a force to be reckoned with. His swordsmanship and agility worked hand in hand to corner you until you were staring at the end of his blade. His movements were elegantly choreographed, and he dodged your offenses with such swiftness that he was able to leave snarky remarks in between.

In one match, you managed to parry his blow and force the sword out of his grip. Taking advantage of his moment of shock, you pushed him back onto the parched ground. But even with him pinned to the ground with your elbow and your knees caging his middle, to assume your victory and let your attention waver would be an amateur mistake. Until someone from the watching group announced the winner, you refused to take your eyes off him.

"This is quite the position." He said, and you rolled your eyes, trying to ignore his lopsided smirk, but it was hard to ignore something when you were staring directly at it. You definitely weren't fooling anyone with the way your attention darted around in a frenzy. 

"I like you so much better when you're not talking," you mustered as much strength as possible as you spoke those words, but archons — your mind wavered— the way his hair spilled out on the ground like waves and the way his chest heaved with every breath he took were nothing short of distracting.

Focus, focus, focus.

"So you do like me?"

"Dream on."

He moved his head to the side to squint at you, revealing the soft flesh of his neck. With an audible gulp you pushed yourself off of him, patting the dust from your clothes. 

Amateur mistake. You let out a short-living gasp as you were literally swept off your feet, your rear taking the blunt as you landed. The sun glaring at you when you opened them, and you had once again lost.

"Alberich, twenty. Y/N, thirteen." Miles announced. Kaeya bowed flamboyantly to the clapping crowd and turned to offer you a helping hand.

All the training and you got sidetracked by trivial things. You ignored his outstretched palm and hoisted yourself up.

Perhaps that was why you could've never been captain.

The day Varka called for the both of you, autumn was in the air, and so the breeze carried forth fragrances of flowers as you marched towards his office. The excitement in your chest dwindled when you saw Kaeya standing outside, staring down at the floor in deep thought.

Hearing your footsteps, he raised his head and cracked a smile. "So the Grand Master asked for you too. I wonder what this is about."

He was just teasing, of course. Both of you knew what this was about. Taking up the spot beside him, you could feel your heart beating in your ears. 

An hour or two later, the two of you emerged from his room, and were immediately surrounded by clamoring knights. Kaeya waved at them dismissively with a breath of lightness in his voice as you pushed your way through the crowd.

If you'd had to listen to his voice for a second longer, you would've let the anger crawling under your skin break free. Cavalry Captain , the words rang true and clear in your head. And the second in command . 

Your head pounded with fury as you sank onto the floor, fists so tight that your nails were digging into your skin. Atop you, the birds chirped and danced around each other, not a care in this world.

Here's a secret your pride would never let you know. In those moments of pure redness, your anger was neither directed at Kaeya nor the Grand Master. It was disappointment mixed with infuriation rumbling inside you, because you knew exactly who was to blame. You'd never been angry at Kaeya for being better, you were angry at yourself for not being enough. 

At the celebration feast, Kaeya managed to slip into the vacant seat next to you, a glass of wine in hand. You pointedly ignored his presence, but he paid no mind, instead opting to sit in silence. It was you who finally gave in. "What do you need?"

"Why so cold?" He propped his head up on his fist, observing. Beats of stillness passed with decades packed in each of them. Then he said in a matter-of-factly tone, "You're upset."

You'd always been an open book— or perhaps he was just a fast reader.

"Thank you for noticing," you grumbled. "Enjoying the party?"

"It's also yours, you know?" He dodged your question. "It's uncommon for a captain to have a second in command. Varka must’ve seen something in you that couldn't be wasted."

"Something, sure, but not enough."

He didn't say anything to that. For the first time after the conferment, you took a good look at him. While there was mirth smeared across his face, especially prominent in the corners of his lips, his eye was as pensive as a blackhole hoarding thousands of secrets. He didn't look half as happy as you would've expected him to be.

"I bet you knew all along. To be honest, even I myself was not surprised," you began, testing the water. 

"I had my speculations," he chuckled. "Funnily enough, I was still taken aback when I heard the news. Kaeya Alberich, you have proved your competence on numerous occasions, and so it is my greatest pleasure to bestow on you the title of Cavalry Captain ." His imitation of Varka was spot on, down to the very gasp he would take before each sentence he said. It made you wonder just how observant he was.

Once again, something you lacked.

"Perhaps I was taken aback because I didn't really want to be captain." He said. You waited for more, but it never came. 

"Why?" You insisted. It ached seeing someone dismiss the very thing you'd been wanting your whole life.

"...Who knows?" The ghost of the truth dimmed his eye, and then he was back to beaming again. "Do enjoy this evening, my dearest second in command. After all, it's not everyday you get a promotion."

The Kaeya that had just talked to you was a shell of memory now. Moments like that, when he let his vulnerable side show, were always too fleeting for you to hold on to. With an offended expression, you watched him return to the people, once again radiant. If anyone else had been around to hear his words, they would've thought him considerate, but you knew that it was his way of mocking you.

Why he didn't seem at all elevated escaped you– there was too little for you to work with. Yet for some reason, you had a hunch that it had something to do with the previous captain. Diluc Ragnvindr, his brother in another land.

Your pondering was interrupted by a clap of hands and the hushes that befell the participants. Kaeya had somehow gotten himself a stool and was standing tall. "I suppose it's only fair that I say a few words?"

A weaver of words, he satisfied his audience with ease. From a distance, you made a show of rolling your eyes skyward, bitter. Always so dramatic and conceited .

"...and of course, I have to thank my fellow colleagues, who have been absolute joys to drink with," a few of them chuckled. "But most of all I have to thank our lovely Y/N—"

The sudden mention of your name almost had you choking on air. You glared at him, flabbergasted and irked by the fact that he was forcing you under the spotlight when all you wanted was to wallow in your own failure. "--who has time after time pushed me to become the best version of myself. Without them, I doubt I'd even be standing here."

His gaze bore into you, arrogant. Patronizing, even. "With you as my subordinate , I dare say there'll be nothing I cannot achieve as captain . A toast, everyone!"

The crowd turned to you with terrifying synchronization. With a strained smile pasted on your face, you nodded at them before downing your own drink. Soon the crowd returned to chit-chatting, but your eyes were still fixed on the captain. Your veins blazed with the desire to wipe that permanent sneer off his face, chagrin morphing into the comfortable disguise of distaste.

Years later, Rosaria would find herself a frequent listener of your retelling of your relationship. You would ramble for hours and hours on end, about how he was always driving you up the wall, about the time you almost pushed him off a cliff because he wouldn’t stop shoving in your face the fact that he cleared more hilichurl camps than you did. Rosaria might not care, but even through her nonchalance, she saw one thing clearly.

You spoke of distaste and detestation, yet it was apparent that the anger was a shield. More often than not, your opinions of Kaeya hinted at respect instead of genuine contempt. The person you were mad at was yourself. The anger stemmed from the shame you felt at being inadequate, which was so great that you could barely live with it. It was much easier to assign blame. So you did.

The funniest part was that Kaeya just played along. He had absolutely nothing against you, but once he’d learnt how to ruffle your feathers, he wouldn’t give it up. It was yet another mystery why he enjoyed teasing you so, but Rosaria wasn’t going to probe. She already knew more than enough.

In her eyes, Kaeya Alberich wasn’t that good of a pretender after all.

—

Outside the sun dappled through trees, and the streets buzzed with activity as the early merchants set up their stalls. Remnants from yesterday's hangover had long dispersed, courtesy of the infallible cure. 

It occured to you over breakfast that you had no idea what kind of signs you were looking for. Love was not a myth, that much you knew, but it was foreign. You could scarcely recall the last time you felt it, so how were you supposed to recognize it all of a sudden?

Your mind wandered to the lovebirds in town. Beatrice, whose obsession was crystal clear as she chatted Quinn up basically every day, though the latter couldn’t be more blind. Raymond, who would incessantly speak of his wife when he’s drunk. There’s always this tender look he reserved just for her. And then there’s Nimrod, who had been trying hard to treat his alcohol addiction for his wife.

These were all sweet people. But when you tried to imagine Kaeya being as lovesick, it was like trying to dress an adult in toddler-sized shirts. It didn’t fit him. The mere thoughts of it made you flush from embarrassment. Chances were you were going to die from cringe.

As much as you’d like to run from the problem, you had a job to finish. Every step you took toward the city gate, where you usually rendezvoused with Kaeya, was tentative. Your eyes darted around as you looked for signs of him, hoping that you would at least have some time to prepare yourself.

“Why are you sneaking about?” 

Your breath jolted. Every hair on your body jerked up.

“Very nice of you, Alberich.” You snapped, hand hovering above your racing heart. He gave a hum of a laugh as you calmed down.

(That was the first sign you missed— the way his eye lit up when he saw you from behind.)

Right, your secret objective. You scanned his face briefly. Nothing seemed out of place. He wasn’t giggling like a teenager experiencing romance for the first time, neither was he throwing himself at you like a clingy kid—

“So, dear partner,” he swung his arm around your shoulder. Your brain sputtered. “Are you ready for our little date?”

Well. Shit.

Panic took over your limbs. You jabbed your fingers at his side, and he curled away with a gasp. 

“Don’t make me punch you in the face when we’ve barely started. I still haven’t held you accountable for the pain you put me through yesterday.”

“Right, yesterday. Thank you for the cure, by the way. Still waiting for the recipe though,”

“Too bad I’m taking it to the grave.” The two of you marched out of the city. “Say… aside from the hangover, did you feel weird in any other way?”

Something indecipherable passed across his face. “No. Should I have?”

“Not at all,” you rushed to answer. 

He might’ve been a little touchy, but that didn’t automatically mean that the potion was behind it, and you were no stranger to his flirtations. If the teasing bore any genuine feelings at all, then he would’ve been in love with you since forever.

"If you're worried that I'm not in tip-top condition, you can rest assured. I'll protect you from any harm that may come your way, as usual." 

This was going to be a long day.

—

"I think we should do plan K," Kaeya said while you were making your way through the green plains.

"What plan K?"

"Kitty cat?"

It took you a few seconds to catch on to his meaning. "No." You refused curtly.

Unlike their owners, your visions worked in perfect harmony. There was no enemy you couldn't freeze with a slash of your respective swords. Still, you were only two people. When confronted by mobs of enemies, trapping one or two of them in suffocating ice couldn't really help. The key was to gather them so you could drench them all at once.

It was only one time– the group of hilichurls on the cliff was truly too overwhelming for you. Even hot-headed as you were, you still knew not to go out without a plan. In the heat of the moment, you decided that the best way to grab their attention was to pretend to be a cat. After all, who wouldn't respond to their mewls?

You could still recall vividly the look on Kaeya's face as you forced the sounds out of your throat– like something had cracked him open. Surprise smeared his countenance even long after he'd turned the enemies into a dense pack of ice statues. It was one of the few times you got him to be speechless, which was in itself an achievement, but considering the context, it only made you want to crawl into a burrow.

"I didn't know you had such a knack for imitating animals. Can you do Rishboland Tigers?" He'd said. You proceeded to throw him a few insults before tying up the loose ends of your job. 

You should've known that he wouldn't let it slide that easily. This was Kaeya you were talking about. When had he ever passed on a chance to make your skin crawl?

"Come on, it was so effective last time." He pressed.

"Do slimes even recognize cats?" 

"Sure,"

"Bullshit." You said, and that was final.

Soon the striking windmill came into view, a silent indicator of your destination. Most of the residents had left the village for work, and the remaining ones were mostly lounging around. 

A man with hair the color of autumn spotted you first. Light steps brought him closer, and soon he was standing before you. 

"I’m Allan. You're from the knights?" 

"The Cavalry Captain, in the flesh," Kaeya said with just a hint of pride. You barely held back your snort. “Where may the reported problem be?”

“Just down the road.” Allan pointed. “We would’ve taken care of them ourselves, but a lot of us have gone far to hunt and have not come back.”

“Noted,” you said. “How many slimes are there?”

“Twelve, give or take.”

Your eyes rounded. Twelve is quite a large number, even for limbless balls of elemental energy. Kaeya moved in and whispered, “Kitty cat?”

“Not a snowball’s chance in hell.” You hissed, hating the way he always managed to send chills down your spine when he spoke in proximity, even more so when his words were thick with meanings. You turned back to Allan. “Alright then, we’ll go take care of them.”

“Yea,” Allan nodded, a bit absent-minded. “While you’re at it, can you look for Myweiss? Short hair, probably with a lyre. She went out this morning and hasn’t been back since.”

His words had a certain ominousness to them, though as a knight you still had to maintain a mask of nonchalance lest you reinforce his worry. “We’ll look into that too.”

It was just as Allan had said. A few turns later you found the road blocked by a pack of pyro slimes. From where you were hiding behind a rock, they formed a circle, bouncing in sync and looking awfully like they were holding a ritual. A figure in the middle drew your eyes.

“Is that Myweiss?” Your hand found its way to the hilt of your sword, body inclining with the urge to strike. Warmth enveloped your knuckle, and you looked down to see Kaeya pushing you back down.

“Don’t be rash,” he said.

“But someone’s—”

“— in danger and as knights we have to save them, yes,” he stole the words right from your mouth. At your slightly astonished gape he winked, “I know you more than you think.”

…Well, friends pay attention to each other all the time. You didn’t even like him one bit, yet you were still familiar with his patterns, from silent body language to layered words. So this was not enough proof that he was under the influence of a love potion.

Kaeya proceeded to lay out his plan, which was really just charging in head-on, but you were too busy ruminating on his words to call him out. 

He sprang out first, flitting through the air weightlessly. The slimes jolted in recognition and fled toward him like magnets. You seized the opening to rescue the trembling woman who’d curled into a ball. She flinched away when you put your hand on her shoulder.

“Hey, you’re alright. We’re here to save you.”

She peeked out from behind her crossed elbows. Your attire must’ve given your identity away as she grasped your hand in relief.

“Duck!” 

Your body responded quicker to the shout than your brain could register it. Ice spikes shot through the air, impaling the slime hovering above you.

“A hand would be nice,” Kaeya said. 

“Why, can’t handle a few slimes?” You cooed. Whipping out your polished sword, you slipped into a comfortable spot behind him. One man might still be prone to blunders, but two could form an impenetrable defense. There wasn't a single way to lay a finger on you without being struck down by some frigid ferocity first, and in return you covered all the spots Kaeya's eye couldn't track. You knew each other's patterns like the back of your hands. You scythed your swords with such fluidity that you were like comets weaving through constellations– ruthless, unfaltering, yes, but never once did you collide into the other's trajectory. 

You made quick work of the slimes without breaking a sweat. The last one exploded as a final attempt at retaliation, and all's left was scorched grass and your stiff pants.

"You got quicker," Kaeya stated as you approached Myweiss again, picking up the broken lyre on the ground. 

"Thank you, good sir, your compliment means an awful lot to me," you playfully bowed before turning back to the bard. "Are you hurt anywhere?"

"My… my ankle," she stuttered. You leaned forward and found her skin glaring with an angry burn. It wasn't severe, but it would probably require a few days to heal completely.

"We'll bring you back to Springvale," Kaeya offered his hand. Myweiss glanced at it before opting instead to loop her arm around your elbow, the action surprising you for a moment. The blue-haired captain had a comically puzzled frown on his face as you hoisted the lady up. You stuck your tongue out at him as you passed.

Allan jumped into action as soon as you came into view, taking her away to the village’s healer. As soon as you're alone, you tilted your head at Kaeya. "Seems like you've lost your charm."

"Or you got more alluring," he bent and wrapped himself around your arm, "Ah, I'm feeling a bit worn out from all the fighting. Mind if you carry me back to Mond, dear knight?"

"I'd rather leave you in the wild."

"Hurtful. Very hurtful," he feigned a pained expression. 

The sun swam overhead. By the time Myweiss had been fully bandaged, you'd already finished your quick lunch. She limped out with urgency, and broke into a smile when she realized that you hadn't left.

You, of course, failed to notice it as you walked up to her. "Feeling better?"

"Oh, a lot better. May I just add that you were phenomenal just now? I've never seen anyone fight as gracefully as you."

You flushed. "You're too kind. I was only doing my job."

"Well, consider it a job well done," she fidgeted a bit. "Say, do you have other business to attend to? Would you like to stay for a while? I can play you a song if you like– ah, nevermind, my lyre looks pretty worse for wear."

A break out here sounded pleasant enough, but you still had to report back to the headquarters. Before you could reply, Allan butted in despite the sharp glare Myweiss gave him. "Speaking of other business, I heard from others that there have been some treasure hoarders roaming around Dragonspine lately. Shouldn’t the knights do something about that too?"

"Certainly. I'll let the situation be known as soon as possible." Swiveling, you noticed Kaeya chatting with some other villagers with an easy curl of a grin. His eye was already on you when you regarded him, and he gave you a little wave.

Your hand was raised mid-air when Myweiss rapped, "That can wait, right? You should really stay. Perhaps I'll show you around, we've just had some fruitful harvests too." 

Even oblivious as you were, at this point you were starting to catch on to her desperation to keep you around. She reached out gingerly for your arm, lashes fluttering in a way that conveyed attraction. It was the first time in a while that you'd been hit on, and you found yourself at a loss of words.

"What's going on?" Kaeya must be addicted to putting his arm around your shoulder, though his presence made you somewhat more at ease. His eye traveled down to Myweiss' bandaged ankle. "You look better already."

"I could always use some assistance," she eyed you, begrudgingly withdrawing her hold.

"I'm sure Allan here is more than willing to provide it," he never wavered in his smile, but you couldn't help but note that it was the one that he used on people he didn't trust. His arm was also unusually tight around you, as if desperate to ensure that you wouldn't be snatched away.

Allan clicked his tongue. "Fine, whatever. Just go deal with the treasure hoarders as soon as possible, okay?"

"It's not like the knights are short on manpower, why can't you lounge around for some more?" Myweiss argued.

You sucked in a breath. "We aren't, but–" 

"But it'd be irresponsible to let the problem fester. In fact, my partner and I are going to eradicate it right away." Kaeya said.

"The enemies are on Dragonspine. We can't just charge in like this." You said.

"Why not? We've never failed a mission before."

"That's because we had prior preparations!"

"We can prepare on the way, or I'll just do all the work if you want."

After watching you two with enough intensity that the air crackled, Myweiss huffed in defeat. "Fine. Go do your job, I give up."

You offered to help her back, but she waved you off. "It's fine, I know I can't compete. Love is pointless after all. I should've known better than to hold out hope…"

Her words faded into the wind as you watched her leave with Allan, lips slightly ajar in confusion. Kaeya's arm slipped away, his warmth lingering on your skin like a ghost. "Let's go."

He really knew how to put his long legs to good use. You jogged to match his strides. "You mean to Dragonspine? Weren't you just making it up?"

"Why would I? It's just a mountain, nothing we can't handle."

There's an edge to his voice. It was like something grand had happened in the span of a second without your participation– Myweiss' abrupt drop in attitude, the lump in Kaeya's throat as he spoke. 

"Well, maybe hydro and cryo aren't the best combination when you're surrounded on all fours by snow."

Silence was all that greeted you.

Great.

There was another thing that bugged you– the way he put extra stress on his tongue when he said 'my partner'. While it wasn't unusual that he referred to you as such, he'd never named it with such sternness before. It was like he was trying to make an irrefutable point.

You'd heard the same tone somewhere else. Back when a foreigner had come to Mondstadt and unwittingly flirted with Quinn, Beatrice was all but fuming when she stepped in. That's my– my best friend, she'd said, ignoring the stuttering. It didn't take you long to put a name to the emotion smeared across her face. Jealousy.

"Were you jealous just now?" You let the words go, nevermind how ridiculous you sounded. Kaeya pursed his lips, as if considering, before exhaling sharply through his nose, "So what if I was?"

That was most expected. Of course he wouldn't answer you directly, only swerve around your question. 

"I was just trying to bail you out of that situation, that's all," he added, unprompted. "Though I can't deny that seeing someone being lovestruck before you put me down in the dumps for a bit. You know how much I adore you.”

You tried to fight off the weird tingling feeling in your stomach. His words had planted the root of something unnamable in you. It was not new– in fact you found yourself feeling it quite often when you were around him– but still considered a strange feeling.

Jealousy, a sure side effect of affection. The potion might’ve really kicked in then. Good news for Sucrose, but it was going to be a problem for you.

–

To pocket more time, you had to stray from the main road smoothed by feet that had come before. In short: less walking, more climbing up short cliffs and jagged rocks.

It must've taken you no less than two hours until you smelled frost in the air. The immenseness of the snow-capped mountain loomed before you as you entered the camp set nearby.

"Knights of Favonius," one of the people donning adventurers' attire greeted you. Iris, her name was. "Heading into Dragonspine at this hour?"

"We heard there've been some treasure hoarders in the vicinity lately, and our reliable captain here decided to nip them in the bud." You sprinkled your words with sarcasm.

"If you're really that afraid of the cold, I'm sure I can handle this alone."

You snorted, "Afraid? It seems that you're underestimating me."

"Well, uh," Iris dug through the pile of necessities laid out on the wooden bench. "We only have two overcoats here. Perhaps I can pack you some warm rum as well. Wait a sec,"

As she ran off to the chef, you examined the overcoats. They were huge even for Kaeya, and made out of wool. As warm as it seemed, it would probably restrict your movements as you mounted the sloped hills.

Still, it was better than freezing to death.

Something fluffy was draped around your shoulders. You turned and found your face buried in soft, white fur. Usually ostentatious, this ridiculous collar finally proved to be useful.

"I don't need it." You stated as he slipped his arms into the sleeves of the coat. It looked ridiculous on him. 

"Shh, just take it," he dismissed with half a heart. "What kind of partner would I be if I just let you turn into a frozen sculpture?"

"Are you saying you won't turn into one?"

"Of course not," he held up the remaining one and hugged the fabric around you, tugging it towards the middle. You glimpsed at him, the lower part of your face hidden behind the layers of fabric. The gesture warmed you more than the coat ever could.

Iris came back with the bottle, and off you ventured into the depth of the snow.

–

"Shouldn't there be torches nearby?" Kaeya mumbled, teeth clattering as he ran his hands up and down his arms. At this point, after eight refusals, you'd given up on putting the cape back on him.

The bottle of rum was effective, so much so that you already finished most of it. Every blow of the wind felt like spikes stabbing at your exposed skin, and snowflakes descended into your line of vision the further up you went. You tipped your head back and inhaled. A mistake. The cold invaded your airway and made you wheeze. You sought comfort in the fur again.

Dragonspine was not a place for wandering. All around you was plain white covering grey rocks. Even the knights would be hesitant to come to a place like this– devoid of life, harsh, unforgiving, a weapon forged by nature itself.

"Why aren’t you more resistant to the cold, cryo user?" You mumbled.

"If you threw Diluc into a fireplace, he'd still scream in pain."

"Touche,"

You pressed on doggedly. Naked branches and worn stones rolled past you. Finally, Kaeya sighted a glimmer of hope. It was a torch near the cliff, its branches stuck steadily into the snow. You both raced forward, only to realize that the fire had long gone out.

"It would be a good time to reveal your box of matches," he looked to you expectantly. You strained your mouth into a smile that said what do you think .

"This is pointless," you started pacing. "The sky is dimming, there's not a single sign of life within a ten miles radius, and we can't even light a dumb flame."

"Would you rather we head back?"

Your body screamed affirmative, but your determination was unflinching. You'd always despised giving up halfway, even in situations brought about by hands other than your own. Leaning forward to observe the gaping depth, you shook your head. "Let's… let's go a bit further. Ugh, what are the thieves even doing this far up–"

The moment you turned on your heels, the small piece of ground behind you gave way, crumbling into ashes. Your arms flung wildly in the air as you sought purchase, but the closest tree was already pulling away from you. 

Your breath suspended in your throat. Moments before you could feel the plummet, icy fingers grasped around your wrist and sent you lurching back to stable ground. Had your heart not been pumping at light speed, you would've noticed the shake in Kaeya's hand. You opened your eyes and found yourself pressed flush against him, like vines to a pillar. For the first time since you'd started walking the snow-covered paths, warmth enveloped you from head to toe.

"I know this circumstance is less than ideal, but did you really have to throw yourself off?" Kaeya forced a chuckle. His breaths were heavy, almost anxious, his cheeks raw and windblown.  "Or have you finally fallen for my charms?”

“What charms?” You faked confusion. “You’re not even my type,”

“Pshh, I’m the embodiment of your type,” he locked you even further into his hold, and blood rushed to your face.

After some shuffling, he hummed. “This is quite nice, don't you think? Works ten times better than this mess of a coat."

You kept your arms around him, not by will, but because every muscle in your body had been petrified by your closeness. If you were to cut your heart out and put it on the torch right now, it would probably blaze all night. 

“I… I suppose it’s not so bad.”

"Then let's stay close for a while." You could hear the satisfied smirk in his voice.

Your limbs relaxed with each passing second, fitting into him like you were two pieces of a shattered jade. Even under layers of covers, you could still feel the sinking and heaving of his chest, matching your own gradually. When he felt your hands grab at the fabric on his back, he moved to tug them inside his coat. If you felt the weight of his head atop yours, you didn’t mention it. He had always been warmer than his icy appearance would have people believe, and soon you found your energy recharged.

“We’d better get going,” it was you who decided to ruin the comfort. His head nudged against yours, a nod.

Neither of you moved. You had to count to three internally to peel yourself away, and even then you did not part until the very tip of your finger was too far away to linger on.

You didn’t find the tenderness rolling off him unfamiliar at all, contrary to what you’d believed in the morning. For a moment, you even felt a hint of sorrow knowing that it was all chemical reactions. You promptly ignored the weird ache behind your ribs. “Should we head up?”

“After you.”

As you braved the gales with revived strength, you had a hunch that the rest would go smoothly.

—

The road only grew narrower as you neared Skyfrost Nail. The cold had seeped into the gap of the wool again, and you resorted to walking side by side like twin popsicles. Soon, the torches you passed by were no longer bleak and vacant, but instead burning with newly-lit flames. Someone must be nearby.

Frigid fingers grazing your sheath, you pulled each other up broken steps until you found a boulder big enough to fit behind. Not too far away, the camp was set up on open ground with nary a disguise. It was almost like they were hoping to get caught. 

You counted six treasure hoarders, all armed, as they counted the valuables they’d managed to snatch from innocents today. As if dissatisfied, one of them threw a string of jewelry onto the ground.

“Think we could ambush them?” You suggested, turning back to Kaeya.

“Sure. Alternatively, you could distract them with Ki-”

“Oh my god. Give it up!”

“Over my dead body,” he said sheepishly. Shrugging off the heavy wool, he flexed his limbs, rigid from the cold, and stepped up. “Take the ones on the left.”

“Got it.”

As expected, the treasure hoarders were entirely unaware of your presence until Kaeya decided to give them a jumpscare by commenting on the poor quality of their loot from behind. Even then, they were no match against your quick strikes.

The remaining two were tougher, having had time to prepare, but lacking nonetheless. You dodged their clumsy arrows and harmless rocks, scythed the hilt of your sword onto one’s back, and he dropped with a loud thump.

Incapacitating them would be effortless, but it wouldn’t be very knightly to leave them to freeze up here. The standard procedure would be to teach them a lesson and chase them off, then record their information in the archive. Holding your sword before you, you inched closer toward the last enemy, face tight with warning.

His eyes darted between you and his affiliate who got the short end of the stick. Kaeya had been taunting the latter for the past few minutes, encouraging him to land a hit on him and then swerving away in the last second. Typical behavior. 

“Ugh, fuck it,” the man before you drew out a round device from his pocket. Your eyes rounded, brain screaming for action, but his thumb was faster as it pressed down.

Nothing happened. “What did you do?” You demanded.

“A reminder not to stick your nose into others’ business,” he smirked unnaturally, which fell when the ground rumbled. He grabbed his fallen comrades and scrambled away. Another quake came. Kaeya mirrored your look— confusion mixed with horror.

The next time the earth trembled, you realized it was not the earth at all. The thing you’d been standing on rose shakily. Kaeya darted forward to grab your arm before the two of you were thrown onto the ice-paved path, knocking the air out of you.

It was a ruin grader, bulkier than the usual machines scattered across the wilderness. Branches stuck out of its back like horns, and its four limbs were enhanced by an extra layer of metal. Its dull, lifeless eye scanned the both of you before a beam shot out, leaving a puddle of water and burned crisp between you.

“Since when do treasure hoarders know how to control ruin machines?” You yelled as you rolled away from the following beams, struggling onto your feet.

“Since today, apparently. What do you say we make this interesting?”

You already had a guess as to what he intended to propose. “Enlighten me,”

“First one to strike it dead in the eye wins.”

The murderous orb focused on you. An arm flung out. You barely dodged it. “And how shall the loser be punished?”

Kaeya sent an ice spike into its side, but it was in vain. “Pay for drinks for a month?”

“Deal.”

As though irritated by your lack of regard, the machine turned around and crouched, a telltale sign of the attack it was about to unleash. You ran for the spot behind a tree. The whole world shook as the missiles wrecked the land. Snapped branches and ravaged sunsettias tainted the carpet of snow.

As the machine turned its focus on Kaeya, you thrust your sword into the crack between its joints. Hydro swirled around the blade, threatening to drown the machine from the inside out, but it only sputtered a little before its leg reached up, hovering over you. You barely managed to get out of the way. The place you’d been standing just a second ago was now a dent.

“Think we could freeze this thing?” Kaeya shouted from the other side. It sprang into the air and created another cave in the ground. It was restless energy, programmed to only attack whatever was in sight.

“What makes you think I can drench this metal giant in water with just a sword?” You asked, once again dancing around its offenses. Though it was relentless, you still managed to notice a few weaknesses and swung your sword at them. But without destroying the core, obliterating this thing would take a dangerously long time.

“Alright, fine. I have an idea,” the wind brought his voice closer. “Distract it for a bit, will ya?”

“Just do it quickly!” It aimed its giant fist at you, and for a lack of time, you could only counter it with the flat of your sword. Reverberation spread from the point of impact to your hands, like vines overtaking a host. The force sent you flying into the snow, and you groaned at the pain exploding through your back. 

“Oh, come on!” You quickly got up as it prepared to throw up some missiles again. All the running had depleted your stamina, and your throat was as parched as sandpaper. Outside, the cold continued to slice its sharp blade at your ribs. You made a note never to come to Dragonspine again.

A figure behind the machine caught your eyes. Kaeya had managed to climb onto higher ground. With a huff, he pointed the tip of his steel at the machine beneath and leaped into a graceful arc, using the velocity of the fall to penetrate into the robot. The bright eye flickered, and its legs gave out.

All you could feel was your own panting and the light bruises burning all over your body. He crouched and landed in front of you with a flip. Surrounding you was a ruckus— everything shattered and coated with the juice of squashed sunsettias. It looked like a bloodbath.

“I won.” His mouth curled into a victorious sneer, but he had fatigue written all over him, from the pale lips to the slightly inclined posture. His left sleeve had been torn, and an angry wound opened its mouth greedily. Worry rose within you.

“We have to get it bandaged as soon as possible, come on.”

“Aw, are you worried about me, partner?”

You rolled your eyes at him. The sun had long drowned under the horizon, and the air was growing thin with each passing second. At night, Dragonspine would be even more unbearable. You had to leave as soon as possible.

Your lips parted, but then you paused. For a moment you almost thought you saw the grotesque blink of the cracked machine’s core, but it vanished just as abruptly as it’d come. It must’ve been your imagination—

It wasn’t. With its last dying force, it came alive with the intention to kill , kill , kill . It lifted its only unbroken arm, recharged, and swung it at the human who’d disabled it.

It was almost a reflex, the way you grabbed Kaeya’s arm and shoved him to the side. You didn’t even realize what you’d done until the fist came directly for you before the force of a meteorite had your body crashing into the side of the hill. 

The world slowed as Kaeya watched you fall limply to the ground. You were still, unmoving, quiet. His vision went white.

Tingling numbness possessed your body, then came the pain blossoming all over. A persistent ringing haunted your ear. You breathed and felt your ribs crack.

For a moment you thought you were going to die right there, but then the pain ceased amplifying, and the ringing began to subdue. You knew because you could hear Kaeya again, screaming the same words over and over again. It took a while to register them— your name in repeat, like a broken record.

“No, no no no no no,” he mumbled, a shaky hand reaching behind to hold your torso up. His other hand was pressed on the area below your aching ribcage. Once you felt strong enough, you lolled your head to the side to regard him.

“Just-just stay awake, okay?” His voice was strained with fear. You reached out to touch his hand, ignoring the brutal gash on your own. The side of your arm felt sticky. It could’ve been blood, you weren’t sure. You wanted to tell him you were fine, but your voice had been choked out of you the moment you were slammed.

His torso shifted, but his knees stayed grounded. Words spilled out of him like a waterfall, barely comprehensible. Meanwhile you were trying to make sense of why he was so on edge, because despite the injuries here and there, you didn’t feel like you were on the brink of death yet. 

That was until you looked down, wondering why he’d been exerting pressure on your stomach. Then you turned to the side and scanned the place you were lying on. There was red all over, on your clothes and on the ground, bright and sticky and… it didn’t make any sense. You hadn’t heard any tear in your flesh, nothing that could’ve made your blood spill.

“K-Kaeya—” 

“I’m sorry,”

You froze.

“Please, just- I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, I shouldn’t have let it happen again, please- this can’t be real,” 

You’d seen him waver before, losing his footing during battles, donning shock while ambushed, face tight in face of a dilemma. But not like this. Not like the whole world was crumbling to ashes in his hands. His confidence, which was usually indivisible from him, had long vanished. In its place was terror. The horror in his eye was a living thing, gnawing at him. Possessing him. It twisted his face into a portrait of agony.

He had never acted like this before. Even then you knew that this image would be seared into your brain forever as a painful thread of memory. 

You loosened your hold on him and touched the ‘wound’ on your stomach. A press. Nothing. Gingerly you brought your wet hand to your face. It smelled sweet and fresh.

Smashed sunsettias. Their color was less deep than blood, and the texture was stickier. You’d mistaken it for your own life. The absurdity was almost hilarious.

“Kaeya,” you called again, but he wouldn’t face you. Flakes had collected at his lashes, and tears were threatening to break the dam. You put your hand to his cold cheek. Finally he looked at you through a haze. “I’m fine, this- this isn’t blood,”

“What?” He croaked, still as a statue. There was an attempt to collect himself when he gazed around. He did the same thing— feel the texture, the smell, albeit with a lot more hesitation.

Realization, acknowledgement, relief. Wave after wave of emotions sprayed across his tight features like a slideshow. When his brows finally let loose, you half expected him to scoff, or maybe crack a joke about the ludicrousness of it all, but instead he sank his head onto your shoulder and held you like a fragile statue. 

He was trembling, you figured, with the effort he took to control the tears. Your heart lurched, and you wrapped your arms around him within an instant.

You’d done it. You’d scared the cavalry captain to the point of crying. Yet every gasp that came was a stab to your guts. His back shook against your hands, and you had this terrible thought that he was about to shatter into thousands unretrievable pieces.

Time passed without a sound and eventually dried his tears. You stayed still, holding onto each other, clinging onto life. The air was filled with your 

“Archons,” he breathed, slowly beginning to build up that wall around him. When he pulled away it almost sucked all the warmth out of you. “That was- that was scary,” he placed hand on his chest. “Why did you do that?” He reprimanded.

“Oh, I don’t know, I just really wanted to get punched by a ruin grader,” you chuckled in an attempt to draw at least a smile out of him, but it only resulted in a pained wince. “I think my ribs are broken.”

“Yea, and your hand.” He jutted his jaw at the wound.

“Aside from that, I’m as good as new,” with his help you sat yourself up, taking breaths as slowly as possible. Remnants of that broken expression were still lingering on his face. Pinkness surrounded his eyes. “And you? Are you alright?”

He scoffed. “Of course I am. Come on, I’ll help you down.”

“Sure you can do it?”

He nodded and let you sling your arm around his neck. You were both shivering. From the chill or fear, you weren’t sure, but with you leaning your weight on him, you leeched the warmth off of each other, a reminder that you weren’t alone. 

As you limped back the way you came, you almost lost his words to the wind: Please don’t do that again , they said. Kaeya’s face was as unreadable as ever, but his tight clutch around you said more than enough.

—

The adventurers all but scrambled towards you when they saw the ghastly states you were in. It felt like burning when you sat near the bonfire to thaw the cold clinging onto you. You flexed your limbs once they’d been bandaged. None of the wounds were too serious, and your broken ribs would probably heal after a few restful days.

Yet the night was no longer young, and it would be unwise to set out when you could barely breathe without wincing, so you decided at last to stay till the following morning. An hour or two must've gone by with everyone fussing around you. It was only after a brief dinner that Kaeya managed to steal a moment with you after all the stolen glances from a distance.

"A mora for your thoughts?" He claimed the spot next to you, overlooking the tranquil river and the moon, swaying among the waves like a sunken piece of jade. Met with a lack of response, he continued, "Two moras? Ten? My whole life-saving?"

"That's not really an upgrade from ten moras, is it?"

"Sounds like you are underestimating my financial well-being." 

He was not without injuries. With his sleeve rolled up, you could see the thick layer of bandage wrapped around his arm. There were a few bandaids decorating his skin here and there, but what really gave his fatigue away was his bleary eye. 

Images of his torn expression resurfaced. “I feel like I should apologize.”

He reclined, gaze elsewhere. “What for?”

“For giving you such a scare with that sunsettia stunt,” you waved at the stubborn stains on your clothes. 

“It won’t be that easy for your apology to be accepted.” He quirked his brow. “I’m going to need something more sincere.”

“Don’t tell me you want me to cover your drinking expenses for two months.”

“Tempting, but no,” his airy chuckle filled the air. “I just want you to answer this mystery that’s been plaguing me.”

You sighed and nodded.

“Why did you jump in to save me? You know what it could have cost.”

There were mysteries in life that just had no answers, and you were sure this was one of them. It was more of an instinct than an act of reason. The image of the metal fist coming down on him had planted a fear enormous enough that it’d swallowed your senses.

At last, you settled on: “I’m a knight. Saving people is kind of my job.”

“Yes, but aren’t we supposed to be rivals? Competitors? Something like that?”

“We are ,” you rushed to answer, though the word rang hollow in your head. “That doesn’t mean I have to watch you die.”

“It’s kind of hard to believe that when you seize every chance to make your loathing be known-”

“I don’t loathe you. You’re being dramatic”

“Right. We just don’t really see eye to eye.”

Your face tightened. There was a significant beat of silence where you could feel his eye burning holes on your back. 

The next time he spoke, his voice sounded almost foreign. “I don’t hate you, in case you think I do.”

“Then why do you keep getting on my nerves?” 

He shifted, huffing a little when he had to strain his injured arm to push his body up. You anticipated the possible answers: because it’s fun, because it’s entertaining, and just a tad bit cute. Because it fed his ego.

“Because I want to keep you around, and annoying you seems to be the key,”

You looked for the usual mischief on his face, anything to prove that he was joking, but to no avail.

“And… if I have to be absolutely honest, I quite like you.” The words rolled out of him like waves, descending into the river. Your mouth ran dry. Something was restricting your airway, and it wasn’t your broken bones. Not even in the most peculiar dreams would you have imagined him saying those words to you. 

But it was just the potion at work here, wasn’t it?

“You sure do an awful job of showing it.”

“You’re just awful at noticing it.” 

“Fine,” you scooted towards him pointedly. “Prove it then. Tell me just one thing you like about me.”

“That’ll be easy,” he said, tapping his chin. “Firstly, your hangover cure, the recipe of which is still hidden from the world”

"And it always will be,” you thinned your lips, feeling disappointment creep up on you. If he noticed, he didn’t say anything about it.

“Secondly, you’re one of the most competent knights I’ve ever known. There’s rarely a situation you can’t get yourself out of, and you handle my trials without fail.”

“Ah, yes. Your trials. Like that time you had us trapped in that labyrinth of a domain?”

“And you were the first to get out.”

You hadn’t thought that an acknowledgement from someone whom you’d always felt inferior to would mean anything to you, but it stirred your insides anyways, toying with the threads of your emotions. 

“The third reason, your unrivaled courage shines as brightly as the sun. Never once have you backed out from a challenge, although in exchange you’ve sustained quite the amount of injuries and put me in cardiac arrest.”

Evidently.

Carefully you asked, unexpected even to yourself, “Anything else?” 

“Your sense of responsibility. Your cat imitations-” he ignored your pointed look. “- the way you sometimes draw words from me unknowingly. Your silly habits, the way your words slur when you’re tipsy. And you wear your heart on your sleeve too, did you know that?”

You shook your head. “How so?”

“Do you remember the time Fischl invited us to some kind of Immernachtreich feast? And we thought it was going to be fine because Fischl usually isn’t that bad of a cook, but…”

“But she decided to create dishes that shouldn’t even exist and called them local cuisines? Yea, I remember,” you chuckled at the memory.

“You were trying really hard to finish the dishes— and you actually did, you have my respect for that— but everyone could see that you were struggling.”

You grimaced. “Even Fischl?”

“Especially Fischl. I had to comfort her and lie about you being sick prior to the feast to make her feel better.”

“Wows. Now I feel like a jerk,” you buried your head behind your folded arms, overriding your memories with the accurate one, until your chest jolted with laughter. Everything about that day was so ridiculous it’s funny, though further reminiscence would probably give you a stomachache.

Something light flitted across his face, a spark of recognition. The moonlight was fond of its favorites; it shone a round, silvery arc behind him, limning every strand of his hair. “Your laugh, too. That’s what I like about you, even though you rarely direct it at me,” he bowed his head. “You’re so clever, yet so oblivious. I always get sidetracked by the sound of your laughs, but you never noticed.

“You wanna know something else? You're unwavering, constant, like the sea. Doesn't matter if you're a tempest or calm water, I feel grounded just by looking at you." He breathed a laugh. "You know… I never know how to make people stay. Perhaps that's why you couldn't see how much you mean to me."

He lifted his head again, though his gaze escaped you. Instead, he watched with a lidded eye as his hand inched toward you, slowly, timidly, like a ghost creeping into the light. Slender fingers wrapped around yours, warmer than his vision would have you believe. 

“I really hope I’m right about this, but surely you feel the same, right?”

A part of you still adamantly wanted to say no, that you disliked him with every fiber of your being, that his teasing and self-assured ways irked you to no end, but you knew it wouldn’t be true. The truth lay dormant within you, lodged in your spine like a ragged dagger. You weren’t so unabashed that you would deny its unquestionable existence.

You never did hate him. It was just so much easier to be furious than to admit how badly you longed to have him in your heart. From the very beginning, you’d simply been a blind chaser of the unattainable moon, frustrated by the emptiness that greeted your grasps. 

“I do.” You admitted, quietly but surely. He smiled.

Air was zapped between you, an invisible string pulling him in, pushing you toward the precarious edge. He was so close you could feel the warmth of his breath, clouding your senses. There was no denying the eager jump in your throat, the blood pumping in your veins so vigorously it hurt. 

He reached for your cheek, palm resting there like it was made for him to hold.

Now, this moon was right in front of you, face bare and open with hope.

But you didn’t want it.

The bushes rustled, and out came one of the adventurers. “We’ve already set up the- oh. Oh, sorry-”

Both of your heads snapped towards him, and you tore yourself away, restoring that precious distance between you. “Be there in a minute.”

“Okay.” He looked pointedly between you and the quiet captain before scurrying away.

Your heart had not ceased trampling. You got up on your feet, “We should head back.”

“So soon?”

His hand, you realized, was still placed where you’d wrung yourself from him. Downcast was his eye as he waited for your answer.

You nodded, knowing better. It was all a cruel joke played by the hands of some mindless concoction. Even without everything he’d said, you’d already noticed the effects; fondness laced in his actions, tenderness in his words, everything fragile that you would lose in a blink. 

“…You’re right. We should get some rest.” was what he said, but the frozen hurt on his wound of a face told you otherwise.

Without surprise, you were the one who walked away first.

—

By the time the knights arrived it was already past noon. Your ribs got better in a flash, courtesy of the healer that came with.

Kaeya stuck around for the trek back to the city, but he was uncharacteristically quiet save for the short and light-hearted exchanges he shared with others. When you shot him a probing look, he only flashed you the usual smile, charming to most, hollow to you. 

“I was going to ask you to come grab a drink with me, but then I figured you’d better take a long rest,” he finally said when the windmills came into view. “Actually, you should take a few days off too, just in case someone accuses me of exploiting my partner."

"I could say the same about you," you referred to his bandaged arm. The truth was, it would really help to have something to numb yourself after spending an entire night rolling in a less than cozy tent while trying to ignore the obvious lumps against your back.

That, and the infinite train of thoughts running through your head at lightspeed.

No matter- you were going to find Sucrose and have her prepare an antidote and put your mind at ease. Case closed.

There were only a handful of places Sucrose could be, and you got it right with your first guess. Muffled chatters dropped silent as you knocked on the door to the laboratory, and out came a curious Sucrose. A smile graced her face as she took you in, and she opened the door to reveal Lisa, head swiveled around to meet you.

"Here you are, dear. How are you feeling?"

"Oh, right! How are your injuries? I could see if there's any medicine lying around," Sucrose followed you back into the room. On the table were several open books, filled to the edges with incomprehensible scribbles and complicated diagrams. Beakers and test tubes were set up on another bench, a sign that they were probably on something important.

"I'm already feeling as good as new, don't worry. I see that words spread like wildfire around here,"

"Pretty hard to ignore when you work inside the headquarters," Lisa said. A moment passed as she observed your facial expressions. "So? How did your little expedition go?"

You knew what she was hinting at. Heaving a sigh, you instead turned to Sucrose. "So, remember a few days ago when you gave me a bunch of potion samples?"

She nodded sharply. 

"Well… someone accidentally drank the love potion, and I'm pretty sure it took effect–" Lisa hummed meaningfully. "-- so I was wondering if you could make a cure for it?"

"Oh," realization dawned on her face, morphing into worry as she moved to flip through the worn, yellow pages. "That sounds awful, but just for science purposes, what symptoms did they show?"

"Flirting, being touchier than usual, unexplained jealousy, this and that." You chewed the inside of your cheek, decidedly leaving out the scene on Dragonspine. "And verbally expressing affection."

Her pen moved like lightning as she wrote. "I see… alright then, I'll make it right away!"

"Oh, thank you so much. I was worried that that pink stuff would have no antidote."

"There's always a solution to a problem," Lisa stated, a mischievous glint flashing in her eyes. "Maybe you would like to share more about the symptoms, you know, for research purposes?"

You were about to retort when Sucrose turned to you, confused. "Sorry, but…you’re sure it was a love potion?"

You nodded.

"But it was pink?"

Another bob of your head.

"That's weird. Love potions aren't pink, they're green."

"What?" You croaked. "No, that was– I mean, pink's for love, right?"

"Alchemy doesn't really care about sentiments. Or color theories, for that matter," she murmured. "If I remember correctly, the pink one should be a… truth potion. It forces someone to tell only the truth. Are you sure about the symptoms?"

"WIthout a doubt."

"Mm. But then that would mean…" she trailed off as the gears kicked off in your brain. Lisa looked as unfazed as ever, simply watching on with a knowing grin. 

That doesn't make sense. If Sucrose was right and it'd really been a truth potion that Kaeya had drunk, then it meant–

– everything he'd said was true. And if he had indeed been displaying signs of interest, then– 

"No," you muttered. "It's not possible."

"Darling, it's right in front of you," Lisa shook her head incredulously. "I'm surprised it took you this long to figure it out."

Figure what out? That Kaeya fricking Alberich actually, honestly, truthfully liked you? Not in the friendly kind, but in the romantic kind?

It’s not… possible. Right?

You started to rewind. Every single year you’d spent knowing him, every snippet of memory too short to hold onto…

It all sounded like a joke, but it only took a little thinking to realize that the clues had been there all along, scattered across time and space. Teasings you’d always mistaken for playfulness, gestures that could very well be genuine in their nature. And the things he said— all this time —

“If, um,” Sucrose grimaced at the blank state of your face, “If it’s a truth potion, you can just wait for it to wear out. The period of effectiveness is rarely long…”

“Okay,” you managed to utter a single word, because- damn it , the way you walked away last night after everything that had happened was nothing short of cruel.

You turned on your heels, desperation setting in. Lisa’s confused question hung and faded in the air as you excused yourself out of the room, a single motive standing out among the cluster of thoughts.

You had to fix things.

—

Kaeya’s office being vacant was nothing out of the ordinary, but when he was neither at the tavern or at home, you found yourself walking in circles through the streets, looking for just a brief sign of his whereabouts.

Muscle memory led you back home in the end, but as you turned the corner, you found the man you’d been searching for lingering in front of the door, now dragging a loose sack on the ground.

“Kaeya!” You called, picking up the pace. There wasn't anyone else around this neighborhood. He whipped his head around and, at the sight of you, bloomed into a smile. 

How could you have ever missed that?

“I thought I told you to get some rest. Where did you go wandering off to?”

“It’s not important. I need to- wait, why are you here?”

He clicked his tongue, lifting the sack by a mere inch. “Diluc ambushed me out of nowhere and chastised me for putting you in danger. And then he threw me this ugly bag and told me to deliver this to you,” he put a hand-sized container in your hand. “It’s an ointment. Works magic for cuts.”

“I’ll thank him later,” you pocketed it. “What’s in the sack?”

“Oh, you know, bandages, medicine and whatnot. I was expecting wine, but I guess this will do.”

Despite his offhand shrug, he donned a smile that warmed your heart— but that wasn’t why you were here. You shook off the distraction and sucked in a breath. “I need to tell you something.”

“Alright. But you should first know that I have very high standards and won’t accept just any love confessions.” He moved to lean against the wall.

You rolled your eyes. “Sure. It’s not gonna stop me from trying though.”

His smirk drooped. You were once again reminded of the eternal satisfaction of being able to catch him off guard. 

“It’s gonna sound totally absurd, but… I do like you. And it’s not as a friend.” The words stumbled out of you. Your heart was in a frenzy, jumping on a trampoline.

“As a colleague then?” He snickered at the irritation showing on your countenance. “Okay, sorry… You really mean it?”

“Absolutely.”

“I see,” his voice dropped in volume. “Then why did you leave me hanging last night?”

“I didn’t think you liked me.”

“I told you-”

“I know! But I thought you were…” you grimaced.

“Drugged?”

You froze. He spent a torturous moment confirming his theory before sighing. “I don’t usually get drunk, you know. Even if I do, I recall everything. I remember what I put inside my body. So what kind of potion was it?”

“A truth potion.” You murmured.

“And… you thought it was a love potion?”

“Congrats, you got it right,” you pursed your lips, the ordeal entirely too embarrassing for you to deal with. Your eyes dashed around, anxious for a response.

It was an ill-contained snicker. You frowned as laughter bubbled out of him, crinkles forming around the corner of his eye. “You really took the long way round, didn’t you? I can’t believe it took you this long.”

“Yea, go ahead and laugh. As if I’m not embarrassed out of my mind already.”

“You don’t need to be embarrassed,” he dropped the bag and cut off the distance between you with a bold step. “Although it is frustrating to watch, I can’t deny that it’s a bit endearing.”

You tilted your head up, “Is this you being honest or has the potion already expired?”

“It’s just me. Promise,” he cupped your face between his palms, playfulness smeared across his expression. Years of partnership, and this was the first time you saw him in a way that was true to your heart. You wanted to ask him about when he first fell for you, what all those words he’d muttered when he thought you’d been facing death meant, and many many more mysteries that coated around him. 

“You know,” you pulled back just as he was about to lean in. He looked offended at being rejected a second time. “About what you said last night…I’ll stay even if you don’t ask me to.”

He scoffed lightly, face softening. He didn't need to say anything for you to know what he was thinking.

This time, you were the one who made the move.

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