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I'm not good at anything

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“Fall in love with the person who enjoys your madness, not an idiot who forces you to be normal.”

— Unknown

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I am RIDICULOUSLY hyper focussed on the Usyk and Fury fight

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Abortion Grief

Sometimes when I'm scrolling, I see all the posts,

From friends and acquaintances who like to boast.

They like and they share, not a care in the world,

To show off their children, their boy or their girl.

But inside I hurt as I try not to look,

Reminded of you when my world took a shook.

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✨ I am 11 days sober ✨

Good morning everyone, I just thought I would keep my blog updated and announce that I am 11 days sober today, free of weed and nicotine.

My sleep is still disturbed (that's expected as I recently was diagnosed with combined type ADHD) I used weed for many reasons and sleep was a biiig one.

Things I've noticed the most? I have a completely different outlook on life this time whilst trying to quit, I know that the correct diagnosis and medication is what is helping me do this off my own back. I've been able to do a few more things for myself like book appointments, answer phone when it rings, harder workouts, retaining information, I've only cried once the other night I got a bit emotional but allowed myself to cry for a minute or 5, feel the emotion, process it and move on. My skin feels smoother, my tongue is PINK (if that makes sense lol) and I can smell things I couldn't before.

I'm excited to hit 14 days and can not wait to get to 28 (apparently withdrawal symptoms will be gone then).

At times I crave something because of old routine, yesterday I had an appointment I would have loved nothing more than a joint after to calm me down because I was a little hyper and wanted to talk about it for hours but instead I owned it, I got things off my chest and talk to myself or even ignore the cravings. I do have a nicorette inhaler which is helpful for those times. One day I may have none of the inhaler, another I may use it 3 times (always going outside so it doesn't become a new bad habit).

I hope everyone has a good day ✨

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I am 6 days sober

Today marks the 6th day of being sober. I have cut marijuana and cigarettes out of my life for good. I've tried many times before but since receiving my correct diagnosis and medication, I am actually doing it and feel completely different this time around.

Sleeping has been SO difficult but last night I got my first full sleep (I have my cat to thank for that because he slept on my hand all night so I couldn't keep turning over lol).

I'm taking up healthy habits and my whole mindset just feels completely different this time around. I'm thinking of my future properly, all the ins and outs that I never would have considered.

I'm eating good, no more binge eating (I still have Easter eggs in the cupboard that I'm not even tempted by).

I feel like I'm rebirthing. I'm allowing myself to be the combined type ADHD girl that I always have been, and yes, I have flashbacks from things that have happened but this time round I'm owning it, I refuse to let anyone or anything take any more away from me.

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currently in ADHDepression and feel like I always have been

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it's so daunting realising i've always been this way and always will be

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Singing and being in love give me the biggest high ☼

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“My imagination makes me human and makes me a fool; it gives me all the world, and exiles me from it.”

— Ursula K. Le Guin

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Disabled people are allowed to be pissed. Disabled people are allowed to be negative, angry, bitter. Abled people lament and complain about the hands they're dealt all the time. Disabled people have no more obligations than abled people to be always positive and looking for the bright sides.

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The way I think literally sends me to tears

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I was meant to brush my hair an hour ago...

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Cba doing anything whilst desperate to do something.

There are 19 days left before my ADHD assessment, finally. I have been waiting since August last year. 

Today, no matter what I try to do, I am just unable to. 

If anyone has any advice or tips of what I may need to prepare for this assessment (or what you did for yourself) that would be greatly appreciated.